Ok, first of all, I'm on school break from today for about 3 weeks so I will be updating a lot, mainly Dreams of Snowflakes, the Beyblade Burst Feederism oneshots, and Sugary Sprinkles.

But that's beside today's point. Now, this is a 'fangirl rants' book and I hardly ever actually rant in it lol. But I've been planning this chapter for about a month now, and it is sort of a rant. But idk.

Ok, so basically... (where do I start...)

So I want to ask my crush out. But there is a BIG problem.

I can't talk in public. At all. Not even to my crush.

I can say 'yes' or 'no' or whatever, but that's my limit.

Which is really weird in a way because I like to think of myself as the 'craziest person on Wattpad'.

Sooo... I think I have selective mutism, which is where you can't talk in front of people other than your family, or in front of someone you 'feel safe around'.

It's never been diagnosed but I'm sure that's what's wrong with me.

Anyway look it up if you want more info, but I can't ask my crush out if I can't say practically anything in front of him.

So what dafuq do I do?

Also side note: I really thought this would be longer but it's only like 200 words.

But anyway please tell me what I should do. I won't see my crush for 3 weeks because of school break so you all have a while to give me your advice.

Also, do any of you think you might have selective mutism? I've never met anyone else that is like me but I don't think it's rare.

Anyway I guess that's the end. I thought it'd take longer to write this but whatever. I've been planning this chapter for ages so I guess I knew what to write and I didn't have to stop and think what to say.

Idk

Anyway give me crush advice and also advice on how to talk in front of people.

All I want is to scream across the room like, 'VALT IS MY CHILD' or something.

Ok imma go now

Also one more thing: I never told anyone else other than my family about the selective mutism thing, so it's kind of a secret. But I trust you guys, and that's why I told you.

No one really reads this book anyway.

Ok bye