My eyes are wide open. I can't believer what is in front of my eyes. Liam's back is facing me yet I can see what is in his hands, the pulsing of the light is clearly visible.
A cigarette.
"What the hell Liam??", I ask loudly. He spins around so fast that I think he might have broken his neck. His eyes look bloodshot, I don't know if that is because of the smoking or crying. I never imagined that I would see Liam of all people speaking. He usually looks so composed.

"Please leave. I don't want to talk to anyone."

"Do you smoke?"

"No. I mean only when I am very stresses or agitated." 

He puts out his cigarette and puts it in the ashtray. I carefully observe his movements.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I  ask. I am pretty sure he doesn't want to talk about it , especially with me. He walks and sits on his king-sized beds and pats on the empty space next to him indicating for me to sit down next to him.

"I am not forcing you to talk about it. You can talk when you feel comfortable", I assure him. 

 "If we would have won again the Blazers then it would have secured our place in the quarter finals. Now that we have lost, we don't have the scope to lose another match or else we will not qualify. This could have been my chance into the real soccer world. There are gonna be selectors in the upcoming matches and we fucked up our chances to reach there", Liam rants.

"You can't blame yourself for this. You played your part. If the selectors are gonna select, they will see how great you play and not whether you win or lose. You scored your goal and played your part. The entire game isn't in your hands."

"I want to prove to my dad that soccer isn't just my passion but I can also make a career out of it. I want to play for real European or Spanish clubs. My grades will help me get into amazing colleges which will be my gateway to the clubs."

After this I think I can understand him a little better. His need to be the best at soccer so that he can prove himself to his dad. I hug and surprisingly he hugs me back.

"Thank you for listening ", he whispers.

"Thank you for sharing. I am pretty  sure you are gonna get into your dream college and then your dream club which is .........?" he says with a smirk.

"Way to ruin a good moment", I say and get up. I collect my bag get ready to leave .

"I'll see you in school tomorrow.", I say.

"Wait... I'll drop you till your house."

"You don't need to"

"You came and let me rant to you, this is the least I can do"

"You don't-"

"I am not asking. Let's go", he cuts me off and walks outside. I have no option but to follow him. The car ride is silent except 5SOS playing in the background. He hugs and thanks me once more before I get out of the car.

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I scroll through Instagram to pass my time and keep my thoughts from going back to Liam and my conversation . My phone buzzes and I see Maya's name on my screen and I instantly pick it up. Her voice sounded very hoarse.

"I told them", she blurts.

"How was it", I ask. I know she has been crying.

"My mom had a look of disgust on her face, as if she didn't know who I was. My dad was still supportive but I feel this was a very bad decision overall." she sobs.

"You don't have to care what your parents think. The important this is that you accept yourself and love yourself. I have told you this hundreds of times and I will keep telling you this until you get it straight through your thick skull. LOVE YOURSELF. Have you accepted yourself as you are?"

 "Yes...maybe no but I want my parents to accept me as who I am and not who they want me to be."

"The society will not always accept you. You know that I love you right?"

"I know that. I love you too. I will call you later, Sarah and Jash are coming over to cheer me up and well....talk to my parents."

"Everything will go well. Bye!", I hang up the call.

When it is dinner time, I go down and find that my parents are already seated along with Ria. 

"You look stressed", my dad notices.

 "Well....Maya came out to her parents that she is gay and it did not go that well."

"Nutan didn't accept it? Maya has a right to choose whom she loves, everybody has.", my mom says.

I love how my parents accept this thought. They are strict in many ways but they accept this mindset and it makes me really happy.

"You know that Jake is gay too right?", I ask them.

"He is?", my dad asks but I know that he is secretly happy that he has one less guy to worry about.

I tell them about the game and the remaining day at school while we continue eating and my dad shares some of his funny stories from work. This is the time I enjoy the most. My sister also tells her story about how her English teacher slipped in class today and we all share a laugh. After dinner I go up and get my bag ready for the next day and complete all the home assignments I had gotten today. I text Wesley asking if he was okay. I waste one hour hoping to get a reply from him but then doze off with no reply.

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