"Oh, we're on the right side of rock bottom

And I hope that we keep falling"

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Hailee Steinfeild and DNCE

rock bottom

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| Lilah |

The days just passed by quickly. I didn't even knew that i had spent my weekend with new people. You might think that I am lucky to have these people with me and I do appreciate their efforts to spend time with me. I am thankful to have them but I still felt lonely. I miss my dear ones and I still can't get over the grief. I really miss Bolin.  I won't spare the person who killed him. 

Kun was there with me to help me find the culprit. He is also good friend of mine now. He always checks on me and so does Dejun and Yangyang. With Yangyang, I tend to forget my sadness. I enjoy the study sessions with him. Sometimes, we would go to have breakfast and lunch. He's really a youthful and fragile guy. Fragile as in, when you look at him, you can never think of doing or thinking wrong such as does triggering topics. Looking at his behaviour, you would only think about happiness, freedom and innocence. You would totally forget about the side effects of life. 

With Dejun, he's one of those deep thinkers but he does not think negative. We have our own different conversations. It doesn't matter if it is random. At first, you might think of him to be a cheesy guy but he is just like me. He seems to have a love for stories and also seems to have one with him. You know the ones you call 'tea' (a/n: wtf am i typing pt.2 pls bare with me). I mean, he seems to have lots of secrets with him which I am curious to know about but I don't want him to tell it to me a the same time because its a secret and why would share it with someone who you don't know well. Even though, we met in a strange way but it doesn;t affect me since I enjoy talking to him.

With Kun, he's as I again said, caring and protective. I don't understand why does he have to look after me. But for all I know, if it weren't him then I wouldn't have a moral support. He also accompanied with me to Bolin's funeral and the most stangest thing is I was invited for the funeral by his friends. I never knew he had friends or allies. Kun thought it would be better if he looks after me because anything could have happened to me. But not only him but also a guy accompanied him. He was very tall maybe 180 cm. No, I am sure he's 180cm. He didn't talk much though. He avoided talking to me and Kun gave a reason "just because" and yes, I know its weird but then I am not a social butterfly. They both made sure to look after me.

The funeral was tiring and Kun noticed it. He tried to comfort me by saying," Its ok." Yes, cliche. Because nothing's ok. I am not getting my best friend back. But I just simply nodded. Afterall, I can't do anything, He's forever gone and will not come back. I slowly cried when they started burying him. Kun patted my back and the tall guy patted my head. I cried on Kun's shoulder wetting his blazer. I didn't care if I was getting stares or glares from others. I just cried and also thought of being lucky to feel safe around these two boys.

Right now, Kun is in my room doing some investigation at my place. The whole week investigation took place at Bolin's house, Now it was my turn. I just stared at Kun because I don't have any other work to do. I had a day off today. Like tell me, what else can I do in my small apartment room? I can only look at Kun doing his work proffesionally but his face distracted me. ' What the hell are you thinking Lilah?' If I say, I was getting bored. I don't have anything to do and watching is the most boring thing. Watching movies or dramas are  different thing but watching someone doing their work is different. Its boring and tiring.

Kun noticed the frown on my face and grinned,"Getting bored, huh?" I nod shyly. 'Gosh, I am such a burden.' " Just give me few minutes, my work is almost done," he said reassuring me. "No no , take your time," I said defending. Criss crossing my hands as if saying no. He just simply chuckled. 

"Come on, I am done with my work. We will go take a stroll outside," he said. "Ok, let me change then-" he cuts me off. "No need to change. You look beautiful like this," he said. I felt my cheeks heating up. He rubbed the back of his neck and smiled sheepishly. This boy! "I- um ok then. Come on l-lets stroll together," I said. And I thought I had stopped stuttering.

We both walked outside. There was a park nearby so we thought of strolling there. We talked about random things as what is our favourite food basically we discussed about our favourites. Then it hit me, these days I feel weird these days. Whenever, I am busy doing something, I feel as if someone stalks me. So I broke the silence and said,"Kun, these days, I feel like someone stalks me. You know Dejun and Yangyang right? Whenever, I am with them I feel really paranoid. I swear I am being serious right now. I really feel someone is lookig at me and marking each of my actions. Can you please come everyday to look? I hope its not too much." He looked at me and frowned but nodded as if understanding. He held my hand and said,"Yes, I will look after you. You remember the promise, right?" I nodded my head. "Yes, I will call you first, I can always count on you." Soon Kun's ears turned red and he looked somewhere else. 'Uh, did I say something wrong?,' i thought to myself. I furrowed my eyebrows and asked him," What happened?" He shook his head and smiled at me.

"Come on, lets get you back home,"he said. And so we went back home. We reached my apartment. He ruffled my hair and said,"Take care and don't stress. Eat healthy. Call me when you feel stressed." I nodded. He bid me goodbye and I did the same.

I stepped in apartment and changed myself into comfy outfit. I made myself ramen and started eating. I was watching some random dramas in netflix. As I stood up, I felt strange yet again. I shrugged that feeling off and washed the utensils. I slowly went stepped near my door and looked through the peephole. I saw a man standing outside with a sly smirk plastered on his face. I gasped and closed my mouth. I slowly stepped back and started panicking. Any wrong move, I might be caught hold off. Tears started rolling on to my cheeks. I took my phone and went inside my bathroom. I dialled Kun's number. He picked up my call in three rings," Hello Lilah?"

I started crying trying to control my stutters,"K-Kun t-there's a man outside, he's waiting outside my door. Shit, he's ringing the doorbell. Kun please save me. I don't want to die. I am scared-" he cut me off. "Where are you right now?" he asked.

"B-bathroom," I replied.

"Ok, keep quiet. Don't make any noise. Stay there. I am comin-"

"Oh my god! He b-broke in! He fuckin' broke in! Help please!" I begged for my life.

"I am on my way just keep quiet. Don't utter a word. He shouldn't know where you are,"he said and then he cut off. I put my hand on my mouth to cover it. Soon I heard a window crash. I am terrified. Please someone save me!

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