Your Guardian Angel
Her POV

"Hey babe," he calls me when I walk in after another day in Uni. I find him on the sofa with his guitar, smiling brightly at me.

I smile back at him as I usually do, feeling that warmth inside of me when I notice the way his eyes light up every time he meets mine. I remember a time when every time he looked at me I saw worry and pity. Those are dark times that are way behind us. Over three years ago when he was that light at the end of the tunnel, the light that told me I could do it when I was already on the floor bleeding, when I had given up and accepted my destiny. He told me otherwise over and over again until I believed it. Kind of.

"How was your day?" he asks next after I drop the keys of our flat and walk up to him to sit by his side. I came to live with him officially less than a year ago, when I decided to get in Uni and go for a degree. After all this time.

He always asks me about my day, making sure I'm okay, making sure I'm happy. And I am because I'm free, like I was never before.

"Great, and yours? Working on a song?" I ask back cuddling next to him as he puts the guitar aside.

For a long time I couldn't bare the thought of him touching me. Every time memories of being smacked and punched would come back. He never gave up on me, he waited until I was ready and now I can't live without him, without his tender touch and loving hand.

"Yeah, although it's an old one," he replies. "The lads think it's a good one for our album." Iridescent finally got a record deal a few months ago and they are working on their first studio album. "In fact I wanted to ask for your permission first." I frown so he has to explain further. "You see, I wrote it back then when I met you and well it's very personal. It's about you and I don't want to offend you in any way."

He's written a few songs about me but he doesn't always play them to me. I think he does that because he doesn't want me to remember how things used to be. But no matter what he does, I'll never forget.

"Let me hear it," I encourage him so he moves to grab his guitar again.

He softly starts to play some chords, a beautiful melody and soon his voice joins.

When I see your smile
          Tears roll down my face I can't replace
          And now that I'm strong I have figured out
          How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
          And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I shiver when I hear the first stanza, remembering those times he used to look at me with frustration in his eyes. When he seamed defeated. When he looked at me with such longing but I wouldn't even dare to thought about that. I remember I just wanted him to never get hurt. But he was hurt pretty badly and I know how much it hurt him that no one else did something that night I finally ran way.

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
          I'll stand up with you forever
          I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
          Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I hold my breath during the chorus, pressing my lips together remembering that time when he first confessed to me. When he told me he loved me properly. When he said he would never treat me like my ex did. I didn't believe him back then, I didn't believe someone could love me like he said. I thought I didn't deserve that kind of love. It didn't seen possible. But he never gave up on me. He faced the monster I was with and I swear I though he was going to get killed. I was so scared I did everything to save him. But he was up to do anything to save me, even if that sent him right to the hospital… or worse.

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
          Seasons are changing
          And waves are crashing
          And stars are falling all for us
          Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
          I can show you I'll be the one

And now I know he means when I finally ran away from the monster, when I started to pick up the pieces of my soul. I remember how things started to change and how he was always by my side. How he went with me to press charges when the monster came back. When he helped me to find a place for my own. When he convinced me that I could do the things I didn't allow myself before, like getting a degree. He helped me to start to live again, always showing me he loved me like he once said he did. Showing me he was indeed the one. He is the one.

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
          I'll stand up with you forever
          I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
          Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I remember the nights when I wake up screaming because I see the monster coming for me, finding me again. When I can't stop crying because the nightmares still haunt me and he holds me in his arms until I can put myself together. He never leaves me alone, he's always by my side when I need him.

I remember those first nights when I couldn't even sleep and he would stay around all night, just to keep my mind away from the nightmares.  Or when he would sing me until I fell asleep.

I remember the last time the monster did come back —because he came back many times, he begged many times, he threatened me many times—, and he came back for blood this one. I remember how I shivered and wanted to hide, to crawl away from the monster but he stood with me, taking my hand and ready to fight the monster again. I remember how he helped me to face my living nightmare and held him back whilst I called the police. How he defended me and save me from being injured again until the police arrived and took the monster away. And after that how I took him to the hospital. I remember how scared I was of losing him. I realised that night that I loved him and that I didn't deserve such a wonderful man, but I was lucky enough to have him by my side. That was the night I kissed him for the first time, almost two years after I escaped from the monster. He waited for me that much, he never let me fall. Not wen once.

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart

 Please don't throw that away
          Cuz I'm here for you
          Please don't walk away and
          Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Tears fall down my cheeks by now as I remember when I told him that I loved him but he deserved more. Someone who was worthy of him. Someone whole, not someone who was still picking up the pieces of her life. I remember how he told me that I was all for him, his whole heart and I couldn't walk away from him. When he begged me to stay because he loved me. And I also remember how he’s made me believe I'm worth it, how he's made me learn to love myself again so I can accept his love and love him back. He's given me my life back, the life that once was taken away from me with fists and blood.

Use me as you will
          Pull my strings just for a thrill
          And I know I'll be okay
          Though my skies are turning gray

When I told him I was too broken for him he said I could use him as a crutch, or whatever. That he would help me to stand up and walk again. He told me he would be okay as long as I was with him because he believed he could make me happy and the only thing that he wanted for me was happiness. And he's made me happy. The happiest I've ever been.

I will never let you fall
          I'll stand up with you forever
          I'll be there for you through it all
          Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I know he'll never let me fall. I know he'll stay with me through everything and I know that he'll save me from anything, even if that monster manages to come back. He'll save me. Or even better, he’ll stand by my side and help me fight.

He finishes the song and keeps staring at me as I wipe away the tears and smile through the soft sobs.

"I still have to work on the melody a bit more but the lyrics will stay," he rambles and I can't stop smiling. "I still haven't thought if a title. Can you believe it? Three years and the song still does to have a--"

"Your Guardian Angel," I cut him off and he looks at me surprised.

I don't need to expand on that idea, in a few seconds he understands exactly what's going through my head and I know he accepts the title when he smiles at me.

"Your Guardian Angel is then," he agrees and puts the guitar aside then taking my hands he pulls me close.

I snuggle next to him, resting my head in the crock of his neck, and taking a deep breath. He is the one who's stood by my side all this time, the one who's helped me to pick the pieces and smile again. He is my guardian angel.

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Here's the one shot I talked you about. You can see how she fixed herself and picked up the pieces. She is okay. It took time, but she's okay. The scars are there, but she has found happiness. It's true that sometimes we're desperate to be loved, but it's not always a good kind of love. It's better wait for the right person than just let yourself be loved by someone who will hurt you along the way.

Thank you for reading this story, for voting and specially for commenting. I'm truly happy to see that this story actually made you think about things you didn't give a thought before. Thanks. 

Bel, xx

PS: The song is by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, same band that plays Face Down, and it's at the sidebar.