warning: this chapter talks about sad things that may be disturbing to you, like...i don't know, for example rape. You might not be comfortable with reading something like this, so if you don't want to, you don't have to read this chapter.

Back at the house hours had passed and Luhan was looking all over for Xiumin but couldn't find him anywhere. Lay, Chen, Tao and Sehun were all in the living room when Luhan asked them all with a concerned look on his face "has anyone seen Xiumin?!"

They all looked up at Luhan, but once they saw Luhan's concerned expression Lay then asks "what happened?"

Luhan sighed as he explained "I don't know what happened, but yesterday we met one of Xiumin's old classmates, and he kept calling Xiumin a totally different name. Xiumin was really scared around him though and he told Xiumin to meet him up after school today. I told him not to go, and that if he went I'd go with him, but he suddenly got angry at me and told me not to go...he hasn't been home ever since school ended and I'm worried!" Luhan says like he was about to burst into tears.

Sehun and Tao both get up at the same time. Sehun then says "I'll go look for him."

"I'll come with you" Tao says, agreeing with Sehun.

Luhan then says "he told Xiumin to meet him up where he saw him yesterday where Xiumin and I were walking, I'll show you guys where the place is." Luhan says, turning around to the front door to put on his shoes.

Once Luhan was done putting on his shoes, Xiumin opened the front door and Luhan screamed like he had just saw a ghost, but it was just Xiumin. Once he realized it was Xiumin who had opened the door he ran up to him and asked "where were you?!"

"N-Nowhere...I'm going to take a shower..." Xiumin says walking inside the house as if he was wobbling.

"Are you okay Xiumin, you look like your back is hurting or something?" Lay asks, observing from the living room.

Xiumin looked back at Lay kind of shocked that he noticed and quickly looked down as he says "everything is fine...I don't feel like having dinner tonight as well...So tell everyone to eat without me." Xiumin says turning around and trying to walk as proper as possible, but you could tell how much pain he was in, and what caught Sehun's attention was how Xiumin was holding his butt.

Once Xiumin got into his bedroom he grabbed extra clothes and a towel, wanting to take a shower, but Sehun then came into the room after him and closed the door so they could talk privately.

Xiumin was shocked that Sehun had come in right after him because he didn't hear any footsteps behind him and says "Sehun you startled me, yes?" Xiumin asks in a smile.

"What did they do?" Sehun asks seriously.

"I don't know what you're talking about..." Xiumin says looking down, trying to avoid eye contact with Sehun.

"I pick up on things fast Xiumin, how you were holding your butt, walking on a wobble and wanting to take a shower right when you get home... there's no point on denying it." Sehun says looking at Xiumin seriously.

Xiumin sighed as he says "yeah, they...did that to me...but I knew they were going to do it, so it wasn't...rape."

"Did you want it to happen, did you ask for them to do it, did they even ask for your permission to touch you?!" Sehun asks.

"N-No..." Xiumin says, upset.

"That's harassment...no, not even...that's rape Xiumin, you need to tell someone about this...Luhan told us it was your old classmates who called you out, did they use to do this back then?!" Sehun asks.

Xiumin was hesitant to say anything but says a faint "yes."

"You should report them to the police!" Sehun exclaims, upset and angry.

"I-I...can't." Xiumin says looking down with sadness.

"Why, what do they have on you that's so bad?!" Sehun asks concerned.

Xiumin looked off to a side saying "I can't say. I'm going to take a shower, so please move." Once Sehun moved out of the way, Xiumin walked out of his bedroom, going to take a shower.

(no he did not air dry this time.)

Lay and Chen were the only two left in the living room now and Chen was awkwardly looking at Lay form time to time, staring at him. "L-Lay" Chen says, pushing his name out of his mouth, with his throat getting dry.

Lay looked up at Chen as if he was extremely tired and his eyelids half way closed as he says "yes?"

"I was going to ask you if... you wanted to come and watch a movie with me after school tomorrow?"

Lay looked at Chen for a couple of minutes, not saying anything. The expression Lay was giving on his face was so hard to read, you couldn't tell what he was thinking. He then finally spoke as he asks "like a date?"

"N-Not really like a date...more like a brotherly bonding type of thing" Chen says hesitantly, with his voice shaking.

Again another long pause until all of the sudden Lay says "alright, I'll go with you."

Just by Chen hearing those words he got extremely excited as he says "alright, we'll go when school ends!"

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Like Chen said, the next day after school Lay and himself went to the movies to watch something. "What do you want to watch?" Chen asks Lay in a smile.

Lay looked around at the different types of movies for a moment and then says "well maybe...we should watch this one." Lay says, pointing to a comedy.

Chen still had the same goofy smile on his face as he says "alright, I'll go pay for the tickets. You can get us something to eat." He says, happily skipping along to the ticket line, to get the tickets.

Once Lay saw Chen in the line, he left the cinema to get some fresh air, but see's Xiumin walking with a couple of strangers that didn't look like they were from their school, and Xiumin looked frightened around them but still went with them anyway.

Lay was concerned for Xiumin's safety and ended up texting Luhan who was back home.

Once Luhan had gotten the text message, Luhan knew the mysterious teenagers Lay was talking about were Xiumin's old classmates. He quickly ran to Sehun and Tao's room and said "guys, Xiumin is with a couple of his old classmates again. I think somethin's up because he's been acting really weird after he met them the other day."

"Xiumin's with his old classmates?!" Sehun repeats jolting his head up, shocked.

"Yeah, why?" Luhan asks confused.

"We need to get him, quick!" Sehun says, grabbing his leather jacket from the closet.

Tao was concerned as he hesitantly started putting on his black sweater as he asks "why are you so concerned, he's just with his old classmates."

"Did you guys really not see the signs yesterday?! Yesterday they most likely raped him, and will probably do the same thing today!"

Luhan's eyes opened wider in shock and anger "they touched Xiumin?!" Luhan asks angry, fuming with anger.

"Calm down Luhan, let's just hurry up and go!" Sehun says, running to the door.

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As the three brothers got to the place where Lay said he saw Xiumin, Xiumin was nowhere in sight. "W-We came too late..." Tao says panting, holding his chest.

"We need to find him!" Luhan says, looking around everywhere.

Sehun was catching his own breath as he says "Luhan, first you need to clam down."

"NO THEY COULD BE TOUCHING MY XIUMIN!" Luhan yells in anger.

"Your Xiumin?" Tao repeats confused.

Luhan was too angry to reply and tried holding himself back from answering Tao. He then looks around until he sees someone who looks like Xiumin entering a cafe with a group of guys. "I THINK THAT'S HIM!" Luhan exclaims, running into the cafe where 'Xiumin' went into, with Tao and Sehun behind him.

Once they got to the cafe, Luhan ran to Xiumin and turned him around, so Xiumin was now facing him. "I told you not to go yesterday!" Luhan says, practically yelling, causing a commotion in the cafe.

Xiumin was shocked to see Luhan and frowned as he says "I-It's okay...you should leave."

Sehun then interrupts as he says "we're not leaving here without you." 

"I'm not leaving" Xiumin answers.

Sehun sighed deeply as he grabbed Xiumin around the waist and threw him over his shoulder like a bag. "S-Sehun, what're you doing, put me down!" Xiumin exclaims, hitting Sehun's back.

Sehun just sighed as he says "I'm not letting you go." He then looked over to the group that was with Xiumin and says "if you guys ever touch my brother again...and I mean EVER...then you're all dead." As he says that, he turns around with Xiumin still hitting his back and walked out of the cafe.

They walked all the way home like that and people passing them were giving Sehun and Xiumin weird looks.

Once they got home Sehun didn't let Xiumin down until they got into his bedroom and threw him onto the bed. "What's your problem Xiumin, why're you doing this to yourself?!" Sehun asks in anger.

Luhan then looked at Xiumin with sadness expressed on his face, he was obviously holding tears back. He then asks "h-how could you let someone other than myself touch you..." Luhan asks, upset.

Xiumin sighed as he says "I-I'll tell you guys everything...but please try to understand." Xiumin says upset, looking down.

"When I was younger...I always knew I was different from the other boys my age...they would all talk about the girls they like and about the girls in our class but I didn't like any of that...I knew I didn't like girls, even from a young age I knew...and always felt left out. When I started to date this one girl, to try and see if I could get rid of the feelings for guys, we ended up breaking up because I....couldn't get it up when she wanted to do it with me and called me disgusting."

"She told the whole class the next day and I became the laughing stock of the whole grade...let alone the whole school because word spread. That's when a new kid came into our class and all the girls were gaga over him since he was good looking, and just by giving him one look I instantly fell in love. He was handsome, smart, good at sports, got along with everyone, a good dancer, a good singer, amazing at art...he was everything, and all the girls wanted him."

"At this time I would get hard just looking at him in the locker rooms when we were changing. I was extremely depressed and alone, knowing all of my friends would think I was disgusting because they were all very straight, I had no gay people to talk to, so my last resort was my parents."

"My parents are huge catholic freaks, always going by what the bible says, but I knew that since I'm their son they'd understand. So one night I took all the courage I had and told them I was gay and that I was depressed about this one boy in my class. I was kind of shocked because once I told them I was gay, they started ignoring me. That whole night they didn't say anything to me until the next morning when my mother asked me if I needed therapy to get rid of 'being gay.' She asked me if I was sick, or caught a cold, but I told her I hadn't."

"When I told her I wasn't she got angry with me and told me it was wrong to be gay and how it was wrong for liking guys. She then started to bring up things like how God made two genders for a reason, to reproduce and things like that, but I knew I was gay and kept fighting back, telling my mother she was wrong. Then all of the sudden my father came into the room and told me to leave the house."

Everyone could hear Xiumin trying to hold back tears with his sniffling. "I was alone, walking on the sidewalk crying when the boy I had a crush on stops me and asked me if I was alright. I never talked to him in the classroom so I always thought he never knew I existed. He asked me what was wrong but I couldn't tell him because I was too scared and tried running away but he grabbed my arm to stop me. I guess I was caught up in the moment because I ended up telling him everything."

"After I confessed to him in that moment, he kissed me, so of course I was so happy! I actually thought it was a dream. The next day at school he would always take me aside to make out with him and sometimes we'd go a little further, but that was about it."

"One day, someone caught us...which was... the group of guys from my class. The ones you saw at the café. Since my crush was so popular, he didn't want any of it going around since they recorded everything. I knew he was upset about it and the last thing I wanted was to see him upset...I already lost my parents because they put me up for adoption not long after, and now I was losing my first love...I would have rather lost him and kept seeing his smiling face from afar, rather than seeing him in pain, so I told them that we'd stop." 

"They agreed but they said they'd replace him...I didn't want them as a replacement, but I loved him...a lot... so if that's what it took to keep them quiet, then I did it. They said if I ever disobeyed them or didn't listen to them they'd post the video all over the internet. This went on for months...maybe even a year or so, but then one day, I got adopted and I was so happy that I didn't have to see them anymore... but now they're back..." Xiumin says looking down, starting to cry.

Luhan started to cry along with him as he hugged Xiumin tightly "It's okay, don't cry Xiumin!" Luhan sniffles a bit as he then asks "b-but why don't you want us calling you Minseok?"

Xiumin looked down as he says "because... that's the name that gave me so many bad memories, that's the name they use to tease me with...and that's the name my...parents called me... I just don't want to remember the memories I had with my parents, or the horrible memories when the kids in my class use to tease me..." Xiumin says looking down, now bawling. "I-It's not like I asked to be like this!" He says crying harder.

Tao, Sehun and Luhan were all now hugging Xiumin in a big group, trying to comfort him.

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Okay I'm sorry I haven't updated in four days, and I'm sorry this chapter is long, but it had to be long, because if I cut things down, the next chapter would have been the one with Xiumin's past in it...Did you guys hear about Tao leaving EXO...I don't know if it's true...but I think it's stupid for his dad to say that, it's Tao's own decision.