Emma's POV

When we arrived home I went straight to my bedroom. I didn't care what hope speech Killian had for me, I was fed up and tired. Nothing has ever went right for me and I've never got a chance to live normally.

I felt awful ignoring the kids when I walked in but I just needed my space. The minute I flipped onto the bed I heard little footsteps coming up the stairs. I wiped my eyes dry as I didn't want whoever was about to walk in to see me crying. As the door opened slightly I saw little hands on the door.

"Mummy?"

I recognised the sweet little voice as Sophie came toddling into the room. A smile crept upon my face as she ran towards the bed and tried to jump up. I gave her a little help and she sat on my knee.

"Hello sweetheart. What's wrong?"

"I- want to sees you."

"That's sweet of you Soph. Mummy just isn't feeling to good."

"Baby."

She leaned on my little bump and then gave it a kiss. It warmed my heart as she was already beginning to understand when people were upset and that she was going to have a younger sibling.

"Mummy why you not with daddy?"

"I just need some time alone honey. But i don't mind spending time with you."

I cuddled up with Sophie for a few hours before it was time for her to have a nap. She fell asleep in my arms as I walk her into her room. When we moved into this house we transitioned Sophie into a toddler bed, for the first few nights we couldn't  get her to sleep but now she absolutely loves her new 'big girl' bed. So I very carefully placed her into her bed and closed the door over.

"Is she asleep?"

I almost jumped out of my skin when I heard Killian behind me.

"You scared the crap out of me."

"Sorry love, I just wanted to see how you were feeling."

"I'm fine, thank you for sending Sophie up."

"I didn't she went up by herself. Little spitfire wanted to see her mum."

"She's cute."

"Emma, I know you don't want to talk about the situation. But at least come sit downstairs and talk about something more interesting."

"And what's that?"

"Oh I don't know, our wedding?"

"I'd like that."

.......

"Can we at least wait until two months after the baby is born? I want to be able to drink this time."

"Of course. I hope you don't mean alcohol Ms."

"Don't play dumb. I don't get drunk anyways."

"Pfft."

"Hey!"

"What I never said you did!"

"Don't laugh then."

We were cuddled up on the sofa, the fire was on and the kids were all in bed asleep for the night. We hadn't got a chance to talk because when we did plan to talk about wedding plans, the boys announced they were hungry and then Sophie woke up from her nap. We were both beginning to realise it was going to be difficult with a newborn soon and we will definitely be kept on our toes.

"Big wedding or small?"

"I don't know, maybe just family and close friends? It was crazy the first time."

"How about we don't compare this wedding to the last one? When planning we should just forget the other wedding happened?"

"Killian! I loved our first wedding!"

"As did I but this time around it will be even more special."

"Okay, if you say so..."

We both laughed because the amount of time, energy and more importantly money we spent on the last wedding was just crazy. There was no way I was going to spend the same amount again.

"Maybe this time not so extravagant, or expensive."

"Sounds good. Simple sounds good."

Things were coming along, we both laughed most of the time but we were enjoying our time together and it felt normal. But of course the mood is always ruined and this time it's stomach pains being the reason. I couldn't get comfortable and Killian could see that.

"You alright love?"

"Just some pain going on. It's okay though I'm fine."

"I'll go get your medication."

I'd completely forgotten the pain medication the centre prescribed. I didn't want to start them until tomorrow but right now I could tell the difference between the baby and the cyst.

Killian came back from the kitchen and sat down beside me. He handed me a glass of water and two tablets and I downed them. I thanked him and then sat on his lap and leaned my head on his shoulder.

"Killian, I'm sick of everything always going wrong for me."

"Oh, uh."

"I know we weren't going to talk about it, but it's always in my mind and I need to get it off my chest."

"Well, continue."

"Just when we seem to be getting somewhere, when something good happens, when I feel great. Something bad always happens and it's happened so many times that I'm getting fed up! Why does it always happen to me?"

"Maybe because your always thinking negatively? How about instead of waiting and expecting something bad to happen, you don't think about it at all and continue with the happy stuff? It would be a start?"

"It would be, maybe just start over and be a normal family again would help too."

"Whatever makes you feel normal again."

"I'm just glad your back. I don't know how much longer I could've went without you around."

"Come here you."

He cuddled me even closer and I smiled as I fell into the mood we had created. It was sweet that Killian was up for turning things back to normal, showing me that he really did care. That's all I needed.

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~ The next morning ~

"Good morning. How'd you sleep?"

"I slept great."

"I made you breakfast."

Killian had came down the stairs with a smile on his face that hinted he was excited. He kissed Sophie's forehead as she sat in her high hair eating her breakfast.

"What's gotten you so happy?"

"Nothing, just got a good nights sleep."

He kissed my cheek and then opened the fridge to take out the milk to make coffee.

As we both sat down to eat, the boys came down and grabbed their breakfast.

"I'd love to stay but I've got to head off."

"Where are you going?"

"I've got places to be."

"Killian Jones what are you up to?"

"Nothing! I'll be home shortly I promise."

We both laughed and I hugged him goodbye before he lifted his jacket and left.

"Where did Killian go?"

"I have no idea. But it's okay, he'll be back soon."

Of course Henry and Liam were concerned. You would be after everything that's happened. But like I said yesterday I wasn't going to think negatively, positive thoughts only.

But after two hours Killian still wasn't home and all those negative thoughts came creeping out. I tried to distract myself by playing with Sophie in the living room as she showed me all the toys she could find in her toy box.

I jumped as I finally heard the door open and Killian came in with a huge wrapped box.

"Where have you been?!"

"Shout at me later. I have a gift for you."

"What's the occasion?"

"The occasion is my love for you."

I smiled as Killian placed the box on the floor in front of me and Sophie and sat beside us.

"Go on! Open it."

I looked at Killian as he was bursting with excitement, Sophie clapped her hands as she began to get excited almost as much as her father.

"I live with a bunch of maniacs."

"Just open the box!"

I shook my head and finally grabbed the lid of the box and opened it. All of a sudden a brown and white Shih-Tzu puppy jumped out of the box and started chasing it's tail.

"Wha-what on earth?"

"Surprise!"

Sophie was clearly confused as she saw this new arrival into the home. But soon she saw how cute the new puppy was and began to chase it around the living room.

"Killian! A puppy. Really?"

"I couldn't resist! Regina's dogs had a litter of puppies and she couldn't keep them all so I just had to have one for us, for the family."

"It's so cute! I can already tell Sophie will love her! But what about Scarlet and Ella? Won't they become jealous or something like that?"

"They're getting too old to be jealous. They'll love having a puppy around don't worry love."

"What's it's name? I mean i should really be asking if it's a boy or girl."

"It's a girl, and Regina said her name was Leia."

"That's adorable. She looks like a Leia."

I stood up off the ground and hugged Killian for his thoughtful gift.

"Thank you."

"Your welcome love."

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I hope you all had an amazing Christmas! Sorry I didn't update before hand I was just incredibly busy. This is the last update before the new year so I hope to see you all in 2017 and have a lovely new year!

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