EXERPT (drabbles for future books)

You won't be able to breathe.

Loving him left me without oxygen and
it bruised my already pale skin. We kiss but after stopping to catch each other's air and swallow stares aches my chest. Water fills my lungs before I could drown myself in tears as she held him tight and kissed his jaw.

It was all I knew, loving you. It was impossible to get back to my own feet and figuring out how to make ends meet without feeling close to defeat. I could barely touch my own skin without imagining your soft fingers grazing each part in such a gentle way. Inevitably I missed the longing of having to hold someone other than clutching onto the other side of the half empty pillow.

Soon enough the longing will fill with vast emptiness and depression. I'll wipe away tears that I forgot where dripping down my numb face. I'll wear long sleeves and only leggings posing as jeans to warm me from the air dying to fill my lungs.

After my love apocalypse, I'll find the courage and strength in every step I take as I walk along a path that leads me nowhere near you. Figure eights across my stomach will be made by someone who brings me more happiness than you. I'll fall in love and let every stranger come inside my empty heart. A new place for each and every one who intends to stay there willingly.

Won't allow them to press kisses along my neck as I beg for breathe. Won't beg for someone to hear me as I struggle to breathe.

So, if love is suffocating, I don't want to ever breathe.

will start posting parts to stories that I can never seem to finish bc I can't stick to a schedule. something new for the few of you - Pamela x (think you should know my name by now lolll) ;)