(Warning.. I don't know what the heck this is. I just wrote what was on my mind... I'm out, peace!)

I don't feel as attached to season 1 as I am to season 2, but I'm definitely more attached to season 1 than I was before.

Mainly because Telltale added that nostalgia of season 1 into season 2, and I felt... Really strongly about it.

Before season 2, when I had first started watching Minecraft Story Mode, I didn't feel really attached to the characters. Not even Reuben.

I didn't really understand the story, (and I was a dumbass, so I kept on skipping episodes XD) and the characters just felt.. strange.

One day, I was sitting in my dome of concentration (my bedroom), and watching a scene of Ellegaard dying.

I thought to myself, "What a Romantic scene.." (note, male Jesse was being used)

And I suddenly imagined it with female Jesse and Magnus. I immediately started obsessively fangirling, and screeching.

That was my first OTP. Jesse x Magnus.

He was the first Character I was really attached to. I was so attached to him, that I couldn't stand watching his death scene. (Or anything related to his death scene)

You may recall me saying, I never cried when Reuben died. If I ever rewatch that scene, I cry. Freakily, I never did the first time I saw it.

In fact, before Season 2 came out, I forced the tears. I wanted to cry. I wanted to feel that pain.

When I finished watching Episode 4 of season 1, I searched up Episode 5.

Nothing came up.

I realized that Episode 5 hadn't come out yet.. I thought, "I still have a chance to experience this for myself!"

It was a miracle that I discovered this series.. It was almost like I was meant to discover it. Like as if the world gave it to me, to help me in the future.

Episode 5 came out the day after my birthday. I remember staying home that day, waiting patiently for it to come out in the game. I had bought the game in January, and had done several playthroughs of the Episodes.

In no time, I had become mentally attached to the series. It was a complete part of me.

It was like I couldn't live without it..

Episode 5 came out, and I discovered Jessvor.

I still have the freaking photo... XD

The nostalgia... I still ship it!! :D

The months from when Episode 5 came out, to when Episode 7 came out were pretty much the best months of my life.

I can't think of a single time I've been happier. I felt like I had a purpose. A reason to live, and a reason to keep fighting.

In fact, that Jessvor fanfiction I promised? I wrote the original version of that in that time period.

I consider that fanfiction to be a book of pure joy. Came from the happiest point in my life so far..

Of course, we all know what happened after Episode 7.

*Cough* f*cking depression *cough*

When Harper came into the picture, I was completely crushed.

I had become so emotionally invested in Jessvor... It physically hurt to think about harpvor.

I didn't care about Petra or Lukas. (Despite me shipping luktra) I only cared about Jessvor..

Enough sad stuff. Fast forward to when I first played Episode 8..

Now THIS ONE'S gonna come as at least a slight shocker.

After all that time, after all I had been through with these characters, after everything...

When Lukas and petra fell, I didn't cry. Not one tear. In fact, I barely cared at the time. I was shocked and confused, but not sad. It scared me to see the lack of emotion I had.

So much so, I kind of tried to force myself to cry. I mean, if Ivor had been the one to fall, I would've been in hysterics on the floor.

Here's the thing...

I didn't even want to play Episode 8. I was so scared of letting go of the series..

I was pretty upset when Episode 8 came out..

Now, let's compare that to season 2.

I couldn't get season 2 at first. I was completely distraught... Outraged. It was a big contribution to my depression, oddly enough.

When I finally could get it, I played Episode 1. I was all hyped up, but I never saw Ivor.

I was definitely disappointed.

I waited a week, (I was currently going to Vancouver Island, and not allowed to bring my laptop) then played the rest of Episode 2.

It was then and there that I discovered; I ship Jessdar.

I just... Accepted it. I accepted Jessdar into my life.

Radar became the first Character I was really attached to in season 2.

Here's why I like season 2 better:

They got more in-depth with the characters, and they took inspiration from the fandom. Not sure about you, but to me, that's effing a-maze-ing!!

They recognize that we ship things, so they hint at the ships. Luktra, Lukesse, Jetra, heck, even Jessdar and Jessvor!

They took our ideas, and made them reality!

Headcanons, theories, predictions, they looked at them all..

I mean, they even started to look into questions like "Do characters have parents?"

In episode 4.... They really hit me with the feels. Like, more than usual.

When Jack fell off that cliff, I was completely distraught. Without even noticing, I became so much more attached to all of the characters.

Lukas, Radar, Petra, Jack..

I had to pause the game because I couldn't stop crying.

(Especially when you had to chose between Radar or Fred's people..)

Same actually goes for Episode 3. That Episode broke me down just as easily as it built me back up again.

Radar being tortured, being forced to choose either Nurm or Lluna, it was really emotionally Traumatizing.

(By the way, my decisions for that Episode changed. After further research into what happens if you choose different choices, I changed them. Some of them are different, but some of them are the same.

I chose not to work for the warden.

(Because siding with Prison Radar is more entertaining, funny, and has more Jessdar. Also because in real life, I'm a rebellious little bean XD)

I chose not to shear the mooshroom.

(Why would I shear the mooshroom?)

I left Lluna in cellblock X.

(Despite how funny she can be, I decided to bring Nurm. He's more important to me as a character, and I didn't want jack to be super depressed..)

I went after Xara.

(Xara is officially one of my favorite characters. I felt bad for her, and wanted to help her out as much as possible.)

I forgot if there were any other choices. There probably were.. crap!

I got off topic. *Ahem* anyway..)

Fred's cabin.

Fred's cabin got under my skin...

(CRAAAAAWLING IN MY SKIIIIIIIIIIN)

(Sorry)

The way it reminded Petra of the treehouse, how peaceful and calm it was... It was so beautifully sad.

When Petra started crying, I started crying. Not as much as before, but it was more eye-opening. I got to look back on how far we've come.. all of the adventures that those characters went on, that we as a fandom are so attached to...

I don't know what I'm going to do when it's all over.

What are WE going to do when it's all over?

Return to our normal boring lives?

I mean, we could beg Telltale for DLC, or a season 3...

But what if that doesn't work?

The chances of there being a season 3 are getting slim..

A DLC would be more likely.

But even then.. it'll end one day.

This game distracted me from a lot of the pain building up inside. It pulls me away from reality... Reminds me that life can be worth living.

So many people turn to this game for comfort, and so many people will be lost without it.

All the struggling, the pain... We turn to fiction to take our mind of off it all.

In the end, all we can do is hope. Hope for a better future. Hope for peace. Hope for tomorrow..

(Wow, this chapter got dark..)

What I'm trying to say is that Minecraft Story Mode is almost over.. and I'm not sure what's going to happen.

I'm sure as hell not gonna stop being a fan of the game! >:D

*Ahem*

That's all I wanted to say.

In case you haven't heard, Episode 5 is coming out on the 19th.

Toodles!
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