SUMMERTIME SADNESS

is this how you planned it?
stripping me away from the truth
and a father too.
how cowardly I am for giving
to apologize and excuses of
a fucked up addiction
but damn,
maybe I turned you to it?
maybe I couldn't get you out
of it in time to help you?
maybe you knocked on the door
to slow? or maybe I just don't
understand this at all.
but every girl needs a father
and damn it I need you.
you should've gave up when you
had the chance
and maybe this will be the last
dance I get to have with you.
I've seen you at your worst
but what will remember
as the best?
you're my dad
and I'm still trying to learn
how to forgive you