jimin as james
you as anna

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A N N A

i saw myself on the mirror; really looking like a housewife with my hair all messed up into a bun, a bandana over my forehead, an oversized plain white t-shirt and nothing but my underwear under my shirt. i grabbed the vacuum cleaner again and started roaming it around the place, remembering earlier this morning that i had woken up all alone in the bed, him already flying probably across the world.

tears started to caress my cheeks, leaving traces of longing and desire to just take a short glimpse of him. i wiped it off, grabbing the pieces of paper that had scattered across the dining table, some were crumpled yet all were worthless so i had to get them to the trash bin.

~ bogoshipda, bogoshipda ~

bts' 'spring day' started coming up, and it sure does every time we miss each other or whenever we're apart. i stared at my phone that had played thousands of music before this but never had it been that song that undeniably fitted with the atmosphere right now.

i dropped myself down the vanilla-colored couches that messily distributed themselves across the whole living room and i just let myself break down. it had still been an hour since he actually left but it only took us a day to cuddle and be with each other. it wasn't fine because i'd have to stay right here and watch him flirt with different girls and i don't even want to agree with the fact that he's been rumored to be dating famous girls here in korea when in total honesty, he's always been mine all along but no one knows and we have to keep it that way. i mean, that's okay right? to know he's yours but it feels like he ain't?

i heard slow knocks on the door, wiping my tears and smiling to myself so it doesn't look like i've been crying. going up, i unlocked the door to see that it was a woman, james' make-up artist to be exact. she smiled at me as she mentioned for me to get dressing and follow her when i'm done.

with utter confusion, i followed her instructions anyway and dressed in my best dress: a plain, baby blue, knee-length, strapless dress that showed my curves perfectly as how james would say. the black laces of my stilettos clung onto my feet as i walked out the door of the penthouse and into the black velvet limousine that had parked right in front of our lawn.

from: james😘

baby, trust them okay?

i read his message when i got in the back seat of the car. it started moving as i typed my reply, saying that i know them anyways so i had pretty much trusted them. i was still confused with everything so i asked the lady that had seated next to me.

"what's happening?"

"just listen carefully. when you get inside the venue, two security guards will get you to the vip column and wait for your cue there, okay?" she muttered as she started contacting people.

i was still confused but at least i've got some information on what they're about to do to me. honestly, i was kind of expecting that james would go through all this hussle to get me to a really secluded restaurant and propose but then it got crossed out of my head when the lady said that their would be two guards dragging me to the vip column and stuff so it wouldn't be a restaurant.

i got frustrated in thinking so i just laid my head back on the seat and tried to close my eyes when suddenly, the car had stopped and the lady threw a hoodie over my head and pushed my head down so i had to bow all the way to a very large concert arena. i could hear yelling people and cameras flashing as i was being pushed inside, luckily having no one there so the lady threw the hoodie she had on my head to the bodyguards she had with us.

two guards approached us and held me on both my arms like i was some kind of criminal which totally had me so damn confused all over again. i was pushed inside a really loud arena and i started to hear voices that seemed to scream like there was no tomorrow.

"what the heck?" i mumbled as i saw james and the rest of his band members standing on the stage, chasing each other like kids and all those shit and then he spotted me, winking and showing finger hearts at me as he smiled. some fans caught this and they started shaking me, telling me that i was so lucky to have had james' attention for a while.

i smiled at them.
if only they knew.

J A M E S

"so let's take a moment of silence." i said as i spotted her near the stage. she looked so beautiful that i almost had to catch my breath.

"james, what are you doing? this isn't part of the script." our leader said as he whispered in my ears. i nodded and looked at anna again who was smiling at me, talking with a random fan that had stood next to her.

he started to go with it, knowing my intentions and started to tell everyone that we have a really good and bad news to all the ARMYs out there who's in love with me.

"there is this very special girl that had meant the world to me for almost 2 years now." i started to speak, my eyes on anna as she glared at me, shocked at my sudden confession.

i stared back at the crowd to avoid mischief and they listened patiently to what i'd say next.

"she had always been there, and she'll always be as to what she promised me. that she'd be by my side, through better or worse, through smiles and tears, even across a dessert and an ocean, she'd be there with me."

"she's beautiful, every angle she is. i would love her even if she's not beautiful enough for you, but to me, she is. she's my universe, and she's what i've been asking for santa every christmas that had came, my every year's resolution."

tears brought my eyes to glimmer as i bowed my head, walking to her direction and grabbing her hand, the girl she was with was as surprised as anna was but it didn't matter. ARMYs started cheering but when we got back to the middle of the stage, they went silent again.

"anna, jagi. you know i had never been the best boyfriend, always leaving you at home alone while you tear yourself apart. i'm so sorry for all the ruthless fighting, all the times i've made you cry. every single mistakes we've had in the past."

she stared at me, her tears also beginning to fall to her cheeks and she burried herself on the palm of her hands. i took her hands away, caressed her cheeks and wiping the tears she's had. my hand remained on her cheeks, her eyes stared deep into mine, intending for me to get lost in her universal eyes that seemed to be so dark but was filled with twinkling stars that it shined brighter than the morning sky.

"i love you so much, anna. and i can't even imagine myself going through all this frustration without your love taking it all away from me. you are a distraction, the worst of them all. you are my greatest downfall,"

"i love you so much too, james." she murmured as she didn't hold back into embracing me, myself dropping the microphone as i held her tightly into my arms. she felt so warm, like how i've always felt whenever i was with her.

as we broke off from our embrace, i kneeled down on one knee, grabbing a red velvet box. the crowd started to roar but it mattered less to what she's going to say.

"anna, will you do the privilege of being the mother to my children and to being my partner in life?"

at last, i was going to ask her. after all the years we've been together, at last she'd always be mine to hold until the end of time. i could imagine us being together i the penthouse, two kids running around and jumping into our arms as we cuddle up on the sofa, watching netflix and just being a normal family. even if we'd fight and think we'd just have to see other people, im the end of the day, we'd still hug each other under the covers of our bed and whisper sweet nothings until we drift into dreamland. and then i asked her something she's been wanting to aswer all her life.

"anna, will you marry me?"

she sobbed as she pulled me up and pressed her lips agaisnt mine, and i couldn't tell how it was still possible for her lips to still be perfectly fit against mine. tears joined into the kiss, making it a bittersweet symphony agaisnt the waves of rhythms constructing displays before us.

i could feel her smiling as we pulled away, panting with our foreheads still pressed against each other, my hands on both her waist and her hands made their way to the back of my neck.

"yes, james. i do."