3. Bliss, the year of the Unicorn

Dear diary,

There are so many things I want to share with you. I want to tell you about all the nice moments I have ever had with Van, but I feel like it might be a bit too much for you to handle. Nevertheless, I can't stop myself from sharing a bit more.

When I share all these feelings and memories with you, I feel like I am living them all over again, and it feels marvelous.

I love Van now, but I also like to go back to our beginnings and the novelty of it all. It was like a new and wonderful adventure that we got to explore together, that we are still exploring together.

However, I was always the one who loved the beginnings of love stories the most. The excitement, the hidden glances, the subtle touches. It's different because there is always this mixture of feelings that keep you on your toes.

Will the main characters of the story end up together or not? Do both of them share the same feelings?

Also, the way they slowly discover one another is the most fascinating thing for me.

They learn about each other's strengths and weaknesses, and they have fun revealing who they are. The process is usually slow but filled with hope and elation.

Every time they accidentally brush against each other, the main characters can't help but wonder if they both felt the sparks.

That is why I love remembering how it all started for me and Van because I love that feeling. Every day, you wake up with the knowledge that you will see the person who makes you feel all the emotions that you weren't even sure you had inside your heart.

Before I go on recounting our history, I must tell you something about me that I think is relevant.

I am a very confident person, and before meeting Van, I never used to blush. It always seemed strange to me when I saw other people turning red from embarrassment. After meeting Van, I found myself doing that more often than I care to admit.

When I was on dates before, I never felt anything but complete confidence in my beauty and my supreme intelligence. But when I was around Van, I felt so many contradicting emotions that I couldn't help but blush. It was such a strange feeling for me, and I both hated it and loved it at the same time.

For me, it meant that something was different, and honestly, I was curious. Curiosity is, after all, very common for fairies, but it made me nervous. I was nervous about the fact that I didn't understand my feelings and angry that I didn't know how to behave around Van.

Needless to say, after that night, I couldn't sleep at all. I kept thinking about all that happened and remembering Van's gentle touch.

We had plans to meet the next day, and that made me even more anxious. It all added up to me barely sleeping.

In the morning, I had no idea where I should meet Van, so I just went back to the place where I left him the previous night.

You can imagine my shock when I saw him standing there, scanning the horizon for me.

I am ashamed to admit, that I hid behind the nearby tree and stood there just watching him trying to figure out what in the Pan's name I was doing.

He seemed lost in thoughts, so I feasted my eyes on his elfin beauty. My thoughts were shocking to me, but that didn't stop me from openly staring.

I wondered what it would feel like to stroke my fingers through his hair. How thrilling it would be to trace the shape of his lips gently with my finger and then to kiss those beautiful lips of his that kept tempting me.

Suddenly my thoughts were interrupted by an amused voice.

"Would you mind joining me, my fairy queen, or do you prefer just staring at me?" He asked with a smirk.

My face felt like it was on fire as embarrassment flooded through my whole body. Not wanting to show my confusion, I flew out quickly and tried to look nonchalant.

"How did you know I was there? I am sure you couldn't see me." I said.

"I couldn't see you, no, but I can always feel when you are around my treasured one. It is difficult to explain, but even if I can't see you, I can sense the essence of your soul, I guess." He said.

The explanation was too serious for my taste. So I decided to just nod my head, and move on.

"So where are we going?" I asked, trying to sound casual, although I was very intrigued.

"I told you. I want to show you my favorite spot, so we are going to the elf kingdom. You might want to change your size to be able to fully appreciate it.

Besides, I want to see your beautiful face. I want to be able to enjoy every time I make your cheeks turn red. Red is such a good color on you." He said, smiling brightly at me.

Although I was irritated by his last statement, his brilliant smile made it impossible for me to stay mad at him for long. Besides, I did say I would be nicer to him.

Still, I couldn't help but pout while I was trying to focus on transforming myself into an adequate size.

Since I was still pouting when I became Van's size, he chuckled at my expression.

"I don't see what's so funny!" I said, petulantly while tossing my hair back.

"I am sorry, my love. I didn't mean anything bad by it. I can't help that I find you so incredibly adorable." He said, but one look at my angry face made him backtrack.

"Hm, I mean sexy? Beautiful?" he said it questioningly, studying my face until I finally relaxed my features.

I don't think he realized that I was just acting angry because his words affected me much more than they should have. I thought that he probably called everyone 'love', that it was his way, but hearing those words from him made my heart beat faster.

My palms were sweating, and I couldn't seem to breathe properly. I wasn't doing a good job at being nice to him, but I couldn't help my confused reaction. Finally, I managed a small smile.

"Thanks, I guess," I said casually.

He visibly relaxed after that and led the way to his favorite spot.

Once more, I had problems balancing since my wings were much larger and more difficult to control. I could have shrunk them magically, but it required so much effort and concentration that I couldn't master it.

Concentrating was a big problem for me when I was around Van, so I decided to deal with the wings by tucking them behind my back. However, no matter how much I tried, they still seemed to be in the way most of the time.

When Van offered his hand to help me out, I was too grateful to refuse.

He continued to lead as we went on, arm in arm, and soon enough, we were on the elf territory.

Since I had never been there before, I was fascinated by every little thing about it. It was still magical but in a completely different way.

From everything I saw that day, our final destination will stay in my memory forever.

He led me to the most stunning waterfall I had ever seen. It wasn't just any old waterfall, it was a magical waterfall, and that fact was obvious from the very first glance. The water was rushing down the rocks in all its natural glory, and with a grace that was uncommon in regular waterfalls.

Also, the water itself and the surrounding area were sparkling beautifully. It reminded me of my spot in the forest, only it was so much more.

Not only did it have the sparkling of the most mesmerizing stars, but there was also the waterfall itself and the smell of freshness, energy, and life.

One thing I adore is waterfalls. They are just so powerful, and there I was in front of a MAGICAL waterfall.

My feeling of happiness doubled at the sight of it, and I couldn't help but let a huge smile spread across my face.

As I stood there, admiring the glorious sight in front of me, I forgot about my wing problems and carelessly moved towards the water.

I just wanted to touch the surface of the water, to feel its texture, to see if it was similar to regular water.

Unfortunately for me, that was when I lost my balance. I would have probably fallen into the pool created by the waterfall if it hadn't been for Van.

He caught me around the waist and pulled me back to the solid ground. That way, I avoided falling into the water, but we both ended up falling on the grass behind us.

I fell on top of Van, which significantly lessened the blow but also caused my face to flare up since I felt shyer than ever before.

"S-Sorry" I mumbled as I tried to get up.

"It's okay. I am glad I could help, my dear blushing beauty." His words made me blush even more, so I did my best to get up.

However, my wings made that very difficult. Van just smiled up at me, with that irresistible grin of his.

"I told you I would always be there to catch you when you fall, didn't I?" He said confidently.

I was annoyed with myself, because there I was shaking and blushing, while he seemed more confident and calm than ever.

Finally, I managed to get up, and Van followed me in an instant.

Annoyingly enough, my huge wings made me stumble once more, and Van was there to steady me again.

As I looked at him, I realized that we were very close to each other. He was holding me in a steady embrace that I didn't think was necessary to stop me from falling.

Nevertheless, I didn't say anything as I stared into his deep blue eyes. I could see that he was struggling with some strong emotion.

Before I could do or say anything, he seemed to make a decision, and that was when he slowly licked his lips, and a second later, his lips were on mine.

It was just a soft kiss. His lips gently brushed against mine, and I could feel strange tingles coming from my lips, going through my whole body. The feeling was electrifying.

I felt more alive than I ever had before, and I wanted more. I wanted him to kiss me passionately, to make me lose myself in the kiss.

He seemed to be able to read my mind because suddenly he was kissing me more passionately than I thought was possible.

On instinct, my hands wrapped around his neck, and I could feel goosebumps there which made me feel even better.

I wasn't the only one overwhelmed by feelings. When we stopped for air, I couldn't help but brush my fingers through his hair as we smiled at each other contentedly.

It feels so good to remember, but I think it's time for me to go to sleep. I am sure I will have sweet dreams.