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I just couldn't believe my ears!

Which video!

I deleted that video myself!

I started panicking, I just couldn't take it....I killed Veronica and everyone knows.

My head was going towards a direction that I never expected.

Does Timothy have something to do with this!

I trusted him! He promised me!

"Please call out your daughter ma'm," I heard one of the men in the sitting room say and I started shaking. I can't go out there...I can't face the consequences of my actions!

"Stella!" I heard my mom call out but there was no way I'm going out there.

I look towards the back door of the house located in the kitchen, it was an easy route of escape.

It was just perfect...

I ditched the food that was already almost getting burnt and ran out the door.

I ran as fast as I could...

With all my might....

I could feel the adrenaline pumping into my bloodstream...

It felt like I had no direction but my legs have a mind of their own and they were taking me to a particular place.

"Stella! Stop!" I heard a familiar voice call but I didn't even spare a glance back.

My eyes was blurry with tears but that even make me stop for a second.

And infact, I didn't stop till I got to the front of a familiar house.

I banged the door hard.

"Open this door! Just open it!" I screamed from outside, banging the door continuously.

I kept on hitting the door with so much brutality until it opened, revealing a face that I suddenly despise so much.

"How dare you!" I yelled at him, hitting him hard on his chest.

"I fuckin' trusted you! You promised you'll help me! Why do you have to do this!" I shouted at him but he just remained quiet, looking everywhere else but me.

"Just say something! Look at me! And tell me you have absolutely nothing to do with it! I know you know what I'm talking about!" I shouted at him.

"I'm sorry--" I slapped him hard with all the pain and anger I felt inside.

"Why did you this?!" I shouted.

"See....I--"

"What the fuck made you do this to me?!"

"Just listen...I--"

"What stupid excuse do you have to break your promise?!" I asked.

"Now they've come for me. You're happy right! That's exactly what you wanted! I said with a new set of tears rolling down.

"Well...I deserve it though...I'm heartless...I killed my own friend because of a guy that never even liked me....A guy that used me for a bet...I'm just a dumb, freaking murderer," I said, stepping backwards, turning around and walking out.

"Please Wait! Listen! Stella!" I heard him call out, seems like he doesn't know how much I hated him.

"Don't ever call my name or ever think of following me! Get! The! Fuck! Out! Of! My! Stupid! Life! You just made it worse!" I yelled at him even without looking at his face.

I walked fast, far away from him as possible.

All the worst things in life just had to come from the least expected.

Talking of life..

I'm so damn tired of it and all I wanted was just to end it once and for all and be able to rest in peace.

I entered it into a corner, behind one of the empty stalls by the street.

I slumped on the bare ground and poured out all I felt within in form of tears. It was so uncontrollable and I wondered if it will ever end.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaagh!" I screamed at the top of my voice inbetween my fast loud sobs.

I kicked one of the stones on the floor where I was seated out of anger and I felt my leg hurt...I didn't even know if it was bleeding but I didn't even care....Bleeding to death isn't such a bad idea.

I stayed there for over fifteen minutes and the sun was already setting. I cried till there were no more tears left, I just entertained myself with my silence.

What can I even say? My mouth was too heavy to utter a word.

I was weak, tired....hungry.

My pasta, only God knows what condition it was in right now.

I can't stay here anymore.

Everything had been narrowed into only two choices now.

It was either I run away or peacefully end my life.

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It was getting darker and I was wondering slowly and aimlessly round the busy street.

I was tired, hungry and homeless without even a penny on me.

I didn't have any destination and I didn't want to go home...nor near anyone that knows about the evil I had committed.

I was just walking so absentmindedly on the pedestrian path of the road that I didn't even notice that I had walked up a bridge.

I stopped walking and looked down the bridge to see the water beneath...it looked fascinating as it reflected the light of the orange evening sun but overall, it looked so peaceful.

It made me wonder how peaceful those fishes' life turn out to be, atleast, they didn't need to bother about about stupid feelings, being used or maybe killing someone.

Maybe my life would be better off if I could just jump in...

I looked around, the street was busy but everyone was concentrated on their own business.

Well...I think...

My house is miles away so atleast no one would be able to stop me now.

I was going to do it and end this stupid life. Hadn't even spent up to eighteen years yet and I already had enough.

Life is truly not a bed of roses...

I thought of my family and a tear dropped.

They've done so much for me and this is how I get to repay them.

I just hope that they will be able to get over the fact that I'm gone.

I pray they won't miss me too much and just learn how to live their lives happily without me.

I stepped up and crossed my leg over the rail, making me sit down on it, in a way that my legs were spread out, one above the pedestrian path and the other way above the water.

My heart was beating faster than the speed of light...

My body started shaking...I wanted to end my life so bad but I was scared...

Even death is not as easy as I thought.

My actions were getting other people's attention and I already started hearing noises and murmurings with a few of them already coming towards me.

I needed to do it fast! Before anyone tries to stop me.

"What are you doing there!"

"Leave there!"

"Get down!"

I heard people say, coming very fast towards me.

"No! Stay away from me! Just leave me alone!" I shouted back.

I tried to cross my leg over the rail and I knew that at this moment, I was just a push down to death.

They were getting closer and I had less than a second to make my move.

I started having second thoughts...

Should I do this?

The memories came rushing in...

Daniel.....Landor.....Veronica....The video.....Cheryl....The sex scandal....Getting totally ditched by my closest friends.....Having issues with my family.....Losing the thing that made me want to wake up everyday.....

That fear....that respect..

And it wasn't coming back to me.

Now, they found out I was the killer...I'm going to suffer for my actions...

Timothy....

There were just more reasons to leave the surface of this earth.

To leave this motherfuckin' life...

I pulled myself foward....

This was it.

Closed my eyes, expecting to be falling down freely....

But I wasn't, someone had gotten a tight grip on my clothes and dragged me backwards.

The other people around helped the unfamiliar man to hold me tight and place me back to the ground.

"Just leave me! Let me die! Is it so much to ask! I fuckin' hate my stupid life! I just want to end it once and for all!" I screamed at them all, struggling violently from their grip, leaving them to wonder if I was even sane.

Well, I wasn't...I was totally insane!

"Stella!" I heard a familiar voice from the crowd.

I noticed the face of my mom.

She pushed her way through till she came to me and bent down beside me.

"I was worried! We've been looking for you! Hope you're okay? Are you hurt in anyway?" She panicked, trying to touch my face. Her eyes was red and puffed up and her face looked pale.

"Don't touch me! I'm not okay! And I've never been! You've found me, you're probably going to hand me over to them right?!" I screamed at her, hitting her hands away from me and finding my way back to my feet.

"It's not like that!"

"Then what?! Just stay away from me! All of you! Away!' I shouted like a mad woman, taking slow steps backwards while pointing out my index finger to anyone present.

They didn't bother coming nearer, I probably looked like somebody that could rip someone's heart out.

With that, I turned around and took to my heels.

"Stella! Stop!" I heard someone scream for the second time today.

I ignored it and kept on limping foward only for me to be on the path of the road and notice a car zooming my way.

There was chaos.

My heart froze and my brain was struck with confusion, didn't know if to move front or back, left or right.

The car was too close to even make a choice.

And in less than a second, I felt a kind of pain I couldn't bear and everything went black.

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