Erna has gone mad. She has lost it completely.

'Make Lia believe that I love her?' She will kill me. Eat me up alive. Cut me up into small pieces and won't even think before flushing them down the drain.

I love her and now that I realize it, I have loved her from the time she sat beside me on that small wall and gave me a name. I fell in love with that tiny girl with curly hair covering most of her face. Fell in love with her when she stood with me against all the bullies. Fell in love with her when she saved her share of food for me. Fell in love with her when she cried on my chest after getting hurt. Her smile brightened my day even then. Her tears ached my heart even then.

All her gestures showed how much she loved me, cared for me. I was her strength and trust. Her eyes always searched for me in a room full of people. Why was I so dumb to realize it? To accept it.  I just thought I had those lustful feelings for her  due to puberty and hormonal changes, and distanced myself from her before it could destroy our friendship and family. I betrayed her, though we were never in a relationship officially, but we had a connection and I broke it with my foolishness.

I was so stupid and young to understand what she tried to say with her eyes, her care, her concern. How she must have felt when I openly dated and flirted with other girls. It must have killed her, just like it's killing me to see her in Liam's arms.

No wonder she hates me now, and if I go and proclaim my love to her, she will hate me more. Will never forgive me and will never see my face for the whole of her life. Am I ready to take such risk?

"What are you thinking so hard? Don't give your little brain so much of trouble. Entspannen" she placed hot black coffee in front of me. I had stayed the night at her place. She shooed my drunk self off the bed to take the floor as my sleeping area. Now sitting in her small kitchen's dinning chair I was having my life's most unnoticed realizations.

(Entspannen - Relax)

"She will hate me for life, if I tried to...' I tried to get my point across, but Erna cut me off with her sass.

"SO?" She challenged.

"You are not gett..." I sighed, shaking my head.

"You just have two options. One, let things be as they are, let her get married to Larry, you can look at her from a distance and be content that she is happy in her life. Second, try as hard as possible to win your love not bothering about the consequences. Take your pick."

"Liam" I corrected her, taking the sip of bitter fluid that burned my throat. I was never a fan of black coffee.

"What?"

"His name is Liam not Larry..."

"Whatever his name is...umm...Is he handsome? This Liam guy?" She furrowed her brows while drinking her coffee.

"Umm...ya...yah...he is not...that bad." Of course that lamb is handsome. I gritted my teeth.

"So he is handsome,, huh?" She smirked.

"Whatever." I groaned.

"How about I go and seduce him, trap him and  get Giulia there to see that his fiancé is not faithful to her..."

"NOOOO... Never. I don't to build something on the marshy land." I snapped. I would never hurt Lia.

"I tried to help." She shrugged.

"She doesn't even want me anywhere near her. That day when we met at club, she clearly refused me to join them." I choked remembering how she had refused my presence in her happiness.

"That is because she is scared." She remarked.

"Scared and Lia?" I snorted. Lia is the last person to be scared by me.

"Yes she is. she still has feelings for you and has pushed them to the furthest most corner of her heart, and she is scared that if she faces you again and again those feelings will come up, and then she won't be able to control herself." She concluded as if it was the truth. I rubbed my face and tied my hair in small bun.

"What a wild theory!" I raised my brows at her, clapping my hands.

"It's the fact" she got up from the chair and took our cups to the sink.

"You don't know Lia" I got up to leave

"I know how girl's heart work." She turned, resting her hand on the counter.

"I will take it from here, thanks for your support." I declared.

"Jederzeit" she said with a small smile. I nodded at her and left.

(Jederzeit  - Anytime)

What I want and do from here on will solely be my decision because I won't have anyone to blame, and It will be me who would face its consequences and I have made up my mind, for once I will do as my heart tells me. I will fight for my love as hard as possible, but it will be a fair game. I won't degrade Liam to show my worth, And if...if I failed, then I will leave them forever and will never show my face again. I made a decision while driving to my home.

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