Day 19: 5 fears you have:

Ok I have really random and weird fears lol

Like the first one is that I hate staring down long corridors that have symmetrical patterns on the walls.

Which is really oddly specific.

I think its probably linked to the fear of too much space or something. Since those types of corridors seem endless.

My second fear is a bit more comman. I get really freaked out by insects or anything with a lot of legs.

Idk why but I just really hate legs lol. I hate the feeling of a spider or something crawling up my arm.

My third fear is the fear if losing something that I've had for years.

Even if I don't even like the thing that much I'd still hate it if I didn't have it anymore.

Its probably linked to the fear of change.

The fourth one is the fear of growing up. I don't want to grow up because then I'll have responsibilities lol

And the last one is the fear of saying the wrong thing. Because I don't want to be judged. So I just don't say anything lmao

Except I say lots of stuff on here so idek

Ok now day 20: shuffle your music player and write the first 3 songs that play and what your initial thoughts are.

Welp time to expose my music taste!!!!!!!

Btw I hate telling people what music I like. I feel that it is the most private part of me lol

So this is gonna be hard, but also fun!!! Because I love music, and I trust you guys not to judge me based on my favourite music!!!

Ok before I shuffle my playlist, imma just say one thing: nowadays I pretty much only listen to one band: the manic street preachers.

Which some of you might already know because I wrote like 2 fanfics based off 2 of their songs lol

And those fanfics have actually become pretty popular so I must be doing something right!!!!!

Anyway time to shuffle!!!!

All of the songs that'll come up will be by msp just so you know.

Let's do this!!!!

*insert me going into spotify here*

Okkkkk the first song that came up is called 'Fragmets'.

My first thoughts are:

"ehhhh at least it's not the worst song on that album lol'

Because I really don't like the album this song is on lol

I think its probably the 2nd best song on the album, but I know people would probably argue with me on that one!!!

Now I'm thinking "bruh end the song already I'm already bored of it lol"

I mean it's not a a terrible song, but it's very subdued compared to their other songs. If you know msp's music then you know what I mean by that.

Ok the next song that came up is a song called 'The Everlasting'.

My thoughts right now are "ok it's better than fragments lmao but not my favourite".

This song is actually on my favourite album of theirs. I got said album for Christmas btw.

This is one of the first msp songs I heard. I think it was like the 6th one, to be exact. I like it a lot, but I like I said, it's not my all time favourite.

It's pretty long, 6 minutes and 9 seconds, so imma be here for a while.

Right now I'm quietly singing it to myself lmao

The video for this song though it is amazing. Its different from their over music videos but I really like it.

Here it is:

Such a great video...

Anyway this song is nearly finished now soooooo

The next song is... (still waiting for this one to finish lol)

...

Ok the last song is one called 'Divine Youth'.

This one is REALLY different from their usual stuff. It's very slow and soft.

And they collab with someone in it too.

This is the newest song that came up today. It came out in 2014. In case you were wondering, Everlasting came out in 1998 and Fragments came out in 2004.

Anyway my first thoughts about Divine Youth was "welp imma probably cry in a minute".

Its one of those songs that'll make you cry, or cheer you up, or both. It's also very underrated in the fandom, but I really like it.

I think the other songs on the album outshine it just a bit though!!!!

Ok that's all now.

I hope you enjoyed me ranting about music lol

I just wish I could do it in real life!!!

(bonus the fourth song that came up on the playlist is one called Imperial Bodybags and my first thoughts were "REEEEEEE IMMA SING NOW: NOTHINGS FINISHED IT JUST FADES AWAY, LIKE A LOVER WHO HAS LOST HER FAITH..."