Carefully I open my eyes.

I need to blink a few times to get used to the amount of light.

A headache seems to torture my brains and all I can hear is my own heartbeat.

As I try to move I notice how my wrists and ankles are secured to the bed frame with clamps.
I'm laying on a bed like a starfish.. great.

My eyes scan the area looking for anything that I might recognise.

I don't.

'Took you long enough.'

I try to make out where the voice is coming from, but I can't.

'I'm here,' a head moves into my sight.. it's Grayson's, 'Are you alright?' 'I.. don't.. know.' My voice is hoarse, croaky, almost incomprehensible.

He moves closer to me and his hand moves closer to my face.

'D..don don't touch me.'

He sighs and moves away again.

'I'll just get Levi then,' he mumbles and walks away.

Just a few minutes later his perfectly green eyes meet mine.
My eyes start to take in every single detail on his face.

My eyes land on his lips.. he has a soft smile reassuring me I'm okay.

I feel his hand slightly stroking my wrist.

'May I?' I nod carefully.

He opens the clamp and moves to open the other three as well.

'You were rather agressieve.' 'Oh.'
'Can you scoot over?'

I don't answer and just move to the side to make room for him.

He sits down next to me, wraps an arm around my shoulders and pulls me against his body.

'I thought I was going to lose you,' he mumbles. 'What do you mean?'
'Oh right.. you slept thought all of it.'

He sighs, cups my head in his hands and places a kiss on my forehead.

He's weirdly affective.. I don't care, I like it. I wish he was always like this.

'You had a strong reaction to the serum I injected.. more than you should have. I don't know how it happened.. I swear. I just gave you a small amount.' I stop him from talking  by opening my mouth. 'I.. I took painkillers that day, is that it?'
'Could be.. I don't know,' he mumbles.

He tightens his grip around me.

'Once you fell asleep you didn't wake up until now. It has been like.. a week or something? I don't even know anymore. Anyway I was scared.. scared that I actually killed you.'
'You don't want to?'
'Of course I don't want to,' he replies.

His lips find mine.

'Of course I don't want you to die,' he murmurs against my lips, 'You're way too much fun for that.'

'Shouldn't you let him heal before doing this?'

Fuck.. Grayson is still here.

'I probably should, but.. I think he doesn't really mind.'

I don't.

'Gray would you mind leaving?'
'Yes, but if I say that you'll get mad so I'll just go,' he mutters.

'So,' he slightly caresses my shoulder, 'I'm happy you woke up.'
'What happened to treating everyone the same way?' I ask.
'Right you don't know. The S.S.S came to get their people.. like I expected.
So you're the only one now.'
'Why?'

He quiets down and his eyes scan the room to look at anything but me.

'They left you to die,' he whispers, 'they just left you on the floor.'
'Even Felix?' I respond suprised.
'I wasn't there Calum.. we already evacuated out of there. So when I came back the next day to check the damage I was surprised to see you.'
'They.. left me?'

Is it just a trick to turn me against them or did they really just leave me?

'I don't know if they thought you were dead or something, but you were breathing and you had a pulse so I don't know how they fucked that up.'
'How bad did this serum screw me?'
'You were moving, kicking and screaming like crazy or acted death.'
'Sounds fun,' I reply.

'I think you'll be fine though, I mean you're speaking and moving fine now. I'll release you once I'm sure you're okay even though you're much better off over here,' he states.
'I..' I can't seem to find the right words to say.
'It's fine Calum.. don't worry about it, I don't care what you do, think or where you want to go,' he whispers.

'Since when are you this.. sweet?'
He laughs. 'Because Calum.. I wasn't planning on you dying yet and I don't want you to be stressed or afraid while you're here.'

We just sit there for a while in complete silence enjoying eachothers company well.. I was, I can't speak for him. He's the most fucked up human being I have met this far. He's toying with my feelings.. I knew that.
His comments after I literally confessed them to him reminded me that that's all he's doing.
I didn't care.

I didn't care.

Of course I cared.

He made me fall in love with him..

He made me.

He made me fall in love with me and refused to love me back.

Of course he will never love me.
I mean look at me.

My deep black hair was always messy.

My sky blue eyes never seem to spark.

My lips had difficulty to curl up.

My dimples are uneven.

'Calum darling.. stop.' 'Hm?'
'Stop thinking about whatever you're thinking because it's making you depressed.'

I look at him taking in his beauty.

'You're bad for me,' I whisper.
'Am I?' He replies with an amused smile.. why is he enjoying this?
'It's unfair to be this handsome and this much of a dick at the same time.'
'Calum I think you hit your head.'