WARNING: this chapter talks about eating disorders so if you cannot read things like this or if things like this disturb you, please do now read this chapter.

Once Xiumin was done washing his hands, he left the restroom and went to the others back outside and everyone was getting their things and getting ready to leave the restaurant.

As Xiumin grabbed his sweater, he put it on and left the restaurant as well, heading into one of the black vans with the other members behind him.

Luhan was sitting next to Xiumin, like always and gave Xiumin a smile as he whispered near his ear "I'm happy that you were eating in there."

Xiumin didn't reply, he just continued to look out the window. He didn't want to even remember himself eating so much.

"You ignoring me now because I found out?" Luhan asks with a hint of sadness in his voice.

"I-It's not that" Xiumin says in a stutter while turning his head from the window to look down into his lap.

"Then why do you seem so upset with me?" Luhan asks, looking at Xiumin seriously but Xiumin didn't reply yet again.

"See you are upset that I found out...but it's better that I did, you can't be doing that to yourself Xiumin" Luhan explains but Xiumin ignored him yet again.

As all the members got into the dorms, they all went into their own individual rooms and as Xiumin and Luhan both got into their room, Xiumin was sitting on his bed, cross legged and was on his phone while Luhan was on the other side of the room, getting changed.

Xiumin then checked SNS to see what the fans were saying and more hate comments about his weight, on top of that some sasange fans started bashing some of the other Chinese members as well.

"What're you looking at?" Luhan asks, looking over his shoulder to see Xiumin.

Xiumin sighed as he turned off his phone and placed it on his pillow as he says "nothing" in a long sigh.

"What, were you reading the hate comments?" Luhan asks, looking at Xiumin seriously and Xiumin bit his bottome lip, knowing he couldn't lie to Luhan.

"Xiumin if you want to stop thinking you're fat, you have to stop reading what people are saying about you" Luhan says in a sigh, now fully turning around while putting on his shirt in the process.

"I-I don't need to stop thinking I'm fat...because I am fat" Xiumin admits, now getting into his covers and covering himself with them.

Luhan then walked over to Xiumins bed as he flung Xiumin's covers off of him and gave him a serious expression and says "Xiumin stop lying to yourself, you're nowhere near fat!" Luhan says, now tackling Xiumin onto his bed.

As Xiumin got tackled onto the bed, Luhan was on top of him, pinning him down and Xiumin was innocently looking up at him with big, wide eyes.

"You're cute whever you are, you don't need to change Xiumin...what do I have to do to get it through that thick skull of yours?" Luhan asks, kissing Xiumin on his neck, making small hickies where ever he went.

Xiumin moaned a little in pleasure as he felt Luhan's lips against his neck and winsed a bit.

Luhan then moved down as he was giving hickies down Xiumins body, down his chest, down his stomach around his waist.

"L-Luhan, stop~" Xiumin says, wanting to push Luhan off of him, but Luhan was still pinning him down.

Luhan then looked up at Xiumin and gave him a slight smirk while looking at him as he says "but your reactions are cute."

Xiumin blushed a light pink, looking the other way so he wouldn't be able to face Luhan and bit his bottom lip.

Right then and there, Sehun came walking into the room because he had something to ask Luhan and his eyes opened wider as he saw what his two hyungs were doing.

As Xiumin saw Sehun catching them in the act, his eyes opened wider in shock but as Luhan looked up to see Sehun, he gave him a glare meaning 'leave' but Sehun had anger fuming in him.

Luhan sighed as he got off Xiumin and sat at the edge of Xiumin's bed as he asks "what do you want Sehun, we were in the middle of doing something."

Xiumin blushed a light pink as he sat up himself and looked down into his lap, embarrassed.

Sehun then says "Luhan, you come with me." As Sehun said that, he gave Xiumin a glare and went to Luhan, grabbing his wrist and forcefully dragging him out of the room.

Xiumin then had a sad expression on his face. Sehun had finally apologized not too long ago for bullying him when they were predebut and now he witnessed something like this and got angry at him all over again.

"Damn it.." Xiumin thought to himelf in sadness.

He then pulled up his shirt to see Luhan's hickie marks left on his chest and stomach.

"How am I supposed to get changed in front of the others now?!" Xiumin thought to himself in a sigh. Obviously Luhan didn't think it through when he did that to him.

Once Xiumin was fully done thinking about it, he shook his head and grabbed his phone once again and searched up on SNS "easy ways to lose weight without going on a diet."

He only searched that up because he couldn't tell his other members he was on a diet, it's way too embaressing, on top of that, most of them would react like Luhan is reacting and would tell him he didn't need too.

All Xiumin saw were purging suggestions and excersize suggestions but that was about it.

As Xiumin searched up more about the purging thing, he realized he could eat the good, yummy things he wanted...but all he had to do...was get it all back up right after.

Xiumin then searched up more about exercising and looked at the amount of hours he should be exercising in a day.

Meanwhile with Sehun and Luhan, Sehun dragged Luhan outside of the dorm so they were alone and he picked an isolated place so no one could hear them as he asks Luhan "why're you going after Xiumin hyung, I have so much more than he could ever have, I can give you so much more as well!" Sehun says in a complain, you could tell he was on the verge of tears.

"Because it's my own preference Sehun, deal with it." Luhan says, about to turn around when Sehun stopped him once again by his shoulder.

"Why do you like him though, he's fat and ugly, not to mention short, he won't be able to do anything for you!" Sehun exclaims yet trying to keep his voice down.

Luhan was now angry himself as he says "Xiumin is not fat or ugly, he's skinny and handsome, more handsome than you'll ever be!"

"Are you blind Luhan, you're saying he's not fat? Then compare him to the other members, if it was for who's the skinniest, he'd be last place, he's huge! But if you're going to choose him over me, I guess I'll have to take drastic measures" Sehun says in anger.

"Sehun don't do anything, Xiumin is sensitive to things and he'll take what you're saying seriously!" Luhan exclaims.

"Then go out with me and I won't bug him."

"I'm not going out with you even if that is a threat" Luhan says in a glare.

"Then I'll do what I was going to do in the first place, and you can't stop me." Sehun says, letting go of Luhan's shoulder and walking back to the dorm first.

Luhan couldn't help but look down at his shoes and think to himself what Sehun meant by he would do something to Xiumin.

As Sehun got back into the dorm, he stormed to Xiumin's room and closed the door behind him, locking it right after.

As Xiumin saw Sehun enter the room, he turned his phone off and looked up at him with big eyes, saying "y-yes?"

"I honestly thought I was going to forgive you and let bigons be bigons after debut but it's getting on my nerves now...you're stealing my man when I told you for a fact Luhan is mine" Sehun says in anger.

Xiumin had a surprised look on his face with Sehun recalling that Luhan was his and looked down, avoiding eye contact with Sehun.

"What, you can't look at me now, wah you're really something, you have a whole lot coming for you Xiumin...so you better watch out." Sehun says in anger and with that he started walking towards Xiumin and Xiumin started to scoot back a bit.

As Sehun got to Xiumin's bed, he looked at Xiumin and then down at his phone which was laying right next to him and grabbed his phone and turned it on.

Since Xiumin didn't have a password on his phone, Sehun opened his phone to see Xiumin looking at purging websites and things like that.

Sehun was a little shocked and wanted to feel bad for Xiumin but shook his head and says, trying to make Xiumin feel bad "so you're looking at things like this, it's probably best since you're so big you'll need it." As Sehun says that, he threw Xiumin's phone back down onto the bed and then leaned closer into Xiumin.

As the two boys were now face to face, Sehun then says "I've read our fans comments Xiumin, and none of them like you...everyone doesn't like you because you're fat and ugly. You don't think I didn't notice at our fan signings how many fans come to you, you get the least fans out of all of us and there are twelve of us meaning you're the lowest."

As Sehun said that he got up and unlocked the room door, then saying "don't worry...I won't tell anyone about your 'purging' but if I were you I'd start soon, your flab isn't going to go away by itself." Once Sehun was finished saying that, he then walked out with a sly smirk on his face.

Xiumin was then left in the room alone once again. He looked down at his stomach, lifting up his shirt and bit his bottom lip in sadness and pulled it back down.

The next day came and everyone woke up early because of practice and all the twelve members went out into the living room to eat breakfast but Xiumin didn't want to touch any of the food on the table.

"Come on Xiumin, eat something" Luhan, who was sitting right next to Xiumin whispers closely into his ear.

Xiumin shook his head no meaning he didn't want to, but Luhan put a piece of bread in front of him as he says in a faint voice "at least eat this, for me?" Luhan asks, giving Xiumin the puppy dog eyes.

Xiumin looked down at the piece of toast in horror like it was some sort of monster but he didn't want to disappoint Luhan so he grabbed the piece of toast with all his courage and slowly brought it up to his mouth to take a bite.

Luhan smiled once he saw Xiumin eating the bread. Xiumin sighed. Just swallowing the bread he could feel the calories going down his throat and it made him sick just thinking about it.

Once he was done the piece of bread, Luhan put some fruit on his plate, an apple and a couple of grapes and says "you need at least some fruit as well" and Xiumin was now really depressed.

He was being forced to eat out of his own will and hated it, but he ate it anyway.

"Good job Xiumin" Luhan says in a smile, ruffling Xiumin's hair and Xiumin nodded in a frown, then getting up as he says "I-I need to go to the washroom" and with that, he left the table.

"H-He's going to purge now...but there's no reason to...he only ate three things..." Sehun thought to himself, a little worried about Xiumin.

As Xiumin got into the washroom, he locked the door behind him and went in front of the toilet as he brought his hand up to his mouth and stuck two fingers inside, making himself barf.

Once everything came back up, Xiumin's stomach felt empty but he also felt relived, relieved that he didn't gain any weight.

Xiumin then got up as he flushed the toilet, washed his hands and left the washroom to go into the room where everyone else was.

The manager then came into the room not too long after and told everyone "come on guys, time to practice" and everyone nodded, heading to the practice room.

As EXOM were practicing their dance for their new song History, everyone was going really fast while Xiumin was lacking a bit, not having any food in his stomach to keep him energized but ignored the feeling of hunger as he continued to dance.

When lunch came around, he didn't eat lunch and when practice ended to have dinner and go back to the dorm, Xiumin didn't want to eat dinner. He said he wanted to stay back and practice more and everyone nodded meaning they understood but Luhan was very worried.

"Xiumin, come on, let's go eat" Luhan says, trying to grab Xiumin's wrist to stop him from dancing but Xiumin shook Luhan's grip off of him as he says "no, I'm alright."

"I want you to eat something" Luhan says in a demanding voice.

"I don't want to eat anything" Xiumin says in an even more demanding voice.

Luhan sighed, now having enough as he says in a deep sigh "fine do whatever you want, but when you faint and pass out, don't come crawling to me!" Luhan says, now storming out of the practice room and Xiumin had a shocked expression on his face.

Even though he stayed back to practice a bit more he couldn't practice properly because of what Luhan said and ended up going back to the dorm earlier than expected because he was too distracted.

Even when he was back in the dorm, no one was back yet because they were all still out eating and Xiumin decided to go to bed early.

As Xiumin tried getting some shut eye, he had yet again another nightmare but this was yet again about his weight but it was...different.

In this one he didn't picture himself fat like in all the other dreams he had, in this one he was the way he wanted to look, skinny.

The only thing that made it a nightmare was that Luhan ignored him. He would hang out with Sehun instead of him and everyone in the group was ignoring him because he changed so much.

The dream then continued to when he was in the practice room and he passed out, but Luhan didn't help him, he just watched Xiumin's body hit the ground and laughed at him as he says "I knew this would happen" and walked away, not helping him or anything.

Xiumin woke up screaming with sweat running down his forehead and he ended up grabbing his hair in frustration.

"W-What am I supposed to be?!" Xiumin thought to himself in anger and sadness, tears now starting to rush down his cheeks.

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sorry I haven't updated in a while, I'm still trying to adapt to the school year again and trying to get back on track, I hope you guys don't hate me for making you wait this long, I understand if you do hate me though. Yes Sehun is at it again with disliking Xiumin and now the more serious scenes come into the fan fiction, so be prepared for upcoming chapters.