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Shanaya's P.O.V.

One week has passed that I've talked to kris or heard anything about him and guilt was consuming me in every possible way in these past seven days.

I am doing false to everyone. To my family, my friends, and most importantly Kristein and his family. I'm really a very bad girl, he trusted me so much and I planned such an evil plan for him.

Should I call Helen and ask her to back off?

But would she listen to me?

Should I call kris and confess him?

Oh, god, My mind is just fed up.

Shrugging my all thoughts I moved downstairs and saw Zac and Olivia were sitting already on the dining table for breakfast.

"Hey, muffin. Good morning", Zac wished.

"Morning", I replied busy in my thoughts.

"So, did you slept well last night after party?", He asked, we party last night, actually they party and I was all busy in thoughts of Kristein.

"Yeah, was good", I started putting juice in my glass.

"You're lost somewhere, you okay?", Olivia asked.

"No, I'm fine!!", I replied.

What would happen if kris got to know about all this? He must be broken, and he'll hate me after that..

But what if he'll ditch me? What if he'll move on? What if he had already started falling for Helen and would think me as a mistake? Then, would I ever be able to move again?

"Muffin", Zac shook me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah!!", I asked startled.

"What happened? What are you thinking?", He asked.

"No.. nothing happened.. what will happen? I'm.. fi..fine.. perfectly absolutely fine", I started stuttering.

"You know you're a crap lier right?", He squeezed my shoulder.

"You can tell us", Olivia said taking seat by my side.

"I was just thinking about this, this marriage, engagement, everything.. is so complicated", I told them.

"Why are so nervous Shan? Kris is a nice guy and we've seen he loves you a lot. He cares a lot about you", Olivia said.

But I'm a bad girl, who's doubting him.

"Who cares?", I asked.

"Where are you lost?", Zac asked.

"No where, I'm here only", I lied with a nervous smile.

"Muffin if you're not comfortable then we can cancel this marriage, you've to just say that.", Zac said and my heart started beating rapidly and my eyes go wide.

No way!!

What? Are you for real? You wanted this only, ain't you? My heart said.

I know but...

"I'll talk to mom and kristein's parents also, no one will force you to marry, I promise. Tell me is this what you want?", He again asked.

"You kidding right?", I confirmed nervously.

"Why not? If you're not comfortable in this relationship, why don't you just let it go?", He said eyeing me closely.

"Zac, I need some alone time, I'll talk to you later", I left my seat and ran to my room, my heart exploding in my chest.

I closed my door and plonked on my bed and tried to calm my senses. Why am I so nervous?

Cancel the marriage?

Is this what I really want? I won't deny that I wanted it earlier but now,things have changed. I don't want it to cancel but I don't want it to happen soon also!!

I have started developing feelings for kristein and maybe I too wanted to give him a chance. Gosh, what to do?

I don't know what is right for me and what am I supposed to do right now? Giving kris a chance and trusting him? Or, continuing this plan of letting him go?

Do real love actually exist as Kris said? Will he give me a true love story? Will he love me till end? Will he keep his promise?

And most importantly, Will I be fair to him? Would I be able to give him the love he deserves? A person who loves you so much and feels proud of having you is the most special person of one's life but what should you do when you don't do the same? What are you supposed to feel?

I'm feeling nothing. I'm blank, my mind is just focused on one person and that is Kristein. He is hacking my poor brain along with my heart, every second.

I wanted to see him badly, just for once. I wish I could see him, hug him and talk to him. Screw this promise and all, I need him, right now!!

What's wrong with me?? Why is kris affecting me this way?

Jesus, I need a break from his thoughts!!

I was lost in my thoughts when my room's door opened with a thud. I flinched in response and in front of me was standing the boy who had taken away my peace of mind from past seven days and is giving me sleepless nights.

Kristein!!

But he was odd today, his look was somewhat familiar, oh, I know this look. A look of anger, pain, hurt and complained.

Guess he gotta know everything, surprise surprise!!

I gulped and saw him closing the door. I opened my mouth but then closed it. He definitely got to know about my stupidity and evil deed.

I felt ashamed and angry at my self with guilt consuming me like a plaque from top to bottom. I get up from my bed and stand at the farther point of the room, far away from him.

He didn't say anything, just started coming closer to me and said, "We need to talk".

Yes, we definitely do but I don't want to!!

"You broke your promise kris", here goes my mouth good for nothing. I kept my gaze down, too afraid to look into his eyes.

Really and whatever you did to him was very appreciable. You should be awarded with an oscar, ain't you?

"Oh, I see. I broke my promise. I'm so sorry shan. What would you do now? Give me punishment, would you?", He asked sarcastically blocking me between him and the wall behind.

I kept looking at his purple shirt, with top buttons open. His body was radiating heat and my heart started beating fast. I feel butterflies running inside my stomach. My hormones were making it tough for me to focus on the present scenario.

Bad timing!!

"No.. No", was all I could say, with my uneven breath.

"Why no? You should give me punishment, but wait why will you punish me? You've already done that, ain't you?", He spoke this time leaning down so that his face was in front of mine with an angry look.

Damn he look so hot when he's angry?

Ughh, focus shan...

"What do you mean?", I whispered, trying to hold my weak legs to keep me stand. My mind was not thinking straight, I was one move away from kissing him.

"Why did you do this? Why did you broke my heart shan?", He asked with so much pain in his voice that my heart constricts inside my chest and I felt a strong pain. The pain I've never felt before and it was so much intense that I don't want to feel it again.

"Kris, I...I", I was cut off by him.

"No shan, no excuse today. I know you don't love me, but I thought that at least you trusted me, but you don't and you proved it. I was so happy when you gave me a chance but hardly I knew you're spying on me. You thought I was lying to you and I will fall for Helen and will leave you, right?", He asked looking straight into my eyes holding me by my arms and I nodded in No.

That bitch!! I never abuse any girl, but she deserves it!!

Well you behaved like an imbecile and sadist this time, my heart spoke.

"I never knew that you hated me so much that you'll do such a low thing to me. If you wanted to cancel this marriage, then you should've just asked me directly. I was so stupid to think that may be some day you'll love me too, oblivious of the fact that you loathe me so much..", he laughed bitterly and then continued, "But look at me, I still can't hate you. I love you so much that even now also, I can't hate you. If I'll try then also, I can't hate you. Never ever", he said extending his arms.

"Kris, I'm sorry.. I-", he again stopped me by showing his palm.

"Not today shanaya. I'm just done with you. You're right, today there is no real love story because partners like you broke heart of lovers like me, for sake of their fun.. You broke my heart and thanks to you, I'll never ever be able to love anyone again.", he said gritting his teeth.

I felt so suffocated and my heart rose to my throat. I was not able to speak, because tape of guilt was glued to my mouth. He was right, he has all rights to accuse me. I'm wrong and today I won't defend myself. Tears welled up my eyes, blurring my vision but guess what??

I was crying not because he was accusing me, but because he was in pain and I'm the reason behind it. His eyes held so much complained that I felt to dig myself in the ground. I didn't feel so much heavy heart and pain even with Dan, but today it was unbearable. I was dying out of pain.

He looked at me for sometime and then cupped my face bringing me close to him and said looking straight into my eyes "But I'll never stop loving you. I'll always love you, I'll wait for you my entire life. I'll give you a true love story, which I've promised you and I would do that. If you can't love me then it's your problem not mine but never ever you dare ask me to not to love you. I'll love you each and every second and you can't stop me from loving you", I keep staring in his eyes, not averting my gaze. It was feeling so good to have him this close to me.

"I can't get you shan but I can do one thing for sure", he removed his hands from my face and then hold my hand and pulled out our engagement ring. My jaws dropped on the ground and I looked at him in disbelief.

He showed it to me and said with a sad smile, "I let you go out of this forced relationship shan. You're free!! Free from me. I would never cross your path, ever. You're free to choose anyone and love anyone. I'm stepping back, I guess my love was not that strong and real. May be someday you'll get your real love and you'll get your true love story. May be I ain't that lucky", he placed the ring back to his jeans pocket and turned back.

I stare at his back, I saw him leaving but I couldn't stop him. I wanted to stop him but something was stopping me from doing that. With his each step towards door, something was ending in me. I was feeling like he's taking an important part of me along with him.. I was feeling lifeless.

He for once turned again and gave me small smile and said, "I'll love you always shanaya, if anytime in your life, you'll feel that you need me then you've to just say ", and he left.

As soon as he leave, I fall on the ground. My head was spinning and my heart sank. I highly doubt weather it was beating or not?

What's happening to me? Why is his leaving unbearable? Why? Why?

Is this LOVE? Am I in love with Kristein? If it's not love then why is it killing me?

This is love silly girl!! You're in love... My heart said.

I looked at my ring finger who has mark of the ring on it. I've realised one thing that Kristein belongs to me, ONLY ME!! I would never ever let him go away from me. He is important for my heart, he's important for me. I know I had spoiled everything but I'll fix it too.

I will not let you walk away kris!! You can't leave me ever!!

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