"Breaking my heart,
Here we apart,
I wanna stay near you."

12/04/21
Rewritten : 26/04/22

Waiting?

Naveena: I wrote this chapter while listening to "With you" on loop, be ready to shed some tears.

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^pic credit to the rightful owner.

Please ignore the mistakes.

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Third person POV

The mafia drove crazily, his eyes droopy and red from the alcohol consumption, his mind blurry and brain fuzzy.

Only one thought dominated Jungkook's mind and his senses. The mafia wanted to hurt him, he wanted to give him pain, who gave him sufferings.

Jungkook wanted revenge, he wanted to hear screams and see tears.

The male reached his mansion, parking the car in the garage, he continued stumbling on his steps, the guards looking straight where they were supposed to, confused at the mafia's drunkenness but too scared to step in between.

Maids all asleep in their quarters, the mansion dead silent inside.

The raven turned around the lobby, closing the glass doors behind him, he knew the area was separate, no one was allowed there. 

The mafia stopped in front of the familiar wooden door, his heart going wild from rage, charcoal orbs glaring and palm clenched in fist.

The wooden door collided with the wall harshly when Jungkook kicked open it, the loud noise making the sleeping blonde jump up from his sleep.

Fear radiating from both his eyes and heart.

The blonde could smell faint alcohol, heavy breathings and bloodshot eyes, popping veins on neck and clenched fist were enough for him to crawl back on his bum.

"J-jungko–

"Make me a coffee– without milk!" The blonde shut his mouth, staring confused at Jungkook who stared back at him blankly, his eyes didn't blink and the raven didn't move, making Taehyung think that the other had froze.

But as the younger's head was occupied with immense fear, he couldn't do anything but nodding his head furiously and standing up on his feet.

Jungkook's dead stare gave shivers to Taehyung's spine, as he started moving forward sticking to the wall like a lizard, wanting to stay away from the raven as much as he could.

Taehyung made his way to the kitchen that was in the mafia's separate area, his heart beating rapidly in his chest, flinching with every step of Jungkook who followed him behind.

The male gulped making his way toward the kitchen island as the mafia sat down on the couch, staring dead into his soul.

And the blonde swore he had never shaked so much in his life, almost spilling the milk and water more than five times and glancing at the mafia in fear who was silent all the time– making Taehyung flinch.

Taehyung handed the hot coffee to the raven who glanced at the cup and then at the blonde who was gazing down at the floor, hands crossed in front like a student in class.

"Taehyung–" The mafia started making Taehyung flinch when he looked up at him and then looked back to the ground. 

"Come here!" Taehyung hesitated, chewing on his bottom lip and feeling nothing but fear, he took baby steps toward the mafia, softly kneeling down on the floor in front of the elder.

But Taehyung got startled when his hand was grabbed by the mafia aggressively and before he could think of anything, his fingers were dipped inside the hot coffee making him let out a soft scream.

The mafia blinked at the younger, who was trying to get away from his hard grip, hissing in pain and eyes already going teary.

"Ah– hurt! Pl-please leave.." Taehyung begged, crying deaf to Jungkook who shushed him up.

"Shh darling, don't make noise love– or want to experience the worst?" The male questioned, eyes filling with maniac expressions. 

"What did I tell you, darling? Coffee without milk, yeah?" The mafia uttered and Taehyung felt his heart shattered from fear– fuck! I added milk.

"I-i am so–

"No! Don't!" The male left Taehyung's hand who tried to get away but stopped and stared at the mafia with tear filled eyes, "No! Don't even dare or you will be meeting Sumo and Ray again!" 

The mafia threatened, his threat making Taehyung dizzy who kept his fingers in the hot coffee cup, the pain and burning sensation becoming unbearable. 

The mafia pushed his raven locks back, smirking at the crying blonde, "Aww, my baby is crying, don't cry." He uttered, wiping the tears off Taehyung's face who flinched.

The raven stared at the younger male before he backed away, making Taehyung also move back from him, blowing on his fingers which were red and Jungkook could feel the burning in them.

"Come here." 

The mafia ordered as Taehyung shook his head, crawling from Jungkook, silent tears rolling down his cheeks but his wrist was caught by the other as the blonde started pleading when he was dragged toward a room.

"Pl-please, I-i am sorry.."

Jungkook pushed Taehyung in a room, following behind and locking the door, the master bedroom theme familiar to the blonde.

"Why did you leave me Taehyung?" The mafia yelled at the blonde who flinched, not looking up at Jungkook, he was scared and guilty.

The mafia clenched his jaw, marching toward the younger male who stumbled back on his feet, puppy eyes wide from terror, his back met with the wall as the elder caged him in between.

The mafia stared at the blonde, his rage increasing when Taehyung didn't look up.

"Look at me!" He yelled,

"I said fucking look at me!" Jungkook screamed punching beside Taehyung's face who flinched terribly from fear, shutting his eyes tight, a series of sobs followed from the younger's mouth as he slowly meet the other's eyes.

"Why– why did you leave me Taehyung?" Jungkook's voice got softer, nearly on the verge of breaking down which made Taehyung suck in a sob, tears making their way down his cheeks.

"Did I– did I ever do something wrong with you? E-ever forced you for anything? Did I ever make you feel alone or not loved?" He uttered, eyes sparkling from wetness, looking straight into Taehyung's orbs, who started shaking his head slightly. 

"Answer me, please!" The desperation in Jungkook's voice raised the guilty feeling inside Taehyung's heart, who cried out.

"N-no, n-never.." 

"Then why! Why did you make me suffer? Why did you break me! What– what was my mistake, petal?" The elder male uttered, words slipping out of his throat without his knowledge, the alcohol getting his best but yet keeping him sober. 

The nickname made Taehyung's heart skip beat, after hearing the same nickname the other used to call him in his happiest moment but now it was saddest. 

"You left me because I can't fulfill your needs?" Taehyung looked up at the me, shaking his head furiously.

"N-no! T-trust me that wasn't the reason, pl-please." He cried out, desperately reaching for Jungkook who stepped away from him.

"Then why!?"

"I-i was scared! I was afraid!" Taehyung yelled back.

"From whom!?"

"I-I can't tell you!"

"Lie! You are a fucking liar! You left me because of your physical needs–" The mafia started only to be cut off by another Taehyung's scream.

"No! No– I-i was scared of you!" Taehyung uttered, breaking down into loud cries, his words making Jungkook freeze.

"M-me– why! Why Taehyung? Why were you scared of me?" Jungkook's heart ached inside his chest, he was furious, furious at himself. 

"Y-you belonged to the mafias, your father was forcing you to join– I-i didn't want that! I didn't want you to kill, I was scared for myself!" 

"And how many times, I told you Taehyung that I wouldn't join them! For you Taehyung, just for you I broke every single tie with my father!"

"No! You are lying– your f-father told me that you would join them, he told me that you would join them, h-he told me that you were mentally sick, that you would hurt me–" Taehyung's words were stopped by a laugh that escaped Jungkook's mouth, the raven's tears finally flowing down from the corner of his eyes.

"And you trusted him– you trusted my father? You knew how my father was– how much that man hated me but still you trusted him?" The mafia uttered, his voice filled with pain and disbelief. 

"I regret it, Jungkook! I regret it most!" The blonde cried out as he fell down on his knees, crying brutally. 

Taehyung regretted– he regretted trusting that man at the place of his own love and husband! He regretted being trapped in his ugly plans!

"You know Taehyung, you just never loved me.." Jungkook chuckled to himself, his tear making its way down his chin as he glared down at Taehyung. 

"N-no koo! N-no! I loved you– I love you! Pl-please I-i am sorry, I-i am sorry Jungkook, forgive me pl-please, love.." Taehyung clasped his hands, begging from the raven as he cried, Jungkook wiping his flowing tears harshly, kneeling down in front of Taehyung. 

"If you have ever loved me Taehyung, you wouldn't have trusted that man! You would have never left me! Y-you remember Taehyung, when once a boy in our college said that you had slept with him–" The blonde shut his eyes, as he ducked his head down remembering the incident, he remembered it.

He remembered how Jungkook had broken the boy's nose with only one punch and had announced to the whole college that he trusted Taehyung and would never leave him! 

Taehyung remembered that he was dead scared at that time but Jungkook never questioned him about anything, not even when he himself wanted to explain himself, the male had uttered–

"In love you don't need explanation, Taehyung and where you need explanation, it's not love."

It made Taehyung's eyes wet again, nodding his head, a sob left his strawberry lips. 

Jungkook shook his head as he got up, the blonde was still on the floor but the mafia was stopped, his wrist held by a shaking hand.

"Pl-please, I-i love you Jungkook, I-i was scared, I-i was trapped, I-i am sorry, pl-please koo, pl-please forgive me, f-forgive your petal.." A lump formed in Jungkook's throat as he looked back at the crying blonde,

"P-punish me i-if you want b-but please f-forgive me, I-i can't suffer m-more.." The blonde again broke down into cries, his hold on Jungkook's wrist loosening as he waited for the punishment Jungkook had to give him.

Jungkook stared at the blonde mop of hair and the other's shaking body, the loud cries and sobs piercing his heart, his fist clenching at his side, heavy breaths passing his nostrils. 

"I forgive you!" The blonde looked up, his face wet from crying, nose red and eyes swollen. 

"You broke our relationship, Taehyung! Our friendship, our love, you broke everything we had. I always loved you, al-always tried my best for you, I-i made sure to be away gentle with you but if– if even in the past, m-my any action hurted you, g-gave you pain, I-i am sorry–" 

"–sorry that I-i couldn't understand that you were scared of me, after all I-i am a monster– that's what everyone says, right?" A chuckle escaped the mafia's mouth, both of their tears overflowing. 

"I-i forgive you and please f-forgive this monster too, f-forget about me and t-throw my feelings in a fucking d-dustbin, a monster doesn't matter for anyone, anyway!" 

"Y-you aren't a monster–

"Leave—

"Huh?"

"You are free to leave, I-i am realising you, you are free to leave this monster, pl-please go before I hurt you m-more." The mafia uttered as he turned around, his back facing the blonde who was crying and hurting from the other's words. –No! I will not leave! I will never! 

Taehyung knew if he left Jungkook today then maybe he would never be able to see him again, not even him but anyone.

He saw Jungkook's changed behaviour, he saw how the raven furiously pinch on his own skin, he saw how the mafia played with knives in everybody's absence– no! 

The blonde had gone through the same phase, he stayed alive for Jaehyun and Jungkook was living for him– Taehyung knew if he left, Jungkook wouldn't stay anymore.

The male stands up on his feet as he wipes his tears– a little pain won't hurt!

The blonde held the mafia's wrist, startling him from his thoughts,

"Leave, Taehy–"

"Hurt me!" He deadpan, Jungkook turning around with the speed of lightning, nails digging in his palm.

"Fucking leave Taehyung!"

"I said hurt me Jungkook! Hit me! Fucking give me pai–"

"Leave Taehyung, pl-please, go!" The mafia begged, scenarios visible in front of him, veins popping on his neck and forehead. 

"Don't you want to hurt me, Jungkook! I am the same person who left yo–"

"Taehyung leave before I lost my contol–"

"Why! Why would I? I will not!" The blonde knew he was digging his own grave, the red face of the mafia and clenched eyes and fist, increasing his heartbeat. 

"Hit me Jungkook! You know Jungkook after leaving you, how I used to spent my nights– I used to lay in his arms, nake–" A yelp and hiss left Taehyung's mouth when he was harshly pushed by the elder, his back colliding with the wall, the male forming into a ball on the floor.

Taehyung met eyes with Jungkook, his puppy eyes widening when notice the bloodshot angry gaze of Jungkook and shaky hands busy unbuckling his leather belt.

The blonde wrapped his arms around his head, getting ready from the upcoming harsh whips, trying his best to faint and not experience the pain because he knew how much they were going to hurt.

He heard footsteps coming closer but the hits didn't come, only to open his eyes to find the raven clutching the belt around his own hands, trying to cuff his own hands with the headboard.

The mafia's whispers break Taehyung's heart, new tears forming in his eyes as they lay there, taking the note of sufferings he gave to Jungkook. 

"Y-you can't hurt him Jungkook! N-no! No! I-i can't! Pl-please go away! Please!" The mafia begged to his own self, burying his head in between the mattress and screaming from the pain he felt in his head.

The blonde watched Jungkook screaming terribly from the pain, his own sobs becoming uncontrollable before everything turned silent, the mafia falling into deep slumber.

Taehyung crawled toward the raven, standing up in his feet and hissing from the pain he felt in his back as with shivering hands the male untied the belt, throwing it down on the floor.

The blonde removed the raven's shoes and laid him down comfortably with difficulty. 

He kneeled down on the floor beside the elder's head, caressing the other's soft locks, Taehyung pecked Jungkook's forehead, his tears resting down on the mafia's cheeks.

"I-i am sorry Koo, s-so sorry, the pain and sufferings I gave you, I-i know I deserve your h-hate, I-i am sorry.." Taehyung cried out, resting his head on the mafia's chest, the calm heart beats echoing in his ears.

"I-i can never tell you the whole truth Jungkook, b-becuase I know y-you would hate me, hate me m-more.." His tears wet the sleeping Male's shirt, closing his eyes Taehyung imagined all those beautiful memories.

"I-i can't afford to lose you Jungkook, I-i have lost him n-now I can't lose you too, I-i will never tell you the whole truth, never, ever!" Taehyung murmured to himself, his eyes becoming droopy as the male felt himself pulled toward his dreamland, his lips moulding his last words before he fell asleep on Jungkook's chest.

"I lost our baby koo, he-he killed our baby.."
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This is chapter (13).

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Hey guys! Whole truth isn't exposed yet! I hope you enjoyed the chapter and felt a little emotional, did you?

Also what are your thoughts on the character Jungkook and Taehyung?

Next update will be during my vacation in May, or if I get some time I will update early.

Ba-bye, take care, love you. (Say it back 🥺)
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