Wednesday - Bangkok

Kongpob's POV

I had spent more or less of last night just thinking about Arthit, and what Davika said. I would be lying if I told you I'm not scared. My sexuality is in question now. It's very much a part of my identity. I watched some porn last night, and I was still very much turned on by the usual. I even watched some gay porn, and it was an eye opening experience. I wasn't turned on by it per say, but I ended up dreaming about having sex with Arthit.

It has been ten years since I've felt anything for anyone. If you asked me, I would say I'm still not too sure about my attraction to Arthit, but my boner would tell you differently.

I have ran through all the possible scenarios in my mind of how it would play out when I see him again. He ran away the first chance he got, so he probably doesn't want to see me. However, I'm not about to just let things go. I'm not one to run away. I need to find out how I really feel, and how he feels.

As I climbed into my car to start my day, my thoughts kept going back to Arthit. I'm thinking so much about him, me, what he means to me, what is going on with me, with him, with us, on and on, and on. I'm about to go crazy.

I just need to get through today and tomorrow's meetings before I make my way to Tokyo. I need some answers. If Arthit really doesn't want to see me, I can respect his decision. And at least I can say I have to tried.

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***M***

3rd POV

After the board meeting...

M follows Kongpob to his office.

"Kong, what's wrong with you? Are you sick?"

"No. I'm fine. Close the door would you?"

M closes Kongpob's office door before he continues his interrogation. His best friend is acting really strange. Throughout the meeting, Kongpob was either daydreaming or spaced out frowning. He was nothing like the usual sharp, cut to the point Kongpob Suthilak. A matter of fact, even his coffee was off today.

"Seriously? Who are you kidding? I've never seen you so out of it. Everything in the meeting had to be repeated over and over because you weren't listening."

Kongpob leaned back in his chair, and rubbed his face. While M plants himself in the chair across from Kongpob with his arms crossed.

"Was it really that bad?"

"See, you're so out of it, you don't even remember how bad the meeting went. You were just physically there, but your mind is somewhere else. And what is with the dark circles under your eyes? I've never seen you so ugly."

"Give me a break. I didn't sleep much last night."

"Why? You are usually pretty strict to your schedule. Is it insomnia? I know a doctor that can help with that."

Kongpob decided to tell M, his very best friend everything what had happened last night.
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M gasps.

"I knew it! I knew Davika must have been in love with you. May and I both thought she had feelings for you back in college. But since it's been all these years, we thought we were wrong. I can't believe she has been in love with you for so long."

Kongpob covers his face with both his palms. He feels guilty for not reciprocating Davika's feelings, but he can't force himself to feel something he doesn't.

"Kong, is it really impossible to give yourself and Davika a chance? She's beautiful, she's your partner, and she's a friend. You guys would make hella beautiful babies."

Kongpob shakes his head. "No. She deserves someone who really loves her, and not because of convenience. And I think I'm going through something else as well."

"Like what? Are you sick? You know you have me right? You are not alone."

"I'm not dying M."

Relief visibly washes over M.

"Thank goodness. Don't scare me like that Kong. Now, tell me what is wrong."

M looked at Kongpob with piercing eyes.

"I think I'm falling for someone, but.... it's...complicated."

"How complicated can it be? Just ask her out on a date. You will never know unless you try. Wait, is she married? Are you a homewrecker? Because I will despise you."

M points an accusing finger at Kongpob.

"No! Are you crazy?"

Kongpob swats M's pointing finger away.

"Then tell me. Who?"

Kongpob sighs before he speaks again.

"Don't laugh, but what if...that person is a man?" Kongpob raises one of his eyebrows at M.

M looked at Kongpob eyes widened in surprise with his head tilted to one side. After a few moments when 'just kidding' didn't come from Kongpob, M finally spoke.

"My answer is still the same. Just ask HIM out on a date. You will never know unless you try. Hey, you aren't crushing on me right? Because if you are, May will flip. It would be the funniest triangle."

M laughs at his own joke.

"Why would this be a triangle? Just go ask her out already. You only have all those stupid failed relationships because you are still in love with May. She is single now. Take some of your own advice."

"Fine. Whatever. Let me officially reject you first. This is awesome. I get to reject the Kongpob Suthilak. The Moon of our class, and the youngest billionaire in Asia."

"Shut up. No one is crushing on you."

Kongpob throws a paper clip at M.

"Who is it then? Who is hotter than me?"

M flexes his muscles, and winked at him. Kongpob rolls his eyes at M's antics. Kongpob wondered, how is M so good at his job as the GM when he is such a dork in front of him.

"Arthit. It's Arthit. I haven't seen him since Sunday night, and I haven't been able to eat, sleep, or think properly. I don't know what is going on with me. I have only known the guy for less than three weeks, and now I'm questioning everything about myself. I'm so freaked out."

"Well, I would be too if I were you. But love is something that you can't explain. There's no formula, and there's no right or wrong answers. You just have to be true to yourself. I'm not judging, but I do have to say I'm really surprised."

Kongpob sighs again.

"Thanks M. Thanks for not freaking out, and being a friend. My best friend."

"You're welcome. That's what friends are for. Besides, it's better for you to crush on him than me. You know, I'm a player, and wouldn't wanna hurt ya."

M quickly dashed out of Kongpob's office before the latter throws a stapler at him.
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For the second day in a row, Kongpob left work on time. He couldn't focus on his work anymore with all the chaos that's wrecking his brain. All he wanted to do was go home to Popeye. He has one more day to go before he can hop on a plane to find his answers.

Kongpob takes his gaze off the streets from his window, and turned his attention to Thak.

Kongpob: Thak, have you found out where Arthit is staying in Tokyo? Also, what's his other cell phone number?

Thak: He is staying at the Courtyard Marriott Tokyo Station. I have found his cell phone number, but it's not reachable.

Kongpob: Get me a room there too.

Thak: But sir, I must let you know that it's not a five star hotel. Also how many nights will you be staying?

Kongpob: I don't know. I just need to tell Arthit that he shouldn't move away from his homeland. He still has good friends here, and Popeye is waiting for him. I think I just need to talk to him.

Thak: Uh, yes sir. I will book the hotel for 3 nights for now.

Thak gave Kongpob a concerned look through the rear view mirror.

Thak: Sir, I will ask Neen to book a flight for me as well.

Kongpob: No. I will go alone. You need to stay here with Sachi, and take care of Popeye.

Thak: Sir. I don't want you unguarded. Also, what if Mrs. Suthilak finds out that you are going alone?

Kongpob: I'm perfectly capable of taking care of myself. I will check in with you everyday. I don't want my mother to know I'm going to Tokyo. I need you to distract Luke, and keep him from telling my mother.

Thak: Sir, I will only agree to distract Luke if you promise to have your tracker with you at all times. Also, I will make some calls to a few friends in Tokyo to watch over you. I promise you will not even notice they're there.

Kongpob: Fine.