Brad and Courtney let me go first. I was still feeling pretty nauseous and tried to convince them to go in first so I can try and get rid of the nausea, but they wouldn't budge. I stood outside Ivan's door for what it felt like hours but it was only like 3 minutes. I took a deep breath and stepped in.

Ivan lay there motionless, the beeping of the heart monitor and the sound of the vent echoed in my mind. He looks peaceful and so angelic. His nose and under his eyes though are heavily bruised from Amy breaking his nose and the doctor ended up having to set it. Pulling a chair over to his side of the bed feeling pretty dizzy, I quickly sat down. I needed to take a second to regain myself and just kept taking deep breaths matching the rise and fall of his chest.

The nurse steps in and glances at me with a sympathetic look. That didn't make me feel any better.

"How is he?" My question comes out shaky.

"Pretty much the same." She answers. "You're his fiancé right?"

I nod yes and squeeze his hand.

"I'm so sorry for what you've both been through. Just stay by his side and talk to him. He can still hear you." She places a hand on my shoulder and walks out of the room.

I do what she said and talk away while continuing to hold his hand. After telling him that my mom and dad were taking me car shopping tomorrow because of what happened with my car I decide to tell him how much I need him to wake up, how much I miss him and that I was going to slowly move in. At the mention of moving in the machines start beeping like crazy and all kinds of alarms start going off. I sit there stunned, unable to move. The doctor flies in!

"Code blue!" He yells "code blue!"

The same nurse that was just in here comes running in with a cart. I watch with horror still not able to move.

She turns to me and I know what's coming next. "Honey you will have to leave, I'll come out and talk to you once he's stabilized."

Next thing I know I'm bolting out of the room toward the bathroom, tears streaming down my face and barely made it to the toilet before losing everything I had in my stomach. I sat on the floor for a minute or so trying to calm down. I finally managed to stand up, flush and step out of the stall. Courtney was standing there with a questioning look in her eyes.

"What's wrong Ella?"

"I don't know, my stomachs been upset all day and Ivan crashed and I just don't know how to handle it all." I begin to cry again collapsing into her arms.

"Oh Ella. I'm here for you, don't worry I'll help you through it all." She says trying to calm me. "You said Ivan crashed?"

"Yes. I better get to the waiting room, the nurse said she will come talk to me once they have him stabilized."

She slings her arm over my shoulder and leads me to the waiting room. We fill Brad in and we sit and wait in silence.

Brad is pacing, at least an hour has gone by and still nothing. I went up to the desk and she had no updates.

After another 45 minutes finally the doctor comes out removing an apron with blood all over it. He has that look on his face, the one people get when they are about to deliver bad news. I think to myself please don't be dead please don't be dead please say he will be ok please please please.

He begins to speak softly. "I'm sorry..........." his words begin to fade away. Every thing goes white and the next thing I know, I'm waking up in a hospital bed and Courtney is beside me reading a magazine.

"Wha, wha, what happened? Why am I here? Why am I in a hospital bed."

"Oh you're awake!" Courtney says excitedly getting up heading to the door. "Nurse she's awake!"

Courtney stands in the doorway for a minute making sure the nurse heard her and as soon as the nurse starts walking toward my room, Courtney comes back and sits down. The nurse comes in and starts checking my blood pressure and temperature.

"How are you feeling?" The nurse from Ivan's room asked.

"I'm feeling a bit confused." I answered. "What happened?"

Courtney turns to me a grabs my hand. "You fainted. The doctor came in to explain what was happening with Ivan. He only got a few words out before you were falling backwards knocked out cold."

I look towards the nurse, her name tag says Abby. "I'm imagining you are feeling hazy, weak maybe. Your vitals are good and right now we have you on an IV. Courtney filled us in on the vomiting, so we gave you something for nausea. We will keep you over night to make sure nothing else is wrong."

"Nothing else?" I ask.

"Yes I'll let your friend here explain, I have another patient that I need to get too." She pauses at the door and looks back at me. "You didn't look too good when I was in your fiancés room. I should have said something." She gives a half smile and walks out.

I turn to Courtney "ok let's put the nothing else on the back burner. What happened with Ivan?"

"Brad's with him now." She answered.

"So he's alive? What happened?"

Courtney shakes her head yes. "They had to perform emergency surgery. He started bleeding near his spleen. They were able to get it to stop. The bleeding caused quiet a bit of stress on his heart and he went into cardiac arrest."

"Is he awake?" I ask.

"No Ella. They don't know if he will wake up. They had a really hard time reviving him and he was down for a long time. The next 24 hours is critical." She looks at me sadly.

"I need to see him, I need to see him now." I begin to cry.

"Right now Ella you need to try and stay calm, you need to stay in this bed and you need to finish your IV. You can't do anything for Ivan if you are knocked out on your ass."

Suddenly Brad is standing in the doorway. "Ella glad to see that you are up. The nurse stopped me and said your dinner will be here in about 15 minutes." He smiles.

I can understand why Courtney loves him so much. They are good for each other. He such a sweet man and he treats her so good. Those two need to just get it over with and get married. He's always been really good to me as well. 

"Thanks Brad. Any change with Ivan?"

"No, he's still stable though. The doctor said that's what's important right now. The longer he stays stable the better chance of a good outcome we will have."

"He's still in a coma though?" I ask.

"Yes but I have a good feeling that he's going to wake up. His body just needs the rest. Anyways how are you feeling? You gave us a scare."

"I'm feeling better. The stress of everything must be getting to me."

"Yeah Ella you've been through a lot in the last couple days." Courtney quickly answers.

The nurse steps in with a tray of food and sets it down in front of me. "Eat up dear. Have to get your strength back up."

I finish eating and we sit around and talk for a bit. Before 9:00pm the nurse comes in to announce that in 5 minutes visiting hours will be over. Courtney stands up and bends over giving me a tight squeeze and Brad walks over to give me a light hug. They say goodnight and that they will be back in the morning to get me.

I flip through the channels and settle on a show about flipping houses. I lay there and watch it for about an hour and feel my eyes starting to get heavy. I allow myself to drift off and fall into a deep sleep.