Fall Asleep

"I won't do this again! NOT ANYMORE!" she screamed at him and tossed the wet towel in his face. Her tears threatened to fall, but she tilted her head to the side before he could see and wiped them off with the back of her hand. Her eyeliner was slightly smudged but she didn't care anymore. Anyway, what was the entire point now to put on the mask on her hideous face that she so desperately tried to hide from him only to have been despised by him.

"What do you mean?" His brows furrowed as he secretly eyed her watery eyes with concern. However, she knew that he was only caring about himself.

"I won't be held back by you anymore. Let's break up." She said peacefully, smiling slightly at him. She couldn't help it. No wonder... After all this time, even after her one too many attempts to try to get his attention, he would just shrug her off and complain about her to his friends.

"Held back?" His tongue clicked as he jerked forward, gripping her chin with a devastating amount of power. She continued to smile despite the extreme pain that shot up her jaw. Wasn't it such a joke? Being his girlfriend, helping him to attend to this and that and caring for him, only in exchange for his once warm smile, which was replaced by a cynical smirk when they started dating.

Just walk away... Just walk away from all of this pain... Her heart gripped, and she could just almost feel the crimson blood dripping drop by drop internally as her entire soul drained out of her. Love? Wasn't it ironic? If you love someone so much to the point that you can die for them, but they never ever turn back just to take a glance at you. Pathetic. What is love? Betrayal, distrust and mutual hate.

"WHAT DID YOU SAY!" He shouted into her ear, his face contorted with anger. He didn't care whether her hands were bleeding from the sharp nails that embedded themselves into her hand when she tried to clean up the mess he had created in the first place. He just wanted an answer. Wasn't she clambering after his wealth, after his looks, after his reputation? Why would such a greedy woman want to give up all of that now?

" Let's break up. I can't stand it anymore." she mildly put it, closing her eyes tiredly. She was so exhausted of the days that she had to withstand his cold attitude that she just wanted to escape. Whoever said that love was the only substance you need in life could just go away.

"Haha! Don't you find it funny? After all this time, with you licking the floor that I walk on, that you can just go like that?" He glared at her. He wasn't really sure whether it was what he really thought or was it just the anger that controlled him.

"I know right... Maybe I should just go and kill myself for embarrassing myself for the past two years." she defiantly glared into his eyes. With one final burst of strength, she pushed away his hand and backed away from him. The blood from her hands smeared onto his and she instinctively hid her hands behind her back as if afraid of something.

"You dare... dirty my hands?" He growled, his hand swinging down forcefully onto her cheek and her body collapsed onto the floor. Gripping her cheek with her bloodied hands, she smirked. "Yeah... my dirty blood tainted your hands." She couldn't care about the pain in her jaw anymore. It wasn't about the physical pain that cut so deep into her, it was the mental and emotional torture that slowly cut through her.

" Baka! Each time you do this, don't you know how she feels!" A tall figure rushed over and towered over him slightly. Her grin widened a bit. A least at this point, someone was willing to save her... Her eyes shifted to survey the surroundings but all she could see were guilty faces staring at the floor, too afraid to confront him.  Just because he was part of the Generation of Miracles. Just because he was a regular and part of the first string. Just because...he was him.

"Aomine-kun, please stay out of this." He attempted to brush past her 'protector' but was stopped almost immediately by a punch to the face.

" Every single time, we watch how you shout at her about everything she does. But have you ever thought about what you have done for her?! And to think you are still here! Did you know, every time you hurt her, it takes a part of her? Do you know how many times we've tried to stop her from committing suicide because of you?!" Aomine cursed and continued to punch Kise in the face. He couldn't stand it anymore. Every single time he had to watch her sit by the window muttering to herself in a trance just because she took too many sleeping pills, every time he had to hold her back from going to nightclubs in an attempt to ruin herself. Every single damn time he had to watch her sit in front of the cosmetics table with so many beauty products, happily splashing on the colourful paint onto her face and asking him whether it made her beautiful. Whether it made her suitable for him. But every single time he couldn't help her, when she was beaten down by him and her self-esteem thrashed around like worthless trash.

Just because he couldn't see through her façade, doesn't mean he couldn't see through her loneliness. Damn it, she was pretty enough. Too pretty for him!

"Aomine... stop..." she muttered, tears once again welling up in her eyes. Wasn't he always there for her when she needed him. When she wanted his approval. And today, he was willing to stick up for her against Kise, his most trusted friend.

" I... I..." Kise stumbled back, his eyes wide open but still staring at her in shock. He didn't know all of that. Sure, she cleaned up after him, but wasn't that the duty of a girl? He always took it for granted when she tolerated him, but never did he realise that his words and actions could do so much damage to her.

"Let's go. I'll go tell Akashi that I'm not going to Rakuzan anymore. I don't want to be with a jerk like him." Aomine gently picked her up in his arms and walked out of the hall, leaving behind the rest of the basketball people in shock.

Kise stood there all alone. Slowly, he dropped to his knees, lips quivering and his entire body shook. He didn't know that she was the one always there for him. He didn't realise that she had given up so much for him. And yet, he had always rejected her and pushed her into the vast ocean, leaving her to save herself from the harsh cold wind.

And now, he had lost everything...

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" [Verse]
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
'Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

[Verse]
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
'Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

[Bridge]
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

[Chorus 2]
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah, you don’t understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you’re just a boy"

- Because you'll never understand how much it hurts to love a person -