-- this is going to be so so long because I feel sad for you with me spreading the drama into every single chapter, so I'll end the drama super fast okay? I know you want it too --

-- I hope you enjoy, and I promise it's nearing the end... I mean the 4186 words of sadness and the pain --

Yoongi POV

I couldn't even breathe, Namjoon's arm on my back, Hobi's fingers entwined with mine as we made our way out. They didn't ask for an explanation, silently wiping my tears as we walked to the parking lot. Our bodyguards were of no use at getting the paparazzi away from us and I was forced to hear the unfeeling questions of the pricks who had no real concern for any of us; of course, they only cared about getting the spiciest scoop.

"Can you fucking back off?" Hobi growled at a photographer, "Can't you see that you're making him uncomfortable?" The man holding the camera made no move until Namjoon himself had to shove him hard before he could reach to take a close up shot of my battered face.

"SUGA did you fight with V?" -------- "Did you know that your girlfriend and V's confirmed their relationship?" --------- "Who did this to your face?" --------------- "Must be a drunken brawl, right?"

"No comment," I whispered, breaking down into tears once more just at the mention of his name. It was like poisoned wine to my ears; sweet, yet leaving a bitter, deadly aftertaste. Our bodyguards dragged us to the car, the chauffeur waiting hastily for us to get in.

We barely made it home in an hour, Namjoon and Hobi on either side of me, their fingers joined with mine as I broke down and told them what happened. Hoseok looked like he had seen a ghost, his tears falling on my hands. Namjoon looked like he couldn't believe what Taehyung did.

"So you cheated, found out both of your girlfriends cheated too; just on each other, they began dating right after breaking up with you, you confessed your love for Taehyung and he LEFT YOU?" Hoseok mumbled, trying to remember anything else he seemed to have forgotten.

"That about sums it." I laughed bitterly, heart still aching with the memory of him slamming the door in my face. "He just left me. After I confessed to being so in love with him th-."

"Oh, Yoongi!" Hobi teared up, "I'm so sorry, I never thought this would happen." He hugged me and I relaxed in his warmth; at least I had him and Namjoon even if it was just for the night. They were the only people I could rely upon now, other than the other members of Bangtan.

Except for Taehyung. I don't know what to think of him anymore.

I love him so much, and each second away from him just made me love and miss him even more. His beautiful face, his blue eyes, and his breathtaking smile were imprinted into my brain and I couldn't even spend a second without thinking about him.

It's funny how I knew I loved him only today but I felt it so clearly, and how just one kiss was enough to ruin me. How he managed to break my heart with only a few fickle words from his mouth; how he, in the end, made me want to die.

The worst part of it was how I knew exactly how he was feeling and how it justified his actions. Of course, he cheated, and I kissed him in the first place. I was the first one to take a step and press my lips against his. I made him a cheater, and I knew he would remember that for a long time.

We reached the dorm and I remembered how Taehyung was only a few apartment complexes away. Namjoon and Hobi seemed to know my thoughts and their grip on me tightened, leading me into the house almost immediately after the driver stopped the car. They didn't leave me for even a second, helping me undress and change into comfortable clothes as they made cup ramen.

"Yoon, we'll stay here with you okay?" Namjoon smiled lightly but it looked pained. I'm sure the two of them blamed Taehyung for my current state. The last time I looked like this was when I had tried to kill myself just before debut when depression swallowed me whole. They had stayed by my side for two weeks, only eating cup ramen in the room where I was, not even getting proper sleep.

"Yeah, we're here for as long as you need us, hyung." Hobi sniffled, his fingers picking at the frayed strings on his hoodie. "Just tell us what you need."

"Hug me?"

They looked shocked at my words, and for the first time in the last few hours, a genuine smile took its place on my mouth. I had never asked them to initiate skinship before and I was enjoying their reactions.

"Well don't just stand there!" I laughed, extending my arms to them and they readily responded, knocking me over onto the bed where we lay, giggling a little at the silliness of the whole situation. For a second, I forgot about Taehyung, but as soon as the initial euphoria of the warm hug melted away, the old thoughts resurfaced once more.

"We'll get through this together, hyung." Namjoon comforted, "Hobi and I will be here with you every step of the way."

"I agree, but we're killing Taehyung first." Hobi growled, clenching his fists, "You might have done a lot of things to him before, but this shit was uncalled for." Namjoon only nodded lightly, his head still perched on my arm.

"Hey, let's not do anything we'll regret." I smiled weakly, reassuring myself, "Taehyung's actions are justified, and I don't want revenge or anything; nothing close to it."

"And I know he'll come back to me soon." I told myself, "He just needs some space for now; he'll come for me once again."

"I just know he will."

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-- less comments and more posts coz im lazy and I HATE seeing you guys suffer so much with all the angst so I'll reduce 2 extra angsty chapters. THANK ME rn in the comments HMMPH --

NEXT DAY!

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vantae: @kimkai actually plucked a rose from the downstairs ahjumma's garden and i CANT with him - 😂

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taehyeontan: WHAT SORCERY IS THIS😟

seokjinslips: don't get me wrong exo-l's I love kai, but HOW did he get here? 🤨

jiminiepabo: where's yoongi?😔

hungjae: oh my god what is this tomfoolery😤

jacksonwanger: what is taehyung doing with an exo member?😫

bangtarmy: so he's not gonna give us any statement on why he has bruises on his face or why he was alone after Gayo , but he's gonna post about KAI? are they dating or anything?😠

gotbangtan: so NOW dispatch has nothing to say😡

stillchewy: @vantae when you see this, FUCKING ANSWER MY CALLS!🤬

mooarmy: this is so fucking frustrating, Tae!! first it was yoons, then tzuyu and now kai? I love you but seriously?😠

taegistan: @kimkai  back off tae is yoongi's and yoongi's ONLY😡

kimkai: @taegistan sry luv🤪

taegistan: @kimkai don't 'sry luv' me you ass! YOURE CANCELLING TAEGI and im rethinking stanning EXO🤬

parkchimney: guys what's happening?😰

suckchin: im so fucking confused im just reading dispatch's announcement from last night and im legit so fucked up from all the alcohol that I cant even see clearly 😨

goldenmaknae: omg tea ya'll im going to the dorms only now! let's see what this shit is about😲

silvermaknae: @goldenmaknae ooh baby im coming too!😦

jhoe: @parkchimney where the fuck were you?? you and jin and the maknaes disappeared last night!!! me and joon had to leave with yoongi and tae went to your dorm! where are you now baby I'm so worried you havent even picked up our calls!😡

suckchin: @jhoe hobi, we were knocked out at Gayo and Seulgi and Irene had to drag our asses to their place. Wendy, Joy and Yeri were looking after the maknaes, we were all passed out.😣

dancemonster: @suckchin that's still not acceptable, baby! we literally went to pick up yoongi and we came back to find that you four were missing! but we had an emergency so we went back to our place. 😤

goldenmaknae: @dancemonster hyung, we just woke up now.. we've been sleeping for almost 24 hours. we're really sorry for worrying you😰😭

silvermaknae: @jaebumhole (read the above apology)

jaebumhole: disrespectful little shit GET BACK HOME IN TEN MINUTES IM COUNTING!😡

suckchin: @dancemonster baby im so sorry, it was really irresponsible of me, I know. RV are dropping us back in their RV (a/n: lmao wtf) and we're almost home.😓

parkchimney: btw what's with tae? he hasn't even called us once and now he's with KAI? as in one of my bffs? when did this happen😳

2seok: @parkchimney @suckchin @goldenmaknae @silvermaknae you guys seriously missed a LOT. would suggest to read all the dispatch announcements for a gist of the situation. im sure the others will update you asap🥵

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gayyp.twicetagram: boys, before you even try to enter your dorm, come to ours. we have a lot to tell you... 🤭

gayyp.got7official: we're there too. we slept over last night and we still haven't left. the tea is still too fresh for us to leave just like that, so pls come over and let us tell you all what has happened since you got trashed at an SM dorm SMh😑 (a/n: again, what is my problem with these puns lmao).

parkchimney: open the door, bitches we're literally ringing the doorbell are u all deaf?🙄

namjinslovechild: the tea is boiling hot don't burn ya'lls tongues pls we still need u to sing-😬

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kimkai: @vantae has the prettiest hands. oh, and the movie was great. I don't even remember what it was about, but it was GREAT. def Oscar worthy im sure🤩

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vantae: HYUNG you have better hands lmaoooo and we watched fucking TWILIGHT how is that even Oscar worthy I HATE you omg🤯

kimkai: @vantae as I said, I didn't even watch it I was busy watching you🥶

namjoonscrab: @kimkai u r cancelled😠

kissjiminie: this fucking sucks ugh im so done with this whole thing! im loyal to #taegi though it never happened and im sure SOMETHING has happened before with those two, and im so fucking confused and sad and idek what even to feel ugh😡😭😕

babymochi: I hate this. this is the only k-pop ship I don't want to be real.🤭

papamochi: @babymochi I find it odd and unsettling. I don't ship either😤

yoongipedia: I would like things to go back to how they were a few months ago when everyone was happy and taehyung was being a happy fanboy and being ridiculous in the comments.😭😭

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bubblyjinlover: @yoongipedia I stan u for writing that wholesome ass comment. ugh preach it for #vkai to hear loud and clear🥵

gotwicebangtan: did anyone notice that yoongi liked @yoongipedia's comment jshakd im QUIVERING in my agustd merch😮

mochihope: @yoongipedia ugh I relate so hard I remember spending my evenings with pizza, wine and Instagram opened to the old comments sections😭.. #throwbacktothegoodolddays

lovebts: @mochihope would anyone believe that it was barely a few months ago?? there's so much drama now that I legit don't even know what to think😩

suckchin: @vantae WHEN YOU SEE THIS, FUCKING COME HOME!!🤬

goldenmaknae: taehyung hyungie, please come back home..🥺

parkchimney: tae-yah, we need to talk baby, I'm so worried😭

vantae: im busy ttyl✌🏻

vantae: I mean, u guys can go to bed I'll be back only late, toodles👋🏻

suckchin: @vantae I'm your fucking older brother I can drag you by your fucking hair so get your ass here as fast as possible or I will drag YOU 🤬

kimkai: @vantae I can drop you home if you want, babe 🤨

suckchin: @kimkai no THANK you, if ever needed I will do all the picking up and dropping so back the fuck away from my little brother thanks😤

goldenmaknae: they don't call me muscle bunny for no reason.😡

stillchewy: oppa calm down, and Tae please come home. if not for them, do it for me. I'm still your best friend, and I need you to come back, please..🥺

vantae: only for you, love. I'll be back in an hour😌

suckchin: no, im already starting the car. turn on your snapmap I need your location. make it fucking snappy😡

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koreadispatch: Bangtan's V and EXO's Kai are confirmed to be casually seeing each other. They are not exclusive or serious, but one can hope!

We wish all the best to the new couple... or whatever they are....

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practicallyeveryone: this aint it, sis ✊🏻

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Taehyung POV

The car ride was silent, and Jin hyung's unusual silence only made it more awkward. He looked more upset than I had ever seen him before. His labored breathing and sideward glances made me shiver inwardly; my brother could be scary and intimidating when he wanted to.

We were stuck waiting for the red light to switch when he finally spoke to me. "Taehyung, please tell me what you're doing." I didn't say anything, still staring at the traffic light as if willing it to turn green. "Answer me! What the hell is the matter?"

"Please stop, hyung."

"No, I will not fucking stop!" he gasped, my rudeness was unnatural, and I was never genuinely snappy towards him. "I'm so fucking concerned, Tae-yah. I'm your brother, and it hurts to see you like this."

"Like what?"

"Just- ugh just this!" he mumbled in frustration, "I'm just unable to process this."

"I'm guessing Namjoon and Hobi hyung updated you on the events of last night, huh?" I smiled bitterly, heart still aching at the look on the small raven headed man's face when I pushed him away. "I hope it didn't sound extra spicy. Exaggeration is a thing, ya know?"

"You're not the Kim Taehyung I know." my brother mused, "He would never say something like that."

"No, I'm not Kim Taehyung." I shot back almost immediately, "He died the second I dumped all my morals and cheated."

"I heard it all, Tae." his voice suddenly grew gentle, "I was with the others, and I did talk to Joonie and Hobi."

"Ah, yeah I know."

"I know why you rejected him, I know you." he continued, "And I understand, even though you could have been gentler and not so harsh."

"I mean, we all hated on him for being an ass to you before, right?" he gave me a sidewards glance, and I sunk lower into the seat. "We gave him such a hard time, and how the tables have turned."

"Yoongi refuses to eat, Tae." my brother's face held no trace of the usual humorous smile. "He doesn't sleep, and he hasn't left his room."

"Oh.," I whispered, eyes starting to water when I imagined him like that - broken and trampled over by me. "That's -"

"Did you see the Dispatch announcements?" he raised his eyebrows, looking protective, cutting my words short. "I saw all the shit they said about you two beating each other up, and shit."

"Yeah, and I want to sue them for slander, even though the stakes are pretty low."

"We'll see what we can do." he shrugged, "ARMYs are all in support of what is happening, even though they're all confused. You should release your statement, Tae. Along with Tzuyu. And Yoongi already released his, like fifteen minutes ago."

"By that I mean, Namjoon and Hobi made a short video explaining what happened, without involving you of course - Yoongi would never dump the blame on you." --- "And he didn't show his face in the video either; Joonie was saying that he couldn't even open his mouth without bursting into tears."

"And now you're going out with KAI?" he asked, looking at me with a purely confused expression. "I can't believe you!" ---- "The fuck are you doing with a fuckboy who probably just wants a one night stand out of you?"

"I know you're trying to cope with everything, Tae-yah." he frowned, "But this is not the way to do it. Going out with someone else, immediately after you break off whatever you had with the love of your life? That's the most idiotic thing I heard!"

"I'm an asshole, I know," I mumbled, my chest feeling like it could combust any moment. It's not like I didn't love Yoongi hyung with all my heart - no, I did. But I couldn't even think of that kiss without feeling disgusted by the fact that I did something like that. "But I can't do anything now."

"Talk to me, Tae." he comforted, placing his free hand on mine, knowing that I too was in pain. "Tell me everything, and tell me what you're going to do next."

And I did.

When we got home, I was bombarded with questions from the whole family, with Jungkook and Jimin clinging to me like toddlers, while the GOT7 hyungs and the noonas just stood back with worried expressions. Tzuyu was crying, out of happiness that I didn't do anything stupid, and listened to her, and came home.

"Everyone, let him go to bed okay?" Jin hyung grabbed my arm, pulling me to my room with Jiminie and Kook who looked mad with worry. They lay on each side of me, holding me in the middle with Jin hyung on my desk chair, talking quietly to someone on the phone... Namjoon hyung, I'm sure.

Telling Jimin and Jungkook what happened wasn't easy, because when I was done, we were all crying our eyes out. They had been so worried, and I felt so fucking guilty that it was because of me.

I'm such a screw-up.

"Do you have to go out with Jongin, though?" Jimin sniffled, wiping his nose with his sweater paws, "He's such a fuckboy, and though he's quite harmless, it won't do you any good."

"No, I need a distraction."

"But, please don't let it be him." Jungkook whimpered, "I don't want you to lose sight of the big picture here."

"I can't say anything yet, baby." I ruffled his long brown hair, watching a frustrated Jin hyung out of the corner of my eye. He was still on the phone, and when he did hang up, he looked like he was going to cry.

"Yoongi tried something with a razor," he whispered, eyes wide in terror. "He was stopped before he could do anything stupid. You know how depressed he was before, and I did expect this." ------ "But he's like a brother to me, and it hurts to see him like that."

Jungkook and Jimin broke into tears again, and I felt like someone had punched all the air out of my chest with a sledgehammer.

It was because of me; the love of my life was suffering because of me. It was all my fault and I couldn't do anything but lay limp on the bed as if I didn't even hear. He tried to kill himself, and I felt so guilty, the hurt eating me up till I wanted to die.

"No, he wasn't trying to commit suicide."

"What?!"

"That was Yoongi's old coping mechanism, before." Jin hyung frowned, "He used to use blades on his arms and legs to get comfort when he was upset. He had stopped for a few years, but he's trying it again."

"Y-yoongi hyung..." Jimin mumbled, "I wanna see him, Jinie!"

"Not now, Jiminie." the oldest shook his head, "He's been sedated. They had to call a doctor."

"Oh, and one more thing." he frowned once more, looking directly at me. "Namjoon and Hoseok want bloody murder."

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kimkai: I caught this cutie writing lyrics for @parkseojuice's new drama. It will definitely be a sweet night, people. @koreadispatch don't even bother coming, you won't find us at the shangri-la. (oops)😆

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btbangtan: look at the number of likes lmao im-

suckchin: remember curfew, and be back right after.😤

goldenmaknae: no sleepovers or I'll have to intervene.😤

parkchimney: yeah what they said.😤

jhoe: what a stupid caption pls make better ones before I PUKE my GUTS out😤

dancemonster: I will never get tired of reporting this guy's account and posts.😤

vantae: guys- 😞

agustd: @jhoe @dancemonster stop it, you two.

gotbangtan: guys can you believe it's been a month since this new horrifying ship started.☹️

parkchimolala: nothing's been the same.😔

seokjinslips: guys, I'm literally so done with this ship 😕 but I cant deny that taehyung looks like a fluffy little uwu here.🥰

parkseojuice: why do irrelevant people tag me

parkchimney: @parkseojuice XD hyungie, this is why I love you. 🤣😂🤣

babymochi: I CANT HAHAHAHAAHHHHAH THIS IS GOD LEVEL DISS😂

hopeworld: LMAOOO Jimin's brother has the best sense of humour I STAN😆

vantae: @parkseojuice hyung, please🙁

hansungfc: lol even the wooga squad, aka Taehyung's bffs don't ship this ajajajaja😂

gayypentertainment: V, you are supposed to report here after your 'date'. this is an order😤

ihatesnakeu: you KNOW it's bad when your COMPANY doesn't ship either🤭

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agustd: @dancemonster @jhoe you're probably the reason why I'm still alive. I don't say it much, but I love you. ♥️

I'm off to the studio today, and I'm going to finish writing a song I was working on since last month. I hope armys will like it. I'm hoping for @parkchimney @suckchin and @goldenmaknae to provide vocals.♥️ I haven't been able to reach out to @vantae.

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koreadispatch: BTS's SUGA spotted walking to his studio instead of driving his car. It's the first time we've seen him out and about after the 2020 SBS Gayo Daejon, since he usually travels privately along with RM and j-hope everyday.

He looks dreadfully thin, and we are really worried about his health. Please eat well, SUGA. 

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jhoe: baby, I'm so proud of you for finally stepping out! I love you <3 😘❤️

dancemonster: to the best hyung - FIGHTING! I love you too <3 🥰❤️

goldenmaknae: hyung looks so thin, and im so sad... but I'm taking you out for lamb skewers and Irish bombs soon, yoongi hyungie. it's long overdue and I miss you.😔❤️

parkchimney: Eat the food I delivered, okay? I love you, yoongs <3❤️

suckchin: @parkchimney like you did SHIT. I made the dumplings AND the jjajangmyeon and you literally just dropped them off.🤬

suckchin: yoongles, my little one... please eat it okay?😭 or I will have to come there and feed you. this isn't healthy.❤️

daeguboys: I saw this photo, and I started crying. he looks beautiful as usual, but he looks like he starved himself...😖😭

babyjin: so NOW dispatch decides to give 2 shits about his health, the fuckers 😡

namjoonscrabs: please eat well and stay healthy, yoongi. we love you so much <3😫

goodboyv: why does taehyung not say anything these days. I don't see a single comment of his, ANYWHERE🙁

taegistan: does anyone else find it horrible that Taehyung's on a whole fucking date while Yoongi is like this? 😤 no offence, I love taehyung more than I could ever describe but something's wrong.😭

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vantae: the shangri-la has good coffee. it definitely was sweet, and it was a pretty night indeed, @kimkai the stars shine bright in Itaewon doesn't it? @parkseojuice hyungiee, I'm so sorry for all the spoilers lmao😌

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parkseojuice: idek what to even- 😤

suckchin: my coffee is better than that rat shit 😤

goldenmaknae: ugh coffee. yuck. 😤

kooksabs: @goldenmaknae jungkook you're literally a Starbucks brand ambassador I- 😂

parkchimney: ur a bigger spoiler than namjoon 😒

jiminiepabo: this is my only source of humour now. Bangtan's salty ass comments. 😂

jhoe: why cant u have coffee at HOME? you went all the way to itaewon to have COFFEE smh😤

dancemonster: I just don't know wat even to say to anyone anymore😕

jhoe: @dancemonster anyways, I'm going home. hyung's still here working on that new song. coming with me or staying? ☺️

dancemonster: I'll stay in case he needs me. Jimin's here with us. 😌

agustd: joon, just go home, you 2. I'll call you if I need anything okay?❤️

dancemonster: okay but we'll be on standby.❤️❤️

2seok: ugh to have friendships like BTS have.😩

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-- as I said, I was going to make like 4-5 chapters of more drama but decided that you would hate me altogether if I did such a thing. so I'll try to decrease it and wrap shit up faster.. --