"I'm sorry!" Hinata screamed out in pain, he clenched his fists on the ground, vision blurred by tears as they hit the floor. The silence was deafening over the loud cheers of Seijoh's win. He couldn't believe it, his spike got blocked. It was perfect, the timing, the speed, the precision, everything was perfect and yet-

Their quick got blocked and they lost. Hinata dared to look up, his teammates were crying too. "Sorry." He whispered, his throat refusing to let the vocals pass and his voice cracked. He could hear Oikawa's laugh from the other side of the court, his team celebrating their victory. Hinata risked a glance at Kageyama, who stood still with his head facing down. His clenched fists by his side which were trembling. The gingers eyes moved towards Asahi and Daichi, they looked like they'd seen a ghost.

Tanaka moved towards Kageyama and slapped his back, "C'mon." He muttered and pulled Kageyama's shirt to make him go with him. Hinata dared to look towards Suga-san, he looked down at him with a disappointed look and shook his head, walking towards the lineup. Everyone gathered there, ignoring Hinata's burning stare. Nobody came to help him, he carefully pushed himself upright and slumped towards the back, taking his place. He saw kageyama and Tsukishima flinch away from him slightly. The hot tears burned in his eyes, it stung, it hurt. It felt like his lungs were going to collapse and it was getting harder to breathe.

"Thank you for the game!" They said as loud as their voices could and bowed. Walking forwards they shook hands under the net with the other team and they started walking towards the exit towards their assigned dressing room. Everything was a blur, Hinata didn't feel anything, it was all numb. He almost fell forwards when Tsukishima bumped against his shoulder walking past him, definitely on purpose. Yamaguchi followed shortly, glaring at Hinata when he passed him with a huff.

Hinata could feel his knees buckle beneath him. His team was mad at him, he failed. He let them down. He choked on a sob and pushed forwards towards the dressing room. His team had left him behind. He carefully pushed against the door, entering the room. Nobody dared to look at him and they all ignored him. "I'm sorry." Hinata grit out, tears never ending. He heard a "tch" but he wasn't sure who it came from. He looked up from his tear stained eyes, Daichi had a stern face on, Suga avoided his gaze, Asahi looked irritated, Nishinoya had his fists clenched and looked tense like he was about to snap, Tanaka looked mad,  Ennoshita, Kinoshita and Narita ignored his existence in the room, Tsukishima rolled his eyes and Yamaguchi had his back turned towards Hinata. Finally Hinata dared to look at Kageyama.

He was looking at him with a blank stare. But Hinata could see the emotions in Kageyama's eyes. He was angry, disappointed and sad. Hinata could see the shiny essence in those blue orbs. He felt his stomach churn and turn inside out, his guts contracting painfully. "You're off the team." He heard someone say, before the words were processed he turned around to see coach Ukai, Takeda, Yachi-san and Kiyoko-san. Ukai had spoken loud and clearly.

"W-What?" Hinata mumbled, "You're out, go find another club." He said and walked out the room, Takeda and Kiyoko following quickly. Yachi stared at him with a pathetic look and shook her head looking away. She bowed and ran after the rest. Hinata felt his heart in his throat, brain, fingers, he felt its beat everywhere in his body. Someone bumped against his shoulder again, losing balance he fell to the ground. Everyone glared at him and passed, walking out of the room. All Hinata could see were their feet walking away from, backs turned towards him.

Hinata sat up on his knees, staring, unable to move or say anything. He felt a presence behind him as he looked up backwards. Kageyama.

He was staring down at the ginger, "I'll never toss to you again, you're not essential to winning. We lost because of you. You could've easily spiked past that." He said in a cold tone. "Tch." He looked up and walked past Hinata. He stopped in the doorframe and looked over his shoulder with a glare, "You can't do anything on your own." He turned back forwards, "You're nothing." He scoffed and slammed the door behind him, right in Hinata's face.

Hinata felt his chest hurt, his lungs burn, and his tears dry.

He had lost everything.

He tried to breathe, but no air circulated through his lungs and he gasped. He fell forwards, slamming his fist onto the tiled floor.

"NO-" He screamed as loud as he could and suddenly everything was dark. The sound of the distant chatter and gym shoes hitting the ground extinguishing into the patter of rain hitting the roof and window. Fresh air filled his lungs and cold tears streamed down his hot face. Hinata looked around him frantically, reaching for anything, trying to calm down his breathing. He found his phone and he turned it on. It was one past midnight. It was Monday, a few months after their loss from Aobajohsai High.

Hinata panicked and opened his contacts, he searched for Kageyama's but it wasn't there. Why wasn't it there? Hinata threw his phone and stumbled out of bed. He reached for the light switch and looked around his room in a panic. He couldn't find his volleyball jersey or shoes, his bag was nowhere to be found and his volleyball was nowhere in sight. His throat closed in on itself, his eyes stung from all the crying. It was not a dream, it was real. It couldn't be.

"Okay, okay, calm down." Hinata tried to calm his breathing and pulled on his clothes and put his phone in his pocket. He heard footsteps coming up to his room and he panicked. His door opened and he pushed past the person that tried to stop him from escaping. "Shouyou-" He heard his mother's voice call out from behind him, he had no time for this.

"Nii-chan?" Hinata stopped in his tracks almost running into his younger sister. "What?" She mumbled rubbing her eyes, he had woken her up. She stood there with her stuffed animal and a blanket wrapped around her looking up at him with squinted eyes from the bright impact of the hallway light. "Fuck." Hinata huffed as he walked past her in a hurry.

"Shouyou!" His mother shouted but he ignored her and ran out the front door into the pouring rain. He grabbed his bike and sped off, his mother's voice becoming silent in the distance. He couldn't feel his legs, his fingers were frozen from the cold rain and his vision was blurred by tears. He could feel his lungs aching, his muscles burning and his heart clenching.

He didn't know what was real and what was not. He didn't know where he was going. He hopped of his bike, it sliding down the path towards the house he was running to. It was dark and no lights were on, it felt like his throat was on fire. He knocked on the front door frantically, tears still spilling from his red and tired eyes. He heard cursing and he saw light from under the door. He heard the door being unlocked and it opened slightly.

"Who the he-" A woman began but her words were cut off, "I'm so terribly sorry for the intrusion!" Hinata gasped for air, "Please forgive me for being so rude and barging in like this-" Hinata started sobbing, he shivered from his cold wet clothes sticking to his trembling skin. "Hinata-kun!" The woman said loudly in shock, "Come in, poor boy." She grabbed his hand and pulled him inside her warm house.

He got pulled into a hug once the door was slammed shut. "What's wrong honey?" She said rubbing his back trying to sooth his gasps for air. Hinata opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out but a forced choking noise. "Shhh," She comforted, "What's all the commotion about?" Hinata heard a deep, stern voice speak out from behind them. He glanced through his blurred vision and saw Mister Kageyama. "I-" Hinata forced out, "I'm sorry." His voice gave up on him. He let out a silent cry, "I'm so sorry miss Kageyama," He whispered, his voice hoarse from the crying and shouting and harsh breathing.

"No, no," She pat his hair, "It's okay." She kissed the top of his head, "Please call me Sumi-sama." She said and pushed him back a bit, her hands resting on his shoulders, "Now tell me, what happened dear? Did something happen at home?" He shook his head and looked down in embarrassment. He felt a pat on his shoulder, "Does your mother know you're here Hinata-kun?" Kageyama-sama said, Hinata shook his head again and let out another sob. He trembled from the cold and all the adrenaline. "I'll give her a call, it's best if you stay here for the night." Hinata handed him his phone, it might not work because it's wet from the rain.

"Thank you darling." Sumi-sama said towards her husband and caressed Hinata's cheek. "You're freezing." She muttered. Hinata heard a door open and footsteps approaching. "What's going on?" Kageyama came into sight and Hinata tensed. He looked at him in horror and Kageyama rubbed his eyes. "I'll get you towels, Tobio dear, please lend Hinata-kun some clothes." Kageyama's mother asked and disappeared into another room. It was silent between the two boys.

"What the hell are you doing here? This late too." Kageyama grumbled and crossed his arms leaning against the doorframe. "Oh god, it was real, wasn't it? This was a stupid idea!" Hinata thought to himself and tears that had stopped welled up again in the corners of his eyes. His breath hitched in his throat and he started panicking. He trembled viciously and his knees gave up on him and Hinata collapsed on the ground in front of the front door of the Kageyama's house hold. He couldn't breathe, he couldn't see, everything was black. His nose refused to let air in, his throat refused to let air out. His heart was about to combust out of his chest.