Before I say anything, I'd like to apologize.

Apologize for not updating in over a month. It's been a weird period. (Insert period joke here)

But.. I'm hoping it'll get better. Maybe not immediately, but hopefully soon. I just want things to go back to normal. I missed you guys so much.. anyone who even bothers to talk to me on here. Winter, Aysha, Dawson, Rush.. there are so many more, too.

Not updating was just making everything a bit more depressing, but I didn't want to hoard my randomness book with a bunch of emo crap.. XD

"Today I tried to kill myself with a zamboni. I got bored and went home after 2 hours..."

Yep, I picked up a twisted sense of humour during this weird period.

It's also a reference to Deadpool, funny enough. You know that scene?

*laughs* You're- You're about to be killed by a zamboni!

(Unfortunately haven't seen the movie yet. My computer doesn't want to run Kodi XD)

Anyway.. I feel like going into depth about why I stopped updating would be kind of self-centred.. but I feel like you guys deserve to know why.

I wasn't gone completely or anything. I still looked at other peoples books, responded to some messages or comments.. you know.

To make a long story short, my depression.. kind of.. went through the roof. I couldn't convince myself to update.. every time I tried, I would just get all depressed about it and break down. My mom and I tried getting my depression to fuck off through things like exercise, natural sunlight, or a healthier diet, but nothing worked.

So, I missed a day at school, (which happened to be the same day that we had a special guest at school..) and we sat in a waiting room for an hour and 45 minutes after our scheduled appointment time, to try and get a prescription for any sort of anti-depressant.

We succeeded. I'm hoping that with the medication, I can feel better within a few months. I just want to get back to making my stupidly funny chapters about minecraft story mode, and jessdar, and all the stuff that I loved before, but had to forget about because of my emotions.

It's past 3:30 AM where I am, and it looks like I'm in the 10% of people who apparently get all wired up from anti-depressants, because normally I'd be asleep by now.

Greeeeeeaaaaaaaat.

But focusing on the positive.. hopefully I'll feel better, and get to updating regularly soon.

I'm gonna try to sleep.. and probably fail.

Toodles!
😊

(Ps: sorry if this was rushed.. if you guys want a more in-depth explanation, I'll probably write it in my depression book soon. It was a shitty time period, needless to say.. but I'm glad I'm back.)