Hello guys hope you all are doing good well basically Iam just a reader here  but I thought to give a hand on writing as well ( sidnaaz ki diwani hun toh socha unhe pe start karti hu 🤭😌 ) so that's it lets start ( joota chappal jo marzi ho phenk dena comment section pe lekin comment karna zarur 🙏🙏😅 aur vote bhi ) and this whole story is dedicated to my personal siddhart , sanjh thank u so kuch for encouraging me baby and this amazing cover is also by her only thank u for this darling SanjhSingania ( ab zyada udd mat 😏 😜 ) and finally start karne se pehle English is not my first language so plsss kindly ignore my mistake 🙏

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Siddhart's pov :

I was feeling content and peaceful after having the love of my live, my jaan , shehnaaz , she is sleeping peacefully in my arm without knowing what she does to me her one smile would lit my entire life , her one touch would touch my soul .

She is the best thing happened to me after dad left us, I was broken infact my entire family was broken but still my mom and  sisters had each other to lean on but I was left alone they tried their best to bring back the old me but they failed. Didn't know how I grew up without dad but still I managed , but I was lost.I became arrogant,khadoos .

After finishing my college I started to pursue my dream of becoming an actor in starting I struggled a lot but after some year my life was smoothly going. I had many girlfriends but no one was there for long I mean they were only with me for my money and fame nothing else .

My life was going pretty well until I signed dil se dil tak ( haters back off 😑 ) in starting it was also amazing , I used to hangout with jasmin and rashmi we would do a lot of fun in initial months , playing prank , pulling each other's leg and all .

I was finally happy matlab dil se I was changing I would smile a lot and would hangout with my family as well they were also happy for me and the reason for my happiness was jasmim yes you heard it right jasmin I don't know when but I was deeply fallen for her.

I didn't know if she was feeling the same for me or not , even if she didn't feel for me I was ready to be her best friend like before but I was not ready to lost her.

So, one day I thought to propose her after talking to my mom she was happy about knowing jasmin bcz she was also fond of her.

I reached the set early to inform rashmi about this as she was my best friend . I asked a spot boy about rashmi he told that she is in her vanity so I went towards her vanity . After reaching towards her vanity I knocked her door and waited for few sec before barging in . There she was sitting reading her script when she saw me she smiled and sat up properly and signalled me to take a seat, I smiled back at her and went to sit next to her.

After few seconds sensing that I am nervous she glanced at me and raised a perfect brow asking what happened , this is why i love to hangout with her bcz she understands me without me saying anything , I chuckled and said that she knew me well,  she just smiled back.

And before I would lost it I said her that I love jasmine and I am going to propose her today, her reaction was something that I didn't understand I mean she was either too sad or too happy she was neutral , she was just looking at me devoid of emotion , I was confused so I asked her what happened , she didn't said anything suddenly her eyes started brimming and I panicked and asked her again what happened . She just nodded her head telling nothing just when I was going to say something someone knocked the door and she quickly wiped her face with her hand and sat properly. When I asked the person to come in , he was spot boy telling me that jasmine has arrived I only asked him to inform me when she arrives.  I just nodded at him and told him to go. Once he left I turned back to rashmi and said I don't know why u were crying if u feel okay or your comfortable you can share with me I will always be there for you.

Saying this I turned to leave but her next word shocked me infact I was numb......

I thought that maybe I am thinking wrong so I turned back asked her what she said but hell no I was not wrong , she was saying that she loves  me , What the Hell I mean when did this happen , I clearly remember I always had mentioned her my best friend but I don't know when she started to feel for me like this.

When I glanced at her she was looking at me without a blink maybe it is just her infatuation or attraction bcz love is a big thing , so I thought to handle the  matter carefully,   slowly I was walking towards her without breaking the eye contact . When I reached towards her I held her hand and said

"Rashmi it is just your infatuation or attraction towards me it is not love yaar try to understand I always had consider you as a friend only and always had loved jasmine from the day one "

I finished saying this and again looked at her to see she was going to cry , I was frustrated and her next word word made me mad .

She was saying that if i can love jasmine then why not her , she is comparing herself to jasmine and was asking me continuously why not her and it was going out of control so I just shook her and said that " simple my heart says jasmine is the right one do you understand "

What ??? And there she was jasmine yeah right jasmine she was standing at the door looking at me with pain which I didn't understand.  She came towards me and rashmi and said " how can you do this sidhaart I mean I had always considered you as my best friend not more than that " after saying she left us alone walking back to her vanity .

Hurt would be underestimate I was broken though I had already prepared myself for the worst but still it hurts on top of that the news rashmi dropped was shocking as well , my thoughts were broken by a fits of laughter I looked at rashmi she was laughing like she has gone mad . I didn't understand why and also not interested in knowing so I just turned back to leave and she interrupted me saying that didn't I want to know the reason behind her laugh I simply shrugged and began to walk when her next word stopped me in my tracks.

Seriously she was an ill women she was saying that it's the KARMA which was hitting back at me for breaking her heart . There I was sure that she didn't love me it's just her attraction bcz if u truly love someone than if the person is hurt you will also feel hurt rather than consoling she is taunting at me. I just shook my head and went towards the director to take leave bcz I was feeling low.

After that I directly went to my home and informed my mom about all this , she was sad after hearing this bcz of jasmine only I was back to old self and she was sacred that I would again become like old and it happened in the same way. Again I was the same old sidhaart shukla ,rude , arrogant, angry man .

One month was passed like this only we three were ignoring each other like we didn't exist.  But one fine day when I was packing to head bact to home jasmine came towards me and said "I know sid feeling is the only thing which we can't hold and I understand but I am missing you buddy plsss I am sorry I can't love u back but we can be best friend right like before plsss "  that's why till now she is my best friend after this both me jasmine were back like before and slowly my feelings for her also started to fade after knowing about her feeling and I was okay with that maybe she was not in my destiny and i think it was not love maybe it was just my attraction towards her .

I also informed her about rashmi and she was feeling sad for both me and rashmi so she said that she will talk to rashmi about this on the other hand rashmi was feeling jealous bcz me and jasmine were back like before and it was clearly visible in her face that she didn't liked it a bit . After the talk between rashmi and jasmine things turned out to be ugly , fake articles,  news defaming me that I disrespect with the girls in the set . I was devastated after reading this soon the news was spread like wild fire . It was going like these this only daily some news would come to defame me . It was just like another day but the news was something that I didn't expect it was an interview of rashmi she was saying that it's true that I abuse my               i co-workers and also I disrespected her one day . I was feeling betrayed though I know how rashmi was but still I thought she would not stoop so low . My life was destroyed by her I had to leave the serial bcz it was getting difficult for me to work with her . Jasmine also felt sad and wanted to talk to her but I held her back and said to stay out of this matter .

After this controversy I had shut myself from others , I would not talk to anyone not even mom let alone vikas or jai they were my only best friend after jasmin in this industry .

After two years bigg boss was offered to me I was in dilemma to go for it or not but I decided to go after speaking to my mom and vikas they both suggested the same but at one point I had to back out after knowing that rashmi is also going to be the part of the show but vikas told me that this is the perfect opportunity for me to prove myself to the world that I was not wrong . And I think that was the best decision of my life bcz there in bb I found the right one , shehnaaz , the love of my life , the light to my darkness,  the happiness to my pain .

My thoughts were interrupted when sana pecked my cheeks and asked " what are you thinking kullu "

This girl and her nickname seriously kullu till date I didn't understand why she calls me kullu  anyway I love everything about her . So I replied that I was thinking nothing .

But alas my gadhi has turned into fox I mean she is becoming smart , she then asked why I was smiling when I was thinking nothing. So I decided to reply in her way , I sat up properly and held her in my arms and said that I was thinking about her and in one way that was truth only and pecked her forehead before hugging her . She just giggled and said    'hayee sacchi kha kasam ' I just nodded at her in approval and said 'lets go baby mom and sanjh will be waiting '

Sanjh is my only niece , she lives with my mom actually me and mom lives separately her flat is just opposite to mine and sanjh loves her nani a lot so she shifted here , mom also loves her a lot infact everyone loves her including me she is the apple of our eyes , she is exactly like me savage , bold , not fake feminist , honest, fun loving person , infact our birthday's are back to back so I celebrate my birthday with her only , she knows how to lift others mood just like sana , they both had bonded well , she is doing her finals in Mumbai's prestigious

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Both sid and sana got up to freshen up sana went to sid's washroom and siddhart went to guest room to get ready finally the lockdown was released since the threat of Corona has decreased ( hopefully it will happen soon inshallah ) but siddhart was sad because sana had moved to her flat but he made sure that she spent her weekend with him and his family .
 
Flashback :

Siddhart hated when she signed msk but he cannot stop her because who was he to stop her thinking this he stopped himself he loved her but was afraid to tell her because he was feeling insecure that she would leave him at one point but siddhart doesn't know that sana is not like any other girl , she loves him truly but he was not ready to accept. 

When the director of msk called him to invite him for the first episode he was reluctant to go as he was not able to face sana because after bb ended and everyone went to their respective destination after that night sana called him but he didn't pick up because he was not ready to talk to her , he wanted to figure out his feelings for her so he simply just ignored her but decided to go and check on her in her set and this is the best opportunity so he accepted the offer.

Here sana was broken her worst nightmare was coming true siddhart had ignored her and on top of that she was sad  because some of siddhart's fans are hating her , everyone were judging her that she loves siddhart only for game nothing more than that her heart was shattered in pieces she was not in her senses she was just crying after sometime she collected herself for her shoot and went to freshen up , she don't know that ke siddhart was going to come . She came and the shoot started she was lost only her body was working she was not the sana whom everyone loved , she was different .

When manish announced that she has to select boys after being blindfolded she cringed at the thought but nevertheless she started to touch the boys with each passing second her heart beat was increasing she felt that something is surely going to come in her life which is going to change her .

When she touched the last boy her heart beat stopped for a second she thought she was dreaming how could he be here so she again  checked him this time his hair now she was sure that it was him , so she just  removed her blindfold and and turned back to see her love standing there smiling at her without thinking anything she jumped at him , she was meeting him after total 48 hours without seeing him or hearing his voice it was difficult for her to stop her cry. She was continuously crying. 

Here siddhart was shocked when she identifies him but somewhere his heart told him that it was going to happen like this only after seeing her crying like this he felt happy and guilty at the same time , he was happy because he realized that she truly loves him only him and guilty for making her cry he promised himself that from that day he would make sure that his moti , his gadhi won't cry again. So he thought make her happy and proposed her than and and there  everyone was shocked even sana but after fec second she was jumping with joy, she was back to her old self the chirpy sana , the director realised ke that his show was going to be super flop now . After the shoot ended both went to sana's vanity to spend time with each other.

After coming to vanity siddhart pulled her towards him and hugged her tightly without a word , sana understood ke that he is expressing his feelings like that so she simply kissed his chest like as usual and in return he pecked her forehead keeping his lips for a longer minute both were lost in each other without caring about the world and were  busy in making their own little world ........

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