Just release your inner sex goddess, I told myself as I reached him.

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Golden…

That’s all I ever wanted to be, the golden girl that shined so brightly that all came to admire her. I wanted to be the girl that my parents could be proud of and be the perfect human that they could gush to their rich friends about. But that could never be me though, I had been the cheerleader and the prom queen but nothing was ever golden about me.

I would shine on the outside but be darkened on the inside. Yes, it was nice to have the adoration of many on the outside but as I grew older I realized it truly only mattered what I felt on the inside, and on the inside I was still the little girl. I had yet to grow into the woman I wanted to be because I didn’t know who she was.

My brother, Seth, he was the perfect golden boy in my father’s eyes. He was the one that swore to carry on the legacy that my father had created. And while I had tried my hardest to compete with that, as time went on I gave up on it, because I realized that when people choose to see you a certain way for all of your life nothing will really change their minds.

Maybe I could have told my father about the secrets my brother kept but I could never do that to him when he had done so much to protect me. My brother would sacrifice everything for me and I always appreciated that but also felt bad because he felt like he had to. You see, when you have a domineering man as a father and a mother that follows blindly you end up feeling less like a kid and more like what they intended you to be, an heir.

My brother and I were raised to always be proper and not mess up, and that was ingrained in me so much that I became distant to the world and allowed myself to drown in my sorrows. 

“Kenzie” I heard my brother’s voice whilst applying mascara. “Are you still mad at me?”

I stared at him in the mirror as he removed the tape from his hands, his long black hair drenched with a mixture of water and sweat as he had just gotten into his locker room minutes before. He had gotten my mom’s brown eyes while I had green eyes, both of us had the dark hair while my skin was paler than his. He was five years older than me and never failed to remind me of it, especially when he was angry at me.

“No. Just disappointed. I never thought you would be so childish” I shrugged.

“Childish? You clearly don’t understand how things work, sis. That Beast thinks he is the best in the fighting business but he is not. Sure he might be the main event around here, but I am going to make sure he hangs up his boots.” He scoffed.

I rolled my eyes and briefly glanced at the time knowing I had an early shift in the morning. “And as your sister I will support you, but not if you play dirty by distracting him during his fight again.”

“I don’t get how you are so upset when you barely know the man.”

“Maybe because I am an empathetic human being, Seth” I shrugged. “Do you really want it on your conscious if he gets seriously hurt? Wouldn’t you rather beat him fair and square to become ‘the main event’ ?”

My brother was a fighter, it wasn’t forbidden to be one but I knew he had chosen to belong to a discrete club so that my dad didn’t find out. I played arm candy for him mostly, sometimes I was introduced as his manager.

I was a barista during the day and a sidekick to my brother at night while all my father assumed was that he had dropped out of law school to become a personal trainer. I still recalled how furious my father had been at the time, I was used to getting his disappointing stares but my brother was used to the praise so I had felt bad for him. In the beginning anyway, two years later he had become more annoying the more he grew in the fighting business.

“I would but the guy chooses his opponents so letting them attack him allowed him to be forced to acknowledge me.” He shrugged and I guess he had a point.

“Whatever, can we leave now please?” 

“Yeah. I will shower at home. Come on” He grabbed his gym bag while I opened the door and we made our way down the hallway.

“We should stop for…”

“Where the fuck is he?” I heard a voice echo in the distance before seeing a huge figure turn the corner and enter the hallway we were in.

I frowned but realized it was the man my brother and I had just been talking about, Brock Hunt. 

“Fuck” I heard my brother but before I could form a sentence I was pushed forward in line with the beast approaching us. I froze as his hands were briefly on me and made eye contact with him before being set aside as he tried to get to my brother. 

“Brock! That’s not how we do things around here. Get back to your locker” I heard the voice of the owner which caused Brock to stop while I wasn’t sure where my brother had disappeared to.

I saw his jaw clench as he walked past me like I was invisible but it was clear that even though he was a terrifying man, he knew who signed his cheques.

“What the hell was that?” I questioned as I opened the locker room door and saw my brother seated on the bench.

“Im sorry. I was caught off guard” He shrugged. “Change of plans. I'm going to shower so give me ten minutes”

“So you decided to push me into the line of fire?”

“I knew he wouldn’t hurt you. I have a match this weekend, I cant afford to get hurt” I was about to mention that he should have thought about that before he provoked the guy but he closed the bathroom door.

I turned on my heel and made my way down the hallway knowing the one way to get under my brother’s skin was to mix with the enemy.

“Hi Scott! Do you know where Brock’s locker room is?” I questioned one of the officials and saw him point to the end of the hallway and thanked him before continuing towards it.

The closer I got the more my anxiety kicked in, I hadn’t thought about what I was going to do. My brother was very protective over me so knowing I had been alone with him would be enough to piss him off. I doubted I could seduce the man when he terrified me, I opened the door and saw him seated on his couch, shirtless as I closed the door behind me. I did a mental countdown as I prepared myself to be brave while he stared at me, slightly surprised but still angered.

“What the fuck are you doing?” As soon as he spoke, I couldn’t think of what to say. “Are you listening to me?”

I moved closer to him while his blue eyes focused on me, not sure what my next move would be and I kind of liked it. The guy everyone feared was watching me, wondering what on earth I was doing near him. 

Just release your inner sex goddess, I told myself as I reached him. I placed my hands on his shoulders and gently squeezed them before I lowered my head and whispered into his ear, “I heard you”

He frowned before I felt his hands at the back of my thighs as he pulled me onto his lap which resulted in me straddling him. I felt my heart rate increase as my eyes met his, his icy blue eyes stared intensely into mine. “Well then give me an answer…” 

“I came to thank you, for not hurting me. I know how angry you were…”

He seemed confused but still had the frightening look on his face so instead of getting lost in his eyes I diverted mine and focused on the tattoo on his chest. My left hand left his shoulder as I traced over the inked dagger. 

“Look, you are still new in this business. I guess that’s why you even think you are allowed to just walk into my locker room but I don’t associate with anyone around here, let alone a ring girl. I'm just here to kick ass and get money so I would suggest you go back to your boyfriend”

I looked up at him and almost burst out laughing, “Firstly, Seth is my brother and secondly, in order for me to leave…” I leaned in closely to allow my lips to near his. “You would have to loosen the grip you have on my thighs but I’m pretty sure that you don’t want to.”

He was about to speak but I smashed my lips into his before he could, I felt him resist as he was surely caught off guard but I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer. I soon lost my courage though as I feared he would hurt me if I didn’t stop but as I leaned back he groaned and kissed me back. 

He wanted me.

And I wanted him, and not just to piss my brother off.

I couldn’t stop myself from enjoying the rough touch of his hands as they moved up my thighs and rested on my abdomen beneath my t-shirt. I thought his arms would crush me as he pulled me as close as humanly possible which allowed me to feel his growing bulge against the fabric of my shorts. I briefly broke the kiss and bit into his neck and then kissed it while he groaned into my ear, the man every one feared was being rendered powerless by me. I let my hands slide down his chest until my fingers were hooked into the waistband of his pants but his hands stopped me before I could continue.

“Stop!” My lips left his neck while I leaned back, confused by his sudden change but all he did was remove me from his lap and stand up. “Get out of here!”

“But…” I placed my hand on his back but he immediately shrugged it off and glared at me. “Are you fucking deaf or something?”

I jumped as his voice ran through me so I rushed to the door and ran out but as I did I ran into Paul, the man I recognized as his manager. 

“I'm so sorry” I mumbled and quickly made my way back to my brother’s locker room where he had just finished getting dressed.

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WELCOME TO MY NEW BOOK AND FIRST BOOK THAT IS NON-FANFICTION. THIS BOOK IS BASED OFF ONE OF MY FANFICTIONS CALLED BEAST MODE BUT CAN BE READ BY ANYONE WHETHER YOU ARE A WRESTLING FAN OR NOT ✨

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