(*you're out of his league. Sorry messed it up. Can't even do that right.)

I have my regrets as I have two partners and the three of us are in a poly. I recently developed a crush on a guy at my school. I was just making a few jokes and kinda being obvious, in hopes he turns me down and I get over it. Well shit. I fall for him more. And today he told me he liked me back. I love my partners a lot and I don't know what to do because I don't want to leave them but I also feel like a dick at the thought of just suddenly being like "hey uh nevermind lmao" and honestly I just am sick of myself because there just can't be any way for this to not be terrible because I could always suggest adding him to the poly but I doubt any of them would be fine with it and honestly it's just awkward as hell and I am likely just making this a bigger deal. I'm just pissed at K (as in someone irl. Not memedealer) for telling me to drop my current partners and stressed by how C was acting like it was that simple to stop feeling this way. I don't know. I'm a slut. A fuckup. I'll accept my fate now.