That I wanted to know.
But do I want to tell im about my life before he came into it?
"Fine." 

~~~~~~~~~ 

*Laf* (Thats right you aint findin out yet!) 

We went through lunch and they didnt show up. Honestly I didnt care that much. We decided we go back to James dorm and see if they came back from wherever they were. 

"Thanks for the lunch LaffyTaf." Peggy hopped through  the door after James and plopped down on the couch. 

Herc and I sat down on thee couch next to Peggy, while James sat in a chair  and he rest of them sat on the floor, scattered around the T.V.

"I gotta go to classes. Bye Guys." 
"Me too."
"Bye Maria, bye John." 

We all started talking about random current events. 

"Finals are in a week right?" 
"Yeah, I need to start studying." 
"I'm gonna start going crazy." 
"James, you wont go crazy. Your the smartest out of all of us." Peggys says laughing towards the end. 

"Doesnt mean I'm not gonna stress myself oout because of it." 
"Well this is our last day of freedom! Lets get some hot chocolate!" 
 

James scurryies to find some hot chocolate. We all jump up searching for cups and fiing them with water. James chucks a box of hot chocolate packs at us causing Eliza and Angelica to spill their water everywhere. 

"Jesus James!" Angelica screeches.

It's gone crazy. 

"Alright everyone calm down!" Herc shouts. 

Everyone freezes. 

"OKay, Schuylers, fill up your cups and put them in the microwave. James get the packets and marshmellows set out. The rest of you get your cups filled up with water and ready to be microwaved. Jeez you chirren get it together!" He laughs midway causing us all to relax. 

Herc is pretty relaxed most of the time but can be strict and give some orders when he is needed to.

"Alright lets get to it!" We all rush into an organized chaos. 

Eventuaally after some struggle and a few crasing cups, we were all settled on the couch sipping out steaming hot chocolate watching movies. 


After about an hour the Schuylers left for classes and James went to study, but he said we could stay and watch movies, as long as we kept it quiet. 

"Well that was a nice afternoon." Herc mutters. 
"Mhm." 

We sit quietly watching the movie. when Thomas and Alex walk in. Well, Alex walks in Thomas is more of dragged in. 


"Where the heck were ya'll?!" I hop off the couch rushing over to the duo.
"Shh jeex laf dont make it worse!" ALex hisses at me while he continues walking Thoams to his room. 

"What the heck? I am confused." 

"Sit down Laf, they gotta tell us eventually." 


I sat back down cuddling into Herc. 


*Alex* (did I just right 463 words on them making hot chocolate?)

After Thomas and I talked at the Lake he got really tired, so I basically had to drag him back. 

Laf didnt really help Thomas' case. He was still awake, he just looked dead. Him seeming mad about us not being there scared me. I didnt want Thomas to go into another panic attack. 

~~~

I laid him down on his bed fallinng down next to him. 

He was laying on his side already nestled under the cover. I hugged him tighty, still laying ontop of the covers. 

I placed my head on his shoulder letting my eyes close gently. 

"You lied to me." I hear him mumble. 
"What?" 
"You said he wouldnt be mad." 

Gosh dang it Lafayette! 

"He wasnt mad. Just worried. None of them knew where we were." 

He nods his head, but I'm not sure if he believed me. 


"Hey Thomas." 
"Mh?" 
"Did you tell me everthing?" 
"Well...you didt pecifically ask for everything. Only why I had a panic attack." 

"Thomas Jefferon." I groan. 

"I'm sorry..." His voice wavers a bit. 
"It's okay. It's fine." 
"It doest seem fine. Y-you're mad.."

I sit up and face him. 

"I'm not mad okay? Trust me." He looks away but nods. 

I sigh, laying back down. 

He's so broken. He never seemed this hurt before, why is he like this now? 

I want to believe it's because he trust me enough now to show this side of him. 
I dont want to believe that he is getting worse. I dont want that. 


I dont want him falling back into the way he was before. What showed through his eyes when he was telling me about his life. 


Why would he fall back into that though? Why would he get worse? Theres no reason to get worse. 



"Hey Thomas.." 
"Mh?" 
"I got a class to go to." 
"Oh....o-okay." The dissapointment in his voice hurt. But I couldnt miss class. Not after I've been gone for so long and with semester finals coming up before winter break, I have to. 

"Bye, Thomas."
"Bye, Alex." 

I get up and leave, gently closing the door behind me.

"Bye, Herc Laf." 
"Bye, Alex." 

I walked to my class, rushing so I can get the full lecture. 

"Good evening Mr.Hamilton. Good to see you." I nod to the professore taking my seat in the back. 

I go through the hour, getting a lot of reading to do for this class. I grab my notebook and weave my way through the tangled ocean of people hurrying to get back to James and Thomas' dorm. More specifically back to Thomas. 

I have another class after this one but it's not for another hour. 

I walk through the halls searching for that familiar dorm door. 

Thoams and James' dorm door has a poster of musical's hanging on the outside along with pictures of the group pinned to the poster.

I walk quietly through the door peeking my head in. Laf and Herc are gone, the dorm being almost silent, the sound of keys clicking and pencil scratching against paper being prominent. 

"Hey, I'm back." 
"Hey." James calls from his room. I walk through short hall and poke my head into his room. 

"Hey, is Thomas here?"
"No. He left for work or a class or something." I nod. I didnt think he had work today...
"How long ago?" 
"Maybe 5 minutes." 
"Okay, well do you know when he'll  be back?" 
"Hour and a half maybe."
"oh, okay."

I left James to study and work. I left hurridly to the cafe. The clouds still hang overhead. 

I finally get to the cafe walking in to it empty and Thomas getting 'talked to' by his boss. He was more like screaming at him. 

I didnt want to watch him get screamed at. His stood there like aa soldier , his face was blank, empty of expression but his eyes were glassed over tears almost falling. 


His boss saw me and grumbled something before walking to the back probably to his office. I rushed over to Thomas hugging him tightly. 

"Hey, what was that about?" He chokes on his words and starts silently crying. 

I cant say anything. I dont know what to say. 


I just hug him as tightly as I can, him doing the same to me. I felt  his tears drop  down onto my shouder but I'd rather hug him than worry about that. 


I lead him over to a table and sit him down. 

"Thomas, what happened?" 
"I-I d-didnt s-show up e-earlie-r t-today and I-I got I got s-screamed a-at." His voice was barley audible and choked up. 

"You're okay, it's okay. I'm here." I rub his back huging him tightly. 

We didnt stay like this for long. His boss came back oout telling him to   get to work. 

"thoams do you have a class today?" 
"No." 
"I have one in 30 minutes."
"Oh..." 
"Ill stay here as ong as I cna okay?" He smiled smally and nodded looking aat me with begging eyes. 

I ordered my usual. A black coffee and a chocolate muffin. 

I watched Thomas work. He smiled brightly at the customers, seeming to brighten their mood too. 

I watched him go back and forth taking orders, making them and collecting the money. 

I wish he would smile like that all the time. 

Jeez, I really gotta ask him out on a date. 

A/N Yup. Suckers. You dont know yet! Neext chapter will be all in Thomas' pov and will starts from the end of chapter 38. Just letting ya'll know! Welp. Hope ya enjoyed. I dont know how many more chapter ya'll will get if my power goes out I cant charge my laptop or my phone so bare with me. Thanks for reading, commenting and voting and BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!