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Drip. Drip. Drip. Monday morning. The first time Casper had ever skipped class. He was at home.

Drip. Drip. Drip. He had stopped looking at the time. All he knew was that the water in the bathtub had been cold for several hours by now.

Drip. Drip. Drip. He finally had to admit that he in fact could feel the cold. It was freezing but he didn't deserve any better.

Drip. Drip. Drip. Black blood was tripping from his knuckles. He didn't bother to clean the mirror shards, he would do that eventually.

Drip. Drip. Drip. He wasn't sure what his uncles would think about the destroyed mirror. He just couldn't look at himself right now this face of a loser, the meanest person he knew.

Drip. Dr- Once again he slided under water, nothing but his nose sticking out. Being surrounded by numbing could water was the closest he had to a break from himself. He hated to be alone with himself but he deserved it. It was completely silent. Nothing but his thoughts.

He gasped when he suddenly was pushed completely down , gasping for air before being pulled out of the water all of the sudden. „Dummy Girl?" he asked out of breath. „Shut up!" she hissed before slapping him across the face. „Sorry, I had to." she sighed.

The ghost was too shocked to say anything. „Get you shit together man." she huffed. „You're even worse than Thatch." The doll added. „What are you doing here?" The ghost yelled. „Drowing the idiocy out of you!" The smaller one hissed. „What?"

She cleared her throat. „Listen the happiest I've Thatch ever seen was when he was with you. Even if you were faking this whole relationship part I am never wrong. You clearly have the hots for each other. Even if you don't want to admit that. Now he's all depressed he doesn't even care about mine and Slither's fights! And I guess your stupid friends have been hanging around all sad too. Just use your smart words for once and clear things up." „I- I don't deserve them. I don't want to make it worse for them." Casper muttered pulling his knees closer to his upper body.

Dummy roled her eyes. „That's their decision not yours! And you're not making it better if you don't talk to them!" she insisted. „Why are you here?" Casper asked. „Because Thatch is fucking annoying when he's love sick. He hasn't even insulted Mosshead yet. Come on just talk to him." the doll insisted. „He will grow over it. I know how he talked to you yesterday." he muttered.

„Are you stupid or something! I was totally hung over and cried over Slither being a dick that happens literally every Sunday you would have known if you asked him. He dies inside every time but he can't handle people crying." she explained. Casper avoided her eyes. „At least talk to you friends I can't stand making fun of Zombiegirl's appearance without her fighting back. The ghost kept quiet. „Don't be as hopeless as your stupid boyfriend." she muttered before leaving, kicking some of the mirror shards away.

Drip. Drip. Drip. He was alone again. He slid back into the water. Dummy was not his boss, neither his friend he wouldn't let her decide his actions- ah fuck. He was just too easy to convince.

Casper rose up and stepped out of the bathtub. He cleaned the floor from the mirror shards and put on some fresh clothes. Classes were over by now.

He stomped along the hallway with only his room in mind. He was about to storm in but he stopped himself and knocked.

„What?" Ra asked. He didn't know what to say, again. Maybe he should have made some notes before coming here. „Urgh what do you wan-", Mantha was caught of guard as she saw Casper.

His roommate got up and stepped behind her. „I- I want to explain myself." the ghost stuttered. His friends didn't answer so he just kept talking. „I know what I did was wrong and what I'm about to say is not making my actions okay they just make it more understandable I guess."

He took a deep breath. Here we go. „When you two got together I felt left out, I was jealous and sad. I- I was scared of talking to you because I'd fear I'd lose you like I lost Jimmy two months ago, I was scared of the pain or losing friends over love." he had to smirk over the harsh irony. „Thatch and I had the same problem and in a stupid turn of events we decided to 'pay you back' by showing you how you were acting. A stupid idea I know. But then it wasn't about annoying you guys anymore it-it was about me and him and how good we fit together and I felt so nice by his side. Well I blew that too but you probably don't care about that- The thing I want to say is- I'm Sorry for not beeing the friend you deserve to have." The ghost had to breathe he never talked that much.

He wasn't expecting much, maybe a punch in the face or a 'fuck off cunt' but a hug was definitely last thing he had expected. „I'm sorry we didn't know." Ra sobbed, hiding his face in Casper's shoulder. „I'm sorry we didn't pay attention." The ghost was too surprised by this that he just looked at Mantha confused. She was fighting the tears. „We talked to Thatch, he didn't really want to talk about it but I got it out of him eventually." she sighed. „What made you think we would leave you like that? We're not like Jimmy." „I never would have thought Jimmy would do that either, I just didn't know what to think." he muttered before getting cut off by Mantha joining the group hug. „Never scare me like that ever again." she muttered.

Now Casper was the one sobbing. „I'm sorry." he muttered over and over again. It took a while for the three to finally calm down. But it was so good to finally talk about everything that had happened. Or just in general talk again. It had been so long and there was a lot to chatch up