Ben has never thought that he would be here. Sitting on a fence in a small barn and talking to Jon about...whatever this was.

"You're serious?", Ben watched his best friend from the side and raised an eyebrow. 

"I am"

"You've never been interested in a woman?"

"No."

"And you've never kissed one?"

"I have not. Have you?"

Ben looked at him from the side but quickly looked away. "Of course I have."

"Really? Who?", Jon frowned slightly. "You've never mentioned that. I thought we would tell each other everything."

Ben kept looking away and then sighed. "Alright I haven't."

"So you were lying to me?", Jon asked in a jokingly hurt manner.

"I wouldn't call it lying. I was just...not telling the truth.", Ben looked around, scared of anyone watching. "It's embarassing. Everyone has done this already. I just want to get it over with, you know? What if I do it someday and just completly mess up? Sounds like something I would do" 

Ben has been waiting for years now for the feelings everyone has told him about since forever but nothing really came. Every girl he met  was absolutely beautiful but somehow...there wasn't a spark

They sat there for a few seconds, neither of them knowing what to say.

"We could try it.", Jon then suddenly said.

"What?"

"Kissing. Just to try it out and see if we're good at it. We're friends. We can help each other try it out, right?"

Ben's heart flatterted again for a short second, like it sometimes did when Jon just...did about anything. Weird. Maybe he should go see a medic.

"So?"

"Huh?", Ben's cheek just heat up a little. "I mean...we could try it out, right? I mean trying out has never hurt anyone. We help each other out all the time"

"Exactly...it's basically like training."

"Yes...training.", Ben looked a bit surprised when Jon moved to turn over to him. 

"It's not too hard, right? We've seen it before.", Jon carefully moved to cup one of Ben's cheeks and again, his heart stopped for a second. 

"Should I...try?", Jon quietly asked, moving closer again.

"...yes.", Ben just nodded, looking between Jon and his lips, feeling like he was floating. What exactly was happening? And why was he feeling like he was going to pass out?

A thousand thoughts moved trough his head when Jon suddenly leaned in and placed his lips on Ben's. 

And in that moment his whole world seemed to change. He leaned further into it and and smiled softly. His heart beat faster and almost let out a disappointed sound when Jon moved back again.

"You wouldn't mess up. You're good at this.", Jon just whispered, his hand still resting on Ben's cheek, slightly moving his thumb over it. 

"...I...thank you...you're good at this too...", he just quietly mumbled.

"Thank you.", Jon just smiled.

"So...", Ben wanted to say something about this. He had just kissed his best friend and...something happened but in that moment his little sister basically barged in which let to him, letting out a surprised scream and falling of the fence.

Laurie didn't seem too impressed and just raised an eyebrow. "Are you coming?"

Ben just huffed, asking himself how an 11 year old girl could be this annoying but then just noded, getting up again and turning to Jon. "I'm going to...leave...bye...", and with that he basically grabbed Laurie by her arm and pulled her out.

She quietly complained but his mind was already somwhere else.

Kissing Jon. Kissing his best friend. It felt different than he had ever imagined and still it felt...right. And then he realized. This was the spark everyone was talking about. 

This was this great romantic feeling. 

True and sincere love. 

And he had those feelings for the Bastard of Winterfell.

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