It was refreshing and relieving to have it back.

To have him back. 

~~~~~~~~~

*Alex* 

Thomas left a few hours ago. I sat alone in my room and took this time to sneak in some homework time. I had a final project for the first semester. We had our winter break in a few weeks. Time has gone by so slowly. I expected my first year of college to zoom by, but it hasnt, but it sure has been full of drama. 

My mind still lingers on when Thomas kissed me. The way I reacted. He probably thought I didnt like him. But I do. Although, I'm sure after that reaction he doesn't really like me that way anymore. 

I don't like to get into any relationships. Just, any relationship I'm in, I'm just played with and I just end up hurt. All those relationships did for me was make me have trust issues. I don't like to really open up to anyone. 


I sat on my bed typing away, writing some notes down here and there. 

John walks in. 

"Oh, hey, John!" 
"Hey, Alex." 
"What's up?" 
"Not much, I don't have any more classes for the day so I thought I'd come here." 

I nod and go back to my work. 

"Now, what kind of person would I be to tell Thomas to not let you work, and then I let you work? I'd be a hypocrite Alex." 

"Aaaggggggg, ne! I have to work! I have to email that Law firm to get my internship back." 
"You need money." 
"I know, I'm taking that internship and I know, no money, so I'm working at a grocery store down the road on Monday, Tuesday and Friday's and then a Fast food place Wednesday's. " 

His face dropped and he stared at me. 

"Alex, you can't work that much." 
"I have to make money." 
"You don't have to work 2 jobs." 
"If you didnt know, I wasn't lucky enough to get a full scholarship. I only got a partial scholarship. I have to pay off student loans somehow. I don't want to have debt on my back." 
"But you have your entire life to do that!" 
"I wasn't lucky enough to have rich parents John, let alone real parent's like you okay!? I had to work my way up to everything I have. I still have to pay hospital bills too! I don't have rich parents to pay for everything for me!" My temper getting the best of me I yell at John. How did this escalate so quickly? 

It was quiet for a long time before John spoke up. 

"Alexander... you know I work for everything I have. My parents don't pay for it all." 
"But they pay for some of it right!?" 

He looks down and nods. 

"I don't! I have Martha and George, but they don't have that kind of money! I have to pay off student loans, hospital bills! I'm not spoiled, unlike some people!" He physically winced at my jab. 

"I have to w-work to Alex! I have to pay for college too!"
"Not on your own?" 
"Well, no, my parents are paying for it, but I have to pay them back!" 
"But you don't have to worry about one day not being able to pay tuition do you!?" I spit. 

"N-no." 

I could see his eyes glass over. 

"I do! Every day I worry that I might one day not be able to pay! I can't slack off!" 
"I don't slack off!" 
"But you have NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT! YOU CAN SLACK OFF IF YOU WANT!" I shout back at him, my voice rising halfway through the sentence. 

A tear dropped down his cheek. But his face didnt show sadness, it showed one of anger. 

"Alex, I get it okay? But out of all the people you know me best, you should know that my parents don't like me, and I don't like them. Them paying for my college was only because they wanted me out. I have worked way too hard for all of this for you to tell me that I slack off, or that I'm a spoiled little rich kid. I'm not another person that you can just push away and insult, so don't talk to me for a while okay? I don't want to be insulted every day." 

"I had to go through that! I had to be insulted every day! I was tortured! I was bullied! You were the popular kid who everyone wanted to hang out with!" 

"You were not bullied! You were the bully! That one person with a twisted mind!" I freeze. 

"You don't think I got backlash from that? You don't think I tortured myself!? Don't you think I came home every day went to my room and never left it? Starving myself, cutting myself putting myself down because I felt guilty!" 

" Don't do making yourself the victim! If you felt so guilty then why did you keep doing it!? huh? If it tortured you so much why did you continue to bully Thomas?" 

"I don't know! Because I felt so worthless! I saw someone who had everything and threw it away on crap! Someone who had everything I didnt and wasted it!" 

"That's not an excuse!" 
"I know that!" By now, John was stoned faced and angry. I, however, was crying but tried to keep my voice steady. My laptop was closed and shoved away. I looked down at my lap and let all the sobs and tears and pain go. 


I put my face in my hands. 

"I know I'm a bad person John. I've already forced that into my mind. I've already convinced myself of that. I-I don't want my best friend to drill it further into my head." 


I lifted my head from my hands and shifted. I laid back on my bed and stared up at the ceiling. 

Memories from previous hours when Thomas lay next to me, staring at the ceiling flashed through my mind, and I couldn't help but smile lightly. 

I saw John visible relax. He walks towards me and hugged me tightly out of nowhere. 

"W-what?" 
"I'm sorry. This was a petty fight." 
I laugh lightly. 

"Yeah. Sorry for starting it. That whole thing was my fault." 

He pulled away and it was silent for a little while. 

"Um, when can I get out?" 
"Um, I don't know lemme go ask." 

He stood up and left. 

He came back quickly. 

"They said they disclose that information to me since I'm not family or in a relationship with you." 

We sighed. I called in a nurse. 

"When can I get out?" 
"In about a week. Just a little more time for the wound to heal and you can be let out with someone watching you." 
"Okay thank you." She left after quickly checking my IV's. 

"In a week, with a caretaker-" 
"I know Alex, I was here." We share a laugh. 

I check the time and see that it's 6 pm. 


John notices the time and says goodbye leaving me once again alone. 

I opened my laptop to start working again and then----


Then I got an email. 






A/N HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Well John and Alex got in a  fight over a petty thing! Not a good chapter but next chapter oooo get ready, prepare yourselves! It's gonna be a long one. But an important question---Whats in the email? Who sent the email? I don't know? Oh, wait I do heh! Whoever can guess who sent the email or what the email is about, get's a shoutout next chapter! But hope yall enjoyed, thanks for reading, commenting and voting and 
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