Chapter 17: Throw Sass Around Like Confetti

"her soul is fierce
her heart is brave
her mind is strong"
-r.h. Sin

"So do you still feel that way about me, Aur?" The words leave his mouth like a melody and all I do is stiffen up in my place between his strong arms.

"Uhm you know-" I get cut off as an arm drapes over my shoulders and pulls me away from Chris as I welcome the sky blue eyes of none other than Sapphire Hastings. I hear Chris let out a small groan but for the first ever time in the history of forever I am glad Saph pulled me aside.

Not that I don't like him and all but there is only so much rejection that I can take even if maybe this time it wasn't those same sentences coming out of his mouth.

I like to tell that to myself.

"You can speak to her later Chris. I need her first. Bye see you!" Saph yells behind her back addressing it towards Chris and I, both and I see him shaking his head in amusement as he starts walking the other away.

"Okay? Why are you dragging me girl?"

"Because I want to talk to you." She doesn't feel the need to elaborate further and me trying to get stuff out of her always goes in vain so I just let her drag my heavy ass to wherever she wants before realising that I am already late for my next class. I'd be surprised if I don't get called by the principal today.

"Saph, I need to go for my literature class. I am already late. Can we talk about whatever it is over lunch maybe?"

I close my mouth the moment I see Saph turning around and giving me the look we-need-to-talk-now. I know she won't mind if I tell her that I really need to attend this class but it's not like I myself am overjoyed on seeing Mr. Hamond going through his man period. I swear his lasts 365 damn days.

She takes me to the music room or something like that and before I can even get my hand to turn the knob around to close the door, I see a fuming Saph pulling on her hair and internally rambling profanities at a certain curly head.

"Okay so first of all, how could you let him drag me out of that place Aur? I swear I was so mad at you at that time-"

"I thought it'd be good for you-"

"I am not done yet. I am still extremely mad at you but unfortunately Jake hold's the first place for making me lose my mind today. Who the hell does he think he is to just pick me up and take me anywhere he wants?"

I decided to answer her but she motions her finger towards me to keep my mouth shut so I just oblige. Angry Saph is not good.

"I want you to know that after him getting a good hit where the sun doesn't shine, I made it clear to him that I do not want anything to do with him."

"Did you listen to his rea-"?

"No I did not. And I will not. I do not care what his stupid reason is and he can go fuck himself for all I care. Why do guys always think that they can just do everything they want and we'll always come crawling back to them?"

I did not dare to interrupt her this time and just let the gravity of her words sink in. She is right, nobody wants to be a shoe for all their life, maybe a hat but not a shoe, I remember as I recall Rachel's words from F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

"So after giving him a peace of my mind, I just turned on my heels more like my flats and came back."

"Wow, sassy much?"

Oh dear god why did I say that. Please save me from Saph's wrath.

"Don't even start Aur."

"Sorry," I smile sheepishly at her while giving her a tight hug and murmuring a "love you" in her ears.

"Also, if he tries to ask you about me tell him that I specifically asked you to not mention anything about me to him. Alright?" She looks at me with a pointed eyebrow and I just nod my head along.

"Now tell me why Chris was holding you in his arms outside the classroom," she pulls off a smirk at the end of her sentence catching me completely off guard.

My mouth opens and closes and no words come out. She is still looking at me with that stupid smirk that I had love to wipe off. 

I decide to tell her everything from the start and once I am finished, her smirk just gets bigger. She has that teasing look in her eyes and I know she is never going to let that one go.

"And you said I was the sassy one?"

"Oh shut up," I try looking around and I spot some instruments including an acoustic guitar; quickly making my way towards it and getting a hold of that wooden piece.

"So what are you going to answer him?"

"What do I have to even answer?"

"About you loving him duh."

"I do not love him," I turn my head upwards while sending her a glare or two.

"I was joking, don't worry, however you'll come around soon," she winks at me which I successfully ignore.

"So...." she drags on that monosyllable waiting for me to give her some sort of reply.

"I will try my best to dodge that question if it resurfaces again but if not, then the answer will just depend on what I feel at that moment. Right now, I am trying to divert my mind off this and concentrate on studies for a while."

"Always such a nerd," she laughs it off and I roll my eyes.

"I prefer the term intellectual badass," I send a wink her way and we just laugh together. Times like these are why she is always going to remain one of the most important person in my life.

We decide to head out of this room and just on cue the bell to the third period rings.

We part our ways from there and I walk towards my next class.

The class goes by slowly as I notice the clock still ticking and showing me and everybody that a whole of twenty minutes are left. I focus on what the teacher's saying and copy down the important notes.

A few questions are asked here and there and I feel glad that we could answer them voluntarily; I answered one question and sat down happily basking the grin on her face.

Lunch rolled by soon and just as the bell rung, I could feel grumbles erupting from my stomach. I don't really care if anybody heard that cause come on, my stomach always grumbles for more food. Food is bae for life.

From bae I suddenly remember Chris' question and let's just hope he doesn't ask me about that but ofcourse he is going to. Why am I even being so dramatic in the first place?

I let out another dramatic sigh on purpose and make my way towards the cafeteria, my one true goddamn love.

I opened the doors to the place and let myself drown in the aroma of the food being cooked and served. I wish I could have savoured my moment with my love for a few more seconds but unfortunately Jer was full on yelling my name by now and since I was already embarrassed enough, I just flip the bird at him and make my way to our table.

Everybody is already sitting at our table except Saph and Christina so I am assuming they haven't left their classes yet.

I steal a fry from Chris' tray not realizing how much of a bad move that was. Learn from Aurora Stephens to grab someone's attention especially when you were hoping to subtly ignore them.

I munch on that one fry like a rabbit and I don't really care if I look really funny right now. I look around the table and notice that almost everybody have their trays except Alec who is probably waiting for Tina.

I get up from my table and a hand grabs mine to stop me. I don't really have to turn around to see whom that belongs to so I just turn halfway and I hear him asking me to get a coke for him. I simply smile and nod and head over to the counter.

I return with my tray full with food items and try not to let my professional self trip. I plop down on the chair just as I see Alec frantically waving at the door like they don't know where we always sit. I let out a soft chuckle at his cute behaviour and continue having my food.

I can feel Saph slumping down on the seat beside mine and I know how hard she is trying to keep a facade on for everybody and herself but I cannot even get myself to imagine what actually is going on in her small brain.

I give her a tight side hug and for the first time I don't stop her hand from grabbing a fry from my tray. I know she didn't expect that as shock is written all over her face. I mouth an I love you to her and she just smiles back. She'll get back to her own bubbly self soon, I know.

I am broken from my thoughts as I feel a hand rest on my thigh while the thumb draws tiny circles delicately not really sending any tingles through my body but the feeling is a little different. Chris and I have shared infinite hugs but there was never more physical contact than that apart from holding hands for comfort or something.

I quickly look towards him and he just sends one of his best smiles my way making me return the favour as well. His face comes a little too close to mine, as much as I have wailed for wanting him to hold me and stuff, I suddenly feel a question arise in my mind.

"Will I be able to share my personal space with him?"

I take one glance at him as my mind forms a clear answer.

"Aur, you never really answered my question from the morning?"

"Do I have to?"

"You don't feel that way about me anymore do you?"

"No it's not like that. Ofcourse I still have feelings for you but I am not really sure how long they are going to be there for. They might last for another day or might last longer. I don't really know."

"Alright. Do you want to be in a relationship?"

Is he indirectly asking me out?

"Uhm I haven't really been in one till now so I don't really know what happens in it but I think I would love to give it a try. But hey, only if you'd want to. And you don't really have to reciprocate my feelings. I don't want to pressure you into anything. We will always be best of friends whether we date or not. And like I mentioned before, my feelings may fade or last, I have got zero idea."

I don't know what's happening with me right now but I am severely mad at myself for lamenting about the fact how we can't be together since the past few days. Not everything that we'd like for to happen takes place. I need to learn to be okay with some stuff.

And right now, I will have no problem if we even remain friends. I will continue liking him ofcourse but it may all fade, I never know. I can't let him rule my mind and heart all the time. I guess Saph's words really got to me in the morning.

"Got it, thanks Aur. You know I will always love you and nobody can ever be a better replacement for you as my best friend in my entire life."

"Ofcourse nobody can. No one would even be willing to. Do you even have any idea how much work it is to be your best friend?" I laugh a little as his lips turns into a wide teasing smile.

"Same goes for you too Aur," he nudges me with his shoulder and I roll my eyes.

"Oh and I will always love you too," I smile at him genuinely before turning towards others and joining in on the ongoing conversation.

The rest of the day passes by swiftly with me focussing entirely on the classes and actually gaining some knowledge. As the last bell rings signalling the end of this eventful day, I happily get up from my seat and head towards the door.

On my way to find either Saph or Ty, I get a message from the latter saying he'll be going to Jake's directly and that I can catch a ride with Saph to go home. So now I am on my mission Saph. I look over the herd of people roaming aimlessly and I dial Saph's number.

She picks up on the fourth ring, thankfully, and I make my way towards her car. She is already suited in the driver's seat as I open the door to the passenger's.

"Hey Aur, I am gonna hang out with you for a while at your place. I don't think anybody's home and I don't want the news 'An amazing girl meets her tragic end. Boredom is said to be the main reason' to flash in tomorrow's paper."

I do a swift eye roll as I catch upon her words.

"So you are saying there are some not so main reasons as well?" I raise a brow at her and she knows what I mean.

"Whatever," is always her safe reply when she doesn't really want to talk about it. And being the amazing friend I am, I let it pass this time.

I open the door to our house and am soon welcomed by my most favorite guy on this planet. I crouch down a little to pet Tuck who licks my hand all over while wagging his tail continuously.

Why can't all humans be like these cute little animals?

Saph enters from behind me and my stardom is soon taken away from me as Tuck runs around me and jumps on Saph. I just shake my head and go to the kitchen and fill his bowl.

He comes running to the kitchen knowing he'll get food; feels like nobody in this house can resist food.

Saph and I climb up the stairs to my room and I run to the bathroom to do my business and get changed into my pyjamas. I turn the knob around and see Saph has already changed into some comfy shorts and tee as she is sprawled all over my bed leaving no space for me at all.

I push her a little towards the wall and make myself some space as I open my laptop and search through netflix for some movies or shows.

After a few hours, it's me lying alone on my bed with Tuck by my side as Saph had already gone back. I switch off my laptop and get up to go to the bathroom as the screen of my phone lights up.

I pick up the call and wait for the other person to acknowledge themself.

"Okay Aur, I really need to tell you something super important though I am not supposed to but I can't keep it in any longer."

"Calm down Saph, what's the matter?"

"Chrisjustcalledmeupandsaidthathereallylikeslikesyouandthathewilltellyoutomorrow."

"Saph you might want to speak a little slower as I didn't really get you."

"Chris just called me up and said that he really likes likes you and that he will tell you tomorrow."

"Wow okay what?"

"And I wasn't supposed to tell you this because he wanted to see your reaction himself and he has begged me to not tell you but now since you already know, please don't give it away. I know you always wanted to become an actress so just act shocked and surprised and everything as if you had no darn clue about it."

"When did I say I wanted to become an actress?"

"When you were in Clara's womb, now shut the hell up and you got what I am saying right?"

"Yeah alright. This is just so weird. It feels so weird right now, like I don't know what to think. Are you serious he said that?"

"Aur, don't make me hang up on you and yes he did say that. So now please don't let him know that I'd already told you. And also, I am so happy for you two. Okay gotta go, love you loads!"

"But Sap-" and she hanged up the phone without even talking to me properly.

What am I supposed to do now? Does he want to be in a relationship? Will I be fine being in a relationship since I haven't experienced it?

A lot of questions swirled in my head as I felt my head rest on the soft cushiony pillow and my eyes began to flutter making it hard for me to keep them open any longer. I heard the opening and closing of doors and soft mumbles of my parents from down the stairs before sleep took over me after I recalled all that happened today.

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