"Nothing was more horrible, then not trusting you."

30/04/21

Rewritten :: 17/06/22

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Double update, read chapter 15 first.

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Third person POV

"Everyone out, now!" The high pitched voice resonated throughout the mansion, as the whole mansion saw the raven haired male furious. 

All the guards and maids immediately left the hallway of the big house and the kitchen, no one wanting to meddle up with the angry mafia boss.

The bloodshot eyes, high voice, fist clenched and jaw tightened could only define the Male's now expressions, as he took fast steady steps toward two young boys who were looking at him with wide fearful eyes.

The mafia stopped in front of the familiar blonde, who was staring up at him like a deer caught in light, he snapped his fingers toward "Yeonjun" uttering a small "dismiss" toward his direction. 

The blonde looked at his new friend worriedly, who also gave him a worried glance before leaving the kitchen, bowing in respect. 

Taehyung's heart came to his throat, the loud pounding could be heard by Jungkook too, the male fuming in rage as he saw his ex-husband gulp.

The blonde looked down, staring at the mafia's exposed chest from beneath his black cotton shirt, cuffing his arms tightly. 

Gathering all his courage that was left in him, Taehyung opened his mouth and closed it like a fish, big puppy eyes round and rounder, Jungkook hadn't uttered a word which did nothing but increase his heart beat.

The male again tried, opening his mouth, the heavy breaths and blood shot eyes of the raven leaving him terrorised as a soft squeak left his lips.

"J-jungk–" But Taehyung's breath hitched as he felt his skin covering with goosebumps, heart going crazy in his chest when felt the mafia boss hand wrapped around his throat, slamming him hard against the cemented wall as he let out a soft scream both in pain and fear. 

Taehyung's hands made their way over the mafia's in panic, as he started struggling in the other's grip, heart stopping when the blonde didn't feel the floor beneath his feet, dangling in air as he gasped for air.

Sulking greedily for the air, Taehyung felt his wind pipes blocked, panic sweat starting forming on his forehead, feeling his eyes stinging with familiar warm liquid.

"J-jungkook…" He stuttered out merely, the hold on his throat not tightening but also not losing, the soul tear slipping down his almond eyes.

And it was when the blonde felt his eyes getting heavy with the lack of breath, the hold on his throat losend, jerking him forward on his feet, his legs giving up as Taehyung's fragile figure fell down on the floor. 

Coughing heavily, the male breathed with shivering nostrils, the tears making their way down, his throat hurting and even he couldn't see but felt the red bruises on his smooth skin.

But before Taehyung could even compose himself, his collar was dragged by the mafia boss, slammed against the wall again, he hissed.

"Why?" The angry scream that left Jungkook's lips, made Taehyung shivered, almond eyes looking confused and fearful at the sudden anger of the raven.

"Why did you do that?" The mafia again screamed, fist clenching tighter on the other boy's collar. 

"Why did you kill him? You fucking killer!" Those words made the whole world shake for the blonde, his body shivering like a dead leaf in the winter wind.

Taehyung felt his eyes starting to sting, the male feeling like his heart would pop out of his chest at any time– It can't, J-jungkook c-can't know..

His thoughts leaving him shook, unconsciously shaking his head, the blonde started mumbling in fear, shrinking his body deeper toward the wall.

"Speak! I said fucking speak Kim Taehyung! Why did you kill him!" Taehyung's fragile form was shaken by the mafia, who repeatedly slammed him against the wall by his collar, his heart and brain giving control to the angry  beast that resided deep inside his soul.

"Pl-please, s-stop." The younger pleaded, soft whisper and painful whimpers too low to be heard by the angry male. Warm tears already started trailing down his cheeks as Taehyung felt difficult to refrain himself anymore. 

The things that scared him, the thought that always left him terrorised were going to be true, Jungkook got to know about it, the little love raven's heart held for him would disappear now. 

His thoughts made him sucked greedily for breath, his heart coming to his throat as the blonde broke down into loud cries. 

The hold on his collar was immediately released, as the mafia stepped back on instincts watching the blonde slide down against the wall.

Taehyung's arms made their way around his knees, sobbing like a baby, the blonde released whimpers making the mafia's doe eyes softened.

"T-taehyung.." The name rolled out from Jungkook's tongue, low like it would break the other if spoken any louder.

"I– I am n-not a killer, I-i no k-killer.." The younger male chocked on his words, rocking his body back and forth in anxiety. 

The mafia's breaths calmed down, the inner beast yelling in his head to hurt the blonde now disappearing slowly, his throbbing nerves calming down, now only the heart furious in his chest.

The mafia was about to bent down, his arms stretching to hug the crying blonde but the words suddenly ringed in his head, making him clenched his raven locks tightly.

"He said you abuses him— and separated you with your baby!— T-taehyung aborted your child!" Yugyeom's heavy words resonated in his ears, a painful gasp leaving from behind mafia's lips as he stumbled on his step.

Before his doe eyes that seemed to soften turned ice cold, orbs making their way to the still crying Taehyung, as the mafia took long strides toward the corner table.

Picking up the similar file he had left there, the raven threw it on the blonde who flinched harshly, wide teary eyes now staring at the file, making his breath hitched. 

"I-it was with Yugyeom, h-he… no no no!" The male panicked, breathing already getting rigid, his heart coming to his throat ready to come out.

Unconsciously he shook his head, more and more tears rolling down his already wet cheeks, flinching again when Jungkook kneeled down in front of him, gripping his chin in a bruising grip, eyes ever so cold.

"If you didn't do anything then what is it? Why it has your name? Why it has your signature! Why it has an ultrasounds attached of nearly a two months old fetus! Why!" The mafia scaremed his last words causing the younger in front of him to flinch hard, warm tears trailing down from both of their eyes.

The lack of response from Taehyung only made Jungkook more angrier, heart clenching in his chest painfuly as the mafia made no effort to wipe his or the other's overflowing tears. 

A heavy sigh escaped his lips, faning his hands in the air, the elder male tried to calm his heart, he knew if his inner beast woke today, he would hurt Taehyung really bad.

"O-okay, f-fine, Taehyung, l-listen.." Jungkook stuttered on his words as cupped Taehyung's cheeks in his rough palms, the younger looking at him with teary wide puppy eyes, vulnerability filling them whole.

"I don't believe those files, I-i don't trust him or anyone, I-i don't believe my ears or eyes b-but, you.." The blonde's head jerked forward toward the mafia, who was looking equally vulnerable as him as he himself leaned into the touch, his slender fingers cupping the raven's hands on his cheeks.

"T-taehyung, I-i trust you, I-i do, b-but pl-please tell me the truth petal, pl-please.." The mafia nearly begged, his ever so dominat voice faltering to soft and light pleadings.

The blonde's heart clenched in his heart at the mafia's pleading, he knew the other deserved to know the truth but if Jungkook didn't believe him after then it would be an end for him.

"D-did you aborted o-our child, Taehyung?" Jungkook's soft voice filled his ears, the male shifting more closer to his fragile figure as the blonde shut his eyes, tears rolled down his cheeks and the mere nod of his head made Jungkook let out a gasp of breath. 

"I-i did.." 

The blonde shut his eyes in absolute fear, his heart going wild with the confession he just did, he expected the mafia to strike him against his face, he expected Jungkook to shout at him, hurt him but nothing came.

Fluttering his eyelashes open, Taehyung's expressions softened, vulnerability filling them whole, when saw the strong mafia sitting in front of him shocked, eyes spilling warm water.

Taehyung's heart stopped breathing when Jungkook's expressions twitched, his lower lip came in between his teeth as it started wobbling, round doe eyes that were bloodshot already now formed new tears more furiously. 

"J-jungkook.." And it took only one word for the mafia to break down into sobs, as he hiccuped into his palms, shoulders shaking. 

"W-why? Why did you do that, Tae? J-just why! You c-could have told me e-earlier, c-could have talked to me, I-i would understand, p-petal." The mafia looked at the blonde, both of their eyes never leaving each other's, heart shivering from grief.

Taehyung kept his mouth shut, his eyes moving to the floor from shame and guilt, the raven in front of him staring at the blonde mop of hair. 

"Y-you could h-have told me, I-i would have raised my child alone if you didn't wanted to keep him, why did you a-aborted him, j-just because you w-wanted to marry Yugyeom!" Taehyung's silent cries turned into sobs, looking up as he shook his head in pure agony.

"You killed an unborn child just because of your fucking greed of money and pleasure!" The mafia screamed, making Taehyung flinch who desperately shook his head.

"You are fucking disgusting! I hate yo– no!" Jungkook's words were cut in between when the blonde suddenly yelled, grasping his hand in a tight hold.

"No! No! Pl-please, t-trust me that wasn't the reason, t-that wasn't the reason! Pl-please!" The blonde cried out.

"Then tell me what the fucking reason was!" 

"Y-you will not trust me, y-you will h-hate me.." Taehyung sobbed, his heart breaking when the mafia chuckled dryly.

"After doing so much to me, after fucking my life so much, do you really think I don't hate you? I fucking hate you! A-and trust? Don't talk about trust Kim Taehyung, the man who couldn't trust his husband, who aborted our child without once thinking of me, after fucking cheating and running with my own bestfriend, you fucking think if I don't trust you, it would be unfair!" Jungkook's mocking voice filled his ears and that was when Taehyung knew he had messed up a lot.

"Fucking tell me the truth, Taehyung! And this time I want the whole truth!" The blonde's collar was fisted by Jungkook's fingers, the mafia stared dead into his eyes, voice dominating making Taehyung shiver, as he couldn't do anything but nod in defeat.

《《 Flashback started 》》

The small figure of the male jumped on his feet, excitingly his blonde locks bouncing with his every step.

The large wide boxy grin adoring his pink lips, heart skipping many beats, the file clenched in his hand tightly was the reason for his happiness. 

He was pregnant, he was fucking 3 weeks pregnant! His husband would come running to him.

The man skipped on his steps as he pulled out his phone from his jeans, sitting on the couch with legs crossed, he dialed his husband's number but before even it rang the male cut it off, an idea coming into his head. 

"Nope, nope, Taehyung, you can't miss Jungkook's expressions, he will go crazy, and I don't want him to lose this deal, he was working so hard for it." The male bit on his lips, he was excited to tell his husband about the good news, but knew that his raven haired bunny would come running to him after hearing about him being pregnant, leaving the deal he was working for the last 3 months.

"And it's only for two months, not like Jungkook is far away, he is in Japan, it will take only hours for him to come to me."

The male nodded his head at his own thought, keeping his hand down at his own flat tummy, when the doorbell rang, frowning his eyebrows– I don't have any visitors, hyung's are also not here.

Opening the door cautiously, the man looked at the front but his eyes widened and heart nearly exploded when saw the familiar man in his late 50s.

Taehyung was quick to shut the door but it was caught by the man's 6 feet tall bodyguard as Taehyung stumbled back.

"W-what are you.." Taehyung stumbled on his words, stepping when the other started stepping toward him as he closed his eyes shut but gasped when he was captured in a tight hug.

"My son, why didn't you tell me you are pregnant! I am having a grandson!" The man exclaimed, making Taehyung look at him confused before he chuckled. 

"You must be confused why I am suddenly behaving so good when I don't even like you. See Taehyung you are my son's husband and even now pregnant with his child, the heir of Jeon's. I am ready to accept you as my son in law, will you accept me too, forgive me for my past deeds, please." The man pleaded, as Taehyung broke down into a wide smile nodding his head furiously, God! Today must be his lucky day.

The younger was happy, he knew how much hardship him and Jungkook had to face because Mr. Jeon didn't like him a bit.

He wasn't rich but a poor orphan, who even got enrolled in the university just because of his scholarship and falling in love with a future mafia boss and that too a Jeon had its own problems. 

Taehyung didn't want Jungkook to kill and play with blood, he knew his man could do much better in any other field, the other's love for music never fading away from his eyes.

And that was the sole reason, Mr. Jeon didn't like him, he took away his only son and heir, he separated him with his son who could give him so much strength and could lead his empire to new heights. 

But the innocent Taehyung forget about the hate that reside in Mr. Jeon's heart for him, as he instantly forgave him, telling him about how Jungkook was gone for some deal to Japan with his hyung's, and he was here alone with Yugyeom to take care of him.

Not even once the thought hit him that how even Mr. Jeon got to know about his pregnancy when he hadn't told anyone except Yugyeom who accompanied him till the clinic.

The time passes like a winter breeze as the day came when Jungkook had to come back from his trip, the blonde's heart already going crazy.

His tiny fist clenched around the tiniest box he had, the other hand clutching tightly around the roses he brought– his husband gonna scream like a trash can today– his own thoughts making him laugh in a way.

The blonde missed the man coming toward him as he collided with the other, the roses falling down, Taehyung's arms immediately wrapping around his tummy, the man sighed in relief when he didn't fall but balanced himself.

"Oh! Yugyeom hyung!" He exclaimed, smiling wide, orbs making ways down at the file that was near his feet and before Yugyeom could pick it up Taehyung was already helping his hyung, picking the file up when his eyes fell on the name.

Patients name : Jeon Jungkook 
Department : Psychology 
Doctor : Psychiatrist Dr. Yung Choi

The Male's eyebrows frowned in confusion as Yugyeom tried to snatch the file from his hand but Taehyung didn't let him, the file was concerned with his husband. 

Taehyung handed the tiniest box to Yugyeom as he opened the file, going through several reports, his almond eyes starting stinging as warm water filled them.

"H-hyung.." The blonde stuttered, watching his hyung nod his head lightly, a sole tear slipping down his eyes.

"I am sorry, Taehyung. We wanted to inform you but Jungkook didn't let us. He has bipolar disorder which is worsing, his brain is playing tricks with him, and he's getting possessive over you. When you told us about the pregnancy, Jungkook's father was scared for the child because he could even kill the unborn child, if found any threat to your relationship, please don't tell anything to Jungkook, at least not for now."

Taehyung felt his heart shattering at the other's words, the blurry sight and paining heart didn't even help him a little, his arm curled around his own tummy, as he failed to see the curling smirk over Yugyeom's lips.

Running from there, the male forgot to pick up those roses from the floor, he forgot to take back the tiny box he prepared for his husband with so much love.

And it felt like Taehyung's protectiveness over his unborn child took over his love and trust for his husband, not once he talked to his husband, not once he tried to ask him his reasons.

Blindly following Yugyeom and Mr. Jeon who used to hate him just few months before, the man didn't even once think of Jungkook. 

Why would his husband have asked him for babies if he was a bipolar, if he was so possessive over him then why would he had left him alone for two months alone, in the care of another man.

Taehyung's brain didn't work as he continued his crying heart whenever Jungkook would ask him for his reasons for ignoring him.

And he could do nothing but regret all his choices he made that day, of believing that doctor and getting manipulated by Jungkook's father to leave Jungkook and take care of his baby.

His heart didn't melt when the raven cried and begged in front of him to tell him his mistakes and to not leave him.

He ruined his own happy life with his own hands.

His heart shattered when he had to left his bunny boy, had to leave with Yugyeom under one roof because he had nowhere to go.

The male sobbed and hiccuped when after one painful breakdown in his room, he started bleeding from down.

He screamed in pain, grief and agony when the doctors informed him that he had lost his child and if the cleaning didn't perform, it could lead to serious infection. 

The male had to sign those documents while sobbing as his back was rubbed by his Yugyeom hyung, who was crying too. The blurry sight failed him to read those documents. 

And, Taehyung knew everything was over then and there.

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Loud sobs and hiccups filled the whole kitchen, both the male still sprawled on the floor with tears pooling their eyes and heart breaking repeatedly, that they had forgotten the count.

"Why didn't you tell me then? You could have talked to me later?" Jungkook's cold voice and glaring eyes made Taehyung flinched, curling himself into a ball as he cried.

"Y-yug– Y-yugyeom m-manipulated me, h-he said you wouldn't trust me, I-i am sorry, Jungkook. I-i am sorry, I only got to know about h-his true i-intentions w-when h-he started a-abusing me, h-harassed me, a-and f-forcefully married me, pl-please, t-trust me, pl-please." Taehyung pleaded, his hands clasped in front of the mafia who got up on his feet, nostrils flaring in only anger.

A scream made its way out Jungkook's mouth, pushing down all the crockery down the counter, he screamed in anger and pain.

Watching the mafia so angry and behaving like a beast, Taehyung shivered in fear and terror as he shrink his body even more, soft yelp passed his lips when he was grabbed by his forearm harshly. 

"You killed my child! You fucking killed him because of your own stupidity! You are fucking stupid!" Angry screams were thrown at his face, his fragile body was pushed on the floor as Taehyung hissed from the pain, crying.

"Pl-please, pl-please, d-don't h-hurt me, pl-please, d-don't hurt.." Taehyung choked on his words as he chanted fearfully, eyes never opening to look at the mafia.

"Hurt you? I fucking want to kill you!" Jungkook's palms were slammed against his hands on the floor as the raven hovered over his fragile body.

"Pl-please.."

"Stop! Stop fuckin crying! You are killer you fucking killed–

"I-i am not a killer."

"You are! You killed my child! You killer–

"I said I am not a fucking killer!" Taehyung yelled, pushing the raven away from his fragile form, gathering all the strength he had left as he stood up on his feet.

"I am not a killer! I didn't kill my child! It wasn't just yours but mine too! If you had lost your child I have lost mine too! You didn't even know about him– it was me who was carrying him inside me! It was me who felt alone after losing him! It was me who got harassed! Do you– do you even know how much it hurt to get h-harassed by the same male you trusted so much!–" 

"–the man whom I trusted so much, fucking stripped me naked in front of him! F-fucking abused me! Do you even know h-how it felt living under the fear of getting hit and harassed 24/7! Pl-please, pl-please u-understand me, I-i was scared, s-scared for my b-baby.. pl-please.." The blonde broke down into loud cries, the mafia in front of him gulping the heavy lump that formed in his throat, his eyes stinging terribly. 

"N-no, n-no one u-understands me, n-no one, n-no one t-tries to k-know my pain, n-no one, y-you all only care about yourself, t-tell me J-jungkook w-what was my f-fault in all this, I-i didn't do anything to Yugyeom, t-to your father, m-my unborn baby didn't did anything b-bad to them, w-we didn't." Taehyung cried out, sobbing harshly like a baby as his breaths became rigid.

Jungkook sniffing back his tears as he stepped forward toward Taehyung but stopped in his track and his eyes turned blank when;

"T-tell me, why only m-my babies s-suffer, m-my unborn child died and J-Jaehyun, he, he was a-abused at the early age of 3, I saw h-him crying for his dada, w-when Yugyeom was busy with his flings, I-i– I have to leave him alone because you found h-him, a-and–

"Jaehyun is your and Yugyeom's son?" Taehyung's mouth was shut tight when those words left Jungkook's lips, his heart going crazy and the male felt his soul leave his body from fear.

"That– that kid is your fucking son, he is Yugyeom's– oh my god!" The mafia ran his hand through his raven locks, biting his lips as a chuckle left his mouth, poking his inner cheek in anger as the male glared at Taehyung. 

The blonde felt his heart stop, furiously stepping back when Jungkook came closer to his shaking form as he shifted his eyes toward the floor, not once looking at the elder, palms fisting at his side.

"You knew it from the start– ain't you? You knew it! That's why you didn't once begged me for your son's life! God dammit answer me!" The mafia screamed, his nerves popping out on his neck, as Taehyung refused to say a single word, making the male angrier.

Jungkook slammed his palms against the wall beside Taehyung's head, who still kept his mouth shut, tears falling down his cheeks– he would accept death over telling anything about his baby to the mafia.

With every passing minute, Taehyung's heartbeat increased, his spine having goosebumps from Jungkook's chill giving expressions. 

The mafia stepped back from Taehyung, rubbing his face with his palms, his mind going hazy as his sight blurred, a bitter laugh escaping his rough lips.

"Lies! Everyone just fucking lies to me! Everyone is a fucking liar!" The male screamed, feeling betrayed and anger rising in his chest. He knew Taehyung was a liar, but his hyung's also lied to him.

They lied to him for a fucking kid! Who wasn't even theirs. That's why, that was the reason, Hoseok everytime ignored him when asked about anything finding about Taehyung's son or Jaehyun's past. 

That was the sole reason, Yoongi wanted to keep the kid with him, now the mafia understood why his men were unable to find anything about Taehyung's son, it was because they were threatened by Yoongi. 

Jungkook felt his sight blurry from tears, why everyone betrays me, t-they really thought I would hurt that k-kid, t-they really thought of me a-as some heartless man.

His thoughts made him cry, a few tears rolling down which the mafia wiped instantly as he took the hold of Taehyung's wrist, dragging the younger man harshly with him.

The blonde flinched when his hand was held by Jungkook, but he nearly fainted when the mafia started dragging him out of the hall, to his bedroom.

The blonde gulped at his own thoughts, struggling in Jungkook's tight hold, he whimpered in pain, his almond eyes widened when the mafia pushed him inside his room, locking the door behind.

"S-stay away!" Taehyung squeaked in fear, stepping back before his legs stumbled causing him to fall back on the mattress, bouncing from sudden fall.

His eyes started burning again, shivering, the younger found it difficult to breathe, when his arms were pinned above his head, the mafia hovering above him angrily, eyes void of any emotions.

"Pl-please, n-no, d-don–" Taehyung's stuttered were interrupted in between when heard a soft laugh passing Jungkook's lips, the mafia leaned down, gripping his chin as he looked deep into his chocolate brown orbs. 

"Tsk, tsk darling, that's not my place no? Your husband has the right to do this with you." Jungkook's words made the blonde's breath hitch as he tried to back away but couldn't, the mafia's hot breath tickling his ear lobe.

"Your husband, Yugyeom's place!" Jungkook whispered making Taehyung remember all those times when he was harassed and abused, those painful memories, shaking his head the man sobbed, unable to even let out a word.

"Aww, don't cry baby, your husband will come tomorrow to take you with him, for now let's just cuddle." Taehyung looked shocked at the elder, when Jungkook hugged him from his side, forcing his head to lay on his chest.

And even though Taehyung was scared, his breathing was rigid, his fingers curled against Jungkook's shirt, crying silently he sobbed.

His mind screaming at him to get away from the mafia, his mind busy worrying for his baby and himself, Yugyeom was back and Jungkook wanted him gone.

Taehyung hiccuped terribly, when a rough hand sneaked to his waist, thumb drawing invisible circles to calm him down, as he felt his eyelids become heavy. 

Black dots started forming in front of his eyes, mind telling him to stay awake and fight, but his heart was too heavy to continue, the male wanted to give up.

Maybe his sufferings would never end, tomorrow Yugyeom would come, Jungkook would hand him to the other, Taehyung would cry and beg for his baby, maybe his baby would be dead tomorrow or maybe if god pity him, his son would be left in some orphanage at least it would be much better than getting abused by his own dad and seeing his appa harassed. 

And at that moment, Taehyung could only define his life and situation with one word, horrible, his fate was horrible.
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