DO YOU STILL

We all have questions, and knowing
how we work, it's going
to take a long time to understand
the truth.

I just wanted to know
what would it have been
like if I had said yes to you,
if I had made you felt
a love I honestly never felt
just to make you happy.

would I still be with you today?
would I have said no like her?
would you be happy?
would you not have hurt her?
did my walk really make you angry?
do you really think I would've been
happy? walking around the earths axis
for you? ripping my scars to make you
see my bloody memories?
could I be as miserable?
would my parents still be together?
do you hate life after me?
does my head drown in sorrows
until the break of light?
would I fight wars to make you
understand what I went through?

Yes, it makes me angry, until
my fists are black and blue
to always have to hear something
negative about you,
what else can I do?
but ignore the truth
and hope you're doing okay
with someone else and that
she is safe in bed and not wrong?

I am a poet with
words that can't make
the ends of the world
understand the unrequited
love inside my chest.

I ended up in tears so I'm going to post this with whatever is on here. I'm so fucking sorry.

I'm just so fucking sorry .