This can't be happening, not with me. This can't be happening with me.

Rashid got married, Bro is getting married, Lia is getting married. Lia is getting married. Why is everyone getting married, leaving me alone. Being alone and lonely is not something I like. I don't like it.

"I don't like it" I yell out loud.

"What you don't like?" My partner in 'getting drunk' asked. You know who he is. Bruce.

Hah! I feel like laughing at him, and at myself. Earlier we used to barge in Viktor's home as if we owed it, but now we avoid it as much as possible. Poor us, we always used to refuge at Bro's place but now as Jia is there most of the time we knock, wait for the damn door to be opened and restrict ourselves just to living room not wanting to witness...you know what.

Sitting right at my home getting drunk with Bruce, I still get the feeling of being homeless. I better get used to this. Me and Bruce, the ultimate loners of the family.

"Our best friends are getting married, man, what are we gonna do now?" I probed him.

He shrugged, making one more drink for himself.

"Are you planning on getting married too?" I demanded further, and he raised his eyes at me.

"Do you like anyone, Bruce? Have you ever loved anyone." He scoffed and looked away.

"I will take that as No." I huffed.

Lia is getting married. Why is it hurting me so much. I remembered what happened a few days back.

Flashback

It was Sunday, and I was at the club doing what, off course drinking, because random girls don't interest me anymore. I feel disgusted at myself for being such an idiot who...

"Richard? Hey man, how are you?" I heard someone call me amidst the loud music blaring from the speakers. I looked up, squinting my eyes up to see the only person I hate the most in the whole world. Liam the lamb. What the fcuk. He is the last person I want to encounter right now. He was standing there with two drinks in his hand and smiling ear to ear. Is he so happy to see me, or there is some other reason?

"Liam" I addressed him, resting my glass on the bar counter.

"Why don't you join us. Even Lia is there, we are celebrating." He said. Now what are they celebrating? Hope it's their breakup.

"What is the celebration for?" I inquired.

"Why don't you come and ask Lia." Hah! As if she will tell me, but I need to know.

"Sure" I got up from my seat, and we made way through dancing and jerking sweaty bodies.

"What took you so lo... "Richard? Lia scoffed at Liam, but stopped as she saw me behind him.

"Hey Lia" I greeted her

"I asked him to join us. He is your childhood friend, he should celebrate with, us isn't, it baby." This guy's happiness is irritating me.

"Ya..." Lia shook her head at me without Liam knowing. She doesn't want me to be with them, and it hurts me a lot.

"Let me introduce that's Saba Lia's colleague and best friend and Alex her husband" I nodded at their friends who clearly showed their displeasure, obviously they know about me.

"Umm. What are we celebrating?" I inquired, ignoring all the negative vibes they were throwing.

"Why don't you tell him baby" Liam pulled Lia by the waist closer to him. I fisted my hands.

"Ya... We...I and Liam, that is ... We have finalized our wedding date." She imparted not looking in eye with me.

"Ohh..." I gulped, my heart seized with ache.

"20th of December. A winter wedding on the beach." Liam jested.

"Umm, that's... that's great... congratulations..." My heart screamed.

"Thanks buddy. So drinks are on us. What would you like to have?"

"Thanks, but I need to be somewhere. Bye... enjoy." I dashed out of there before my eyes started watering.

Next day I went to Viktor's office to ask whether he knew about Lia's wedding dates, but there I got another shock.

Viktor told me that he proposed Jia, and they are getting married soon.

End of Flashback.

So, here I was after a week of drowsing myself in sadness, self-pity, self loathing, regret and loneliness. Loneliness is my most dreaded emotion which I never wanted to feel ever in my life and for that, I had killed the sprouting feeling for Lia in my heart, had ignored the loving gestures of Lia because if we had been in a relationship, and it would have not worked everyone would have distanced themselves from me leaving me alone.

Just like I am right now, alone and lonely.

Why? Why I have to be through this?

"WHY?" I yelled again flinching Bruce from his slumber, he grunted and went to sleep again on the couch.

A strong urge to pee forced me stand up balancing myself, which was difficult with all the alcohol in my system. After reliving myself, I had one place in mind to find solace.

"What the fcuk Richard? Why are you here so late in the night? Erna sulked at me as I made my way to her bedroom. Luckily she was alone, reading some book.

"She is getting married?" I said, throwing myself face down on the bed next to her.

"Not again, why am I getting the feeling of Déjà vu." She rolled her eyes.

"She is getting married in December." I elaborated further.

"Great, be happy, help her out. Planning a wedding is a huge responsibility." She went back to reading. I glared at her. What kind of best friend is she.

"What? What you want me to tell you. Go tell her that you love her, have always loved her, even before she started having feelings for you? You are not gonna do that, so better help her prepare for the big day." She mocked.

"I love her...I LOVE HER...I ruined everything now she is getting married to someone else. What do I do?" I was crying mess by the time I accepted it loud and clear. Yes I love her. The feeling of loosing her is killing me.

"Stop being a cry baby, get your ass up, be a man. She is getting married and is not married yet." She hit me on the head with her book.

"December did you say right?" She asked as if thinking some plan.

"We are in July, so you have 5 months. 5 months to make her believe that you love her." I looked at her with disbelief.

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