Character;

Kelly Downer.

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My eyes slittered open and I found myself in an unfamiliar dim lighted room.

I felt a bit tingly and sore inbetween my legs and the memory of the event that happened came rushing into my head and I felt so flushed.

I looked beside me and around the room but I couldn't find him.

Where the fuck is he?

I thought of calling him but I let it go. What if he was trying to give me a surprise meal in bed.

I waited for a few minutes but he hadn't come around yet.

Now I started getting worried. I decided to call him again but I remembered that I had left my bag all the way in school and my phone was in it.

Oh crap.

I stood up immediately from the bed and picked up my clothes from the floor before throwing them on. They were already dirty but I had no other alternative.

I noticed a folded paper on the side table. I picked it up and unfolded it, it contained a few words;

'You were good earlier.'

I didn't know to take it but it was specifically written in Lan's handwriting. Was it a compliment or a form of insult?

I was cut short of thoughts by a loud knock on the door.

I opened it immediately and it revealed a middle aged man with a lot of beards. He checked me out from head to toe before speaking;

"Your time is up, Get out!" He commanded.

I was shocked.

"Don't you understand. Out!" He said again, louder this time and I hurried out of the room.

I felt so damn embarrassed. Lan should better have a suitable explanation for all these.

I found my way out of the place. It was night already and the bar was already filled up.

I looked twice the mess I was when I came. I couldn't find Lan nor his car anywhere and I had no money on me so I had no other choice than to walk home.

I frowned at the thought of it as I started my journey home and I just silently prayed that everything happening is not as it seems and Lan has a suitable reason for leaving.

*

I felt relieved when I got to the front porch of my house but I was surprised to see my car parked perfectly in the driveway.

I fumbled on the door knob of the house, it wasn't like I couldn't open it, but I was bracing myself to face whatever was going to happen.

Before I could open the door, it busted open and my dad stormed out. He initially had a hardened look on his face but it softened when his gaze landed on me.

I couldn't tell what was in his mind but he didn't say a word, he just left.

It hurt a little, I was already used to him begging me for a chance to even have a little talk with him but here I was longing for his attention.

I entered his house and I was surprised by the scene in front of me.

My mom was sitting on the floor, she was crying her eyes out. It was something I hadn't seen for the past few years, she never showed any form of hurt ever since she learned to live without dad.

As perfect and elegant as she was, she was slumped hopelessly on the floor, drowning in her tears.

Emotions are strong.

Atleast she almost didn't notice my presence...

Or she did but didn't care.

I went to get a cup of water and I started hearing a loud voice from Ivy's room.

"So you expect me to just forget all about it and throw myself at you?! Who the hell do you think you are?! Zachary Midow, you're just a fucked up pedophile and I don't wanna have anything to do with you anymore! So don't ever call me again!" I heard Ivy scream.

I took the water in one gulp, I noticed how thirsty I was, yet, I had no appetite to eat.

The house was just heated and everyone was faced with their own problems to even notice mine.

I walked slowly up the stairs to my room. What I needed right now was a long hot bathe. I reeked of so many things--Food, drink, sweat, tears, alcohol, sex....

Eeew, I even felt internally dirty right now.

It had been one heck of a long day.

I got into my room but a bit dazzled to see someone coming in after me.

"Kelly! What are you doing here?" I asked, startled by her sudden presence.

She threw my bag towards me.

"Ooh...do you expect me to wait patiently in school for my elder sister so we could drive home together?" She asked, sarcasm dripping in her voice.

And she was right, I almost totally forgot about her.

"I'm sorry," I blurted and she didn't even bother replying, she just threw my car keys at me.

"I almost forgot that," I stared at her in awe. Did she drive my car home?

She really needs to be reminded of her age sometimes.

She walked past me and sat on my bed.

"You reek of so many things Stella. Maybe I need to know all that have been going on in your world," Kelly stated.

"Everything is fin--"

"No it's not!" She interrupted.

"I've known you too well, and I know something is wrong....you can't lie to us forever ya'know," she continued.

"No one can just understand, I can't even understand myself," I said, sitting on the other side of the bed and covering my face with my palm.

"I will...I always do," she said, scooting closer to me.

I really wanted to tell her but all my words were caught up in my mouth. I couldn't just let them spill.

I feel like a lot of people knows already and the more people that knows, the higher the risk of everyone finding out.

"I don't just want--"

"Just speak up! I don't know what to think of you anymore. You've been acting strange lately, then there's Cheryl and that good for nothing player that's also your friend's ex, I feel like you're not the sister I grew up with," Kelly spat.

I felt infuriated, she had no right to talk about Lan or my love life.

"Just get out! Sometimes, you have to know your stupid limits. I'm older! I drive you to school everyday! It doesn't matter that we're sisters! You still need to give me that respect I deserve!" I shot back at her.

She gave a dry chuckle.

"I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you, but you need serious help right now and I don't think you're ready to help yourself!"

"I know what's best for me! I don't need you in my life! I don't need anybody! I'm fine alone and I've always been strong alone so y'all should just let me be!" I yelled.

I didn't know why I suddenly had an outburst but I just felt like a lot had happened today and the after effects were killing me.

"So where did he take you to huh? What did he do to you?"

I glared at her.

"It's none of your business! Just get out of my room! Get out of my life!" I screamed at her, dragging her out of my room. I pushed her out and banged the door close without giving her a second glance.

I hated the fact that she was always right.

But I hope she was wrong this time.

Lan loves me and he had a suitable reason to leave at that point in time.

I slipped off my clothing before stepping into the shower. I let the warm water hit against my skin for at least five minutes as I felt a warmer liquid trickle down my cheek from my eye.

At least the water won't allow me see myself cry.

What if I had made a mistake.

That thought came ringing like an alarm in my head.

I tried to fight it away. I don't just make mistakes.

I'm Stella Downer.

I mentally reminded myself.

But it didn't work the way it used to.

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