Watching the pack, they seem calm some walking with their human mates. Destiny comes into view, holding hands with the human male Fade brought…think his name was Drake. I watch as he makes her blush and kisses her cheek. Being happy for my sister, she’s always wanted her mate. She looks happy, it had taken a huge toll on her when our parents were killed. Being the rock she was, she had helped me run the pack.

    A light knock, before Cassy walks in. Smiling the way she always does, when she wants something. Cassy lost her mate, and being from a small family she hadn’t anywhere to go. I had thought she’d find a new wolf, to mate to. But her greedy human nature took over, and she’s been my main lay for the last few months. I’d never mark her, she’s not my type….unlike….. Shaking my head.

    “Hello Alpha” Walking to me, her hand touches my arm. Wolf growls, he doesn’t want her. Before finding Fade, he would just go away while I got my release.
    “What do you want Cassy?” Knowing all to well what she wanted. She tried to come off sexy, but it just looked wrong.
    “I thought maybe, you know” Playing with the hem of my pants. Turning away from the window, I looked at her. She was doing very little to get me aroused. Grabbing her shirt, pushing her down on my desk. Pushing my free hand up her skirt. Moaning in my ear, kissing my neck and licking me.



~Fade’s Pov~


I walked out of the bathroom, grabbing a small chair and placing it in front of a window. Pushing it open, I lit a smoke. Halfway threw the bedroom door opened, and he strolled in like some kind of king. His eyes locked on mine, before stopping at the last post. Brining the smoke to my lips, I took a longer drag. Blowing it out the window, my eyes caught the deep red on his neck. His pants were pulled to one side.

    Tightness pulled at my heart, as I knew he just fucked some slut. Looking back at him, I kept my face blank. Not wanting him to know, I looked back out the window. Turning away from me, he closed the bathroom door. The shower turned on, and I mental huffed.

There isn’t enough soap in the world to clear your conscience now.

Finishing the last part, I tossed it into the yard. Lighting another one. I was feeling a double was needed for this special occasion. With the water turning off, I heard shuffling. Stepping out he held the large towel in place. I could feel him looking at me, but I didn’t return it. His low growl at me not paying him any attention, made me smirk…at least on the inside.
    What’s wrong Alpha. Mad cause now I wont acknowledge your very existence?

A draw opened and I blushed hearing the towel hit the bed. Keeping my eyes at the woods, I listened like my hearing had just evolved like a damn hawks. He made it pretty easy, a lot of stomping like a child. The chain rattled, and I was jolted out of my seat. Glaring at him, I held the cigarette. Taking it from me, he flicked it out the window before closing it.
    I would of verbally ripped him apart, had I not promised myself never to speak to him again. Making myself believe my voice was worth something, I kept it to myself. He towered over me, but again I didn’t say or look at him. His hand grabbed my face, making me look up. Instead of closing my eyes, I looked past him. He noticed and frowned. Pulling me closer to his naked chest. My body heat spiked, but I didn’t show.

    “What have no insults left?” He was baiting me, and I knew that. Pulling my head away from his hold, looking at the carpet. When I did give him anything he again flung me on the bed. Pushing his hands next to my head, making his face to close.
    “Say something?” Growling, I could feel something tight over my body, telling it to listen. Father had mentioned something like power that could be used to make you do things. I fought it, and was about to push it aside, when I thought it would do him some good to hear what I had to say. My head turned looking him straight on.
    “Hope you enjoyed yourself” Holding his shocked gaze before, looking away again.


~Thorin’s POV~

Needing a shower, I opt to kill two birds with one stone. Seeing her would make wolf happy. Opening the door, she sat quietly with a cigarette pressed between her lips. They looked good enough to eat, as the cigarette’s cherry burned. Blowing out the intake, she looked at me. Trailing her eyes over my body, feeling thrilled to have her eyes on me. A flash of hurt halted that, as she looked back at me; only to show no more emotion.

    Wolf whined when she looked away, not even giving me a second thought. Keeping my anger in, I closed the bath door. Relaxing in the hot water, I decided to try something. Needing her to say something, she wouldn’t give up this early. She has more fire in her, I just know it. Turning the water off, grabbing a large towel. Stepping out, she didn’t even look at me. Growling at her, it didn’t even seem like she heard me.

    Grabbing a pair of boxers, I tossed the towel to the bed. Hoping she would at least look at it, but again nothing. This was frustrating as all hell. Stomping over to her, grabbing the chain. Pulling her out of the chair, her glare sent a shiver threw me. Tossing her smoke out the window, closing it shut. She kept her eyes glued to the floor. No….look at me….fight me….do something….
    Grabbing her face, I just hoped she wouldn’t close her eyes. She didn’t…it was worse... she looked threw me. I needed to do something, and fast.

    “What have no insults left?”  Watching her expression. She pulled away from my hold and looked back at the carpet. This can’t be happening, Destiny had warned me. She’s shutting us out, she’s shutting down. No more fight, no more passion….

Desperate to receive anything from her, I flung her on the bed. Covering her body in mine.
    “Say something?” Growling at her. Running my eyes franticly all over her face. Keeping her eyes off of mine, she didn’t move a muscle. Wolf whimpered and cussed me out. As I was about to give up her eyes shot to mine, glaring daggers. Her words cut deeper then any knife.
    “Hope you enjoyed yourself” Her words so full of hate and pain. I don’t think she knew, she had just shown some emotion. But it wasn’t what I was expecting. She had seen the lipstick on my neck and my messed pants. Our mate was more then upset…she was hurt.

~YOU JACKASS~ Wolf growled.

Her eyes held mine before turning away. Making wolf whimper again.

~She’s shutting down, you broke her. You broke her spirit~

The pain I felt was unbearable, worse then loosing Lindsey. This scared me, I was falling for Fade. She was being coming something I couldn’t stop thinking about. Wanting her attention became more important then my work. Now without any of her, she was shutting me out. The cold shoulder was nothing like this. This was far worse, pushing hard on the bed. Begging for her eyes, her attention, touch, her yelling at me. She granted me nothing, not even a sigh or huff.
    I didn’t know what to do, her smell wasn’t working on wolf. He was beyond mad, and for once it wasn’t her fault. I was to blame.

    “Fade look at me” I didn’t release the words came out, till I heard them. Still she didn’t do anything. I opt for another try.
    “I told you to look at me” Making it a little louder. Silence filled the room, her eyes holding on to something other then me. Going out of my mind, I grabbed her. Pulling her smaller body to mine, closer. Nothing she didn’t fight or seem to care. It was like holding a doll, placing her arms around me. They staid unless I moved them. Placing her so her body startled mine, she kept looking else where. Touching her didn’t seem to make a difference. How…how can she ignore me like this. She can’t be this strong.

    This wasn’t the same girl who cuddled up to me, last night. Her sweet overbearing nature had shut down, and rebooting her didn’t seem possible. Nothing I was doing made a damn difference. Doing everything even things I probably shouldn’t of done yet. Kissing every inch of her skin, running my hands over her perfect body. Pressing my lips back to hers, only to receive nothing in return. Nipping her lightly, and sucking spots that should of made her at least moan.
    Nothing…..just nothing.

This torture lasted for two hours, before I could feel myself going crazy. Ready to pull my hair out, laying her back on the bed. Pushing my body over hers, I did the only thing I could think of….beg.

    “Fade please say something” Pushing my face into her neck. Her breath hitched, and I snapped up to see her eyes watering. No..no..nooo.nononoononnono. Wolf screamed causing me to cringe.
    “I hate you” whimpering out the words, before adding another stinging blow.

    “Go back to your whore” Tears slide down her cheeks, making her face red and puffy. Rolling over under me, she crawled away. Putting herself in a corner as far away as humanly possible from me. Holding myself with me hands, I looked at her. Feeling sick, I left the room. Destiny was walking by when she saw me.
    “Thorin?” She reached to touch my face, but I swatted it away and took off for my office. Locking the door sliding down the back, cupping my face in my hands.

~Fade’s POV~

I just had to say those things to him, I couldn’t take anymore of his attention. It felt so good, his attention all for me. Feeling like such a fool, I cried in the corner. My father would be so disappointed in me. The door cracked, making me look up. Seeing a shocked Destiny.
    “Oh Fade” Closing the door and running to me. Like a child who wanted their mother, I reached for her. Her embrace was warm and comforted me. Sitting on the floor, crying my damn eyes out she spook calming words.
    “I just want to leave” Sputtering out.
    “Okay, well do it tonight.” Ungluing my eyes from her legs, they looked longingly at her.
    “Really?”

    “Yes, I can’t stand seeing you cry.” I sniffled and grinned.
    “You should be my mate” She chuckled hugging me harder.
    “I would be honored to have you as my mate.” Rocking back and forth.

We talked about what we would do, and she left going to tell Drake. I trusted him, and being that he was her mate he would agree with her decision. Pacing back and forth, my stomach was sick. The door open and she smiled brightly at me.
    “Ready?”
    “Yea” Nodding like a fool.
    “Okay get everything you need.”  I grabbed my bow and Quiver.

“Good” Holding them tightly. Passing me she opened a draw in the desk and pulled out a shinny silver key. Pushing it into the collar, it popped and dropped to the floor. Rubbing my neck, I beamed in happiness.
    “Okay follow my lead.”
    “Kay” Opening the door, she looked around before taking my head. Running out we dashed down the hallway. Drake was at the front door.
    “They all headed out, to the west.” Pointing.

    “Good, come on Fade.” Pulling me out the front door. We ran as fast as I could into the woods. Weaving in and out of the trees. Made sure to not trip.
    “Get on, this is taking to long.” Pulling me onto her back. Like a child being carried, she took off faster then I could image. Smiling if I lived I could go this fast when I got my wolf. What felt like forever, soon came to an end. Lowering me down we were at a waterfall.
    “Here?” I asked looking around.

    “There is a cave behind the waterfall. The water will mask your scent, and any cries you might have during the shift.” I gulped, great thinking Destiny. Way to think of everything. I nodded as she tried to smile.
    “What about food?”
    “I have Drake getting things ready. Later I will bring you some things.”
    “Okay” We walked till we were behind the waterfall. Cold and wet, she sighed.
    “Are you sure about this?”

    “Yes, just do whatever you need to do” Standing still with wet hair dripping down my front.
    “Okay, it might hurt.” Geez she’s not helping. Coming really close to me, I shut my eyes. Her hot breath, racing down my neck. The sharp twinge of two fangs perching my skin. So desperately did I want to scream, keeping them contained proved to distract me at least for a while. Pulling out, her eyes are black.

    “Done” Whipping her mouth. Nodding the burning flesh licked fire up my neck and down my arm. Sucking in air, it was so painful.
    “Fade you need to lay down. Your not going to be able to stand for much longer.” Her touch felt like a thousand needles, and I wanted to just dip myself into the icy waters. Helping me sit, she watched me for a few minutes till her face went white.
    “He known’s. I have to go. I’ll be back soon. Don’t die.” I seriously would of said some kind of good comeback had I not wanted to hurl. Disappearing her shadow trailed away as I looked out past the drowning water. Crashing to the ground from the rock I was sitting on. Grabbing at my neck and feeling as though I wanted to peel the skin off my body. The fire inside me, trying to find anyway out. So is this what it feels to end up in hell, will I be allowed to go to heaven when I die?