Emma's POV
~ August 16th ~

"I'm sorry Mrs Jones. He's gone." The nurse stands infront of me breaking the news of my husbands death.

"No! You must be able to bring him back!" My voice cracks and my heart did the exact same. Tears run off my face and onto my lap.

"There's nothing we can do I'm sorry."

It happened all over agin. I lost two of my loves and my children was left fatherless. His brother, Brotherless. That's what was tearing me down the most. How I was going to break it to the kids.

I walked into his room and a nurse was turning off his monitor. His skin pale and his lips turning blue. I touched his face and caressed his cheek.

"I love you."

Beep Beep Beep Beep

I woke to the sound of Killian's monitor. Beating and beeping at a normal rate. I thought about the dream I had just finished and tried to shake it out of my system.

Killian was fine, his heart still beating, his lungs still pumping. Apart from a bruised face and loads of tubes, he looked like he always did. Handsome.

It's been a week since he was admitted and today was quite an important day. It was our first wedding anniversary. This time last year I was pregnant and a newly wed. God the time had flown by.

Killian still hasn't woken up, but the nurses have hope that he will soon. I wish they could lend me some of their hope too. I just wasn't feeling to hopeful recently.

Liam and Henry came back from camp two days after the shooting. They aren't allowed to come into Killian's room as they are underage. But they do come up to the hospital to keep me company. Lily does the same, she brings Sophie up so I can see her. I haven't been home since before the trip to Belfast. Lily was bringing all my essentials whilst I stayed at the hospital.

Except for today.

Today I'm bringing Henry and Liam to their first day of school. I promised them, even though I didn't want to leave, I couldn't keep letting the boys down.

I left the hospital at 5am and got a taxi home. Liz had been staying with the boys at our house so they weren't alone.

When I arrived the boys were already awake and getting ready. I decided to shower and get myself ready too. It felt amazing to be back at the house, but at the same time it felt empty without Killian.

I got a long shower, since we didn't have to leave the house until 7:30am. It relaxed me knowing I'm home. I dried my hair and changed into one of Killian's flannels and wore black jeans with boots. Killian always made me wear his flannels because he said I looked adorable in them. I wish he could tell me that right now. It would be a good confidence booster.

I ran downstairs and made some breakfast for us but when I sat down to eat it, I felt sick to my stomach. I hadn't been eating as much as I really should be this past week so I took a few bites and then cleaned up. Henry and Liam didn't notice which helped because I didn't need them telling me that I needed to eat when I am a grown adult.

Finally we left the house and took the short drive to the boys school. I pulled up at the entrance and kissed them goodbye. They waved at me as they entered the doors of the school then disappeared inside.

After leaving the boys at school I arranged with Lily for me to pick up Sophie and spend some time with her since it had been a while. It felt weird having to organise time to spend with my own daughter, but it's the way things had to be at the moment. She will be one in a few months and it honestly broke my heart thinking that Killian might not even be able to see her first steps or hear her first words. Lily had told me she started trying to crawl and it annoyed me so much that I missed it. But today, I was going to spend as much time as possible with her before going back to the hospital tonight. Maybe teach her some things that a normal mother would do.

After collecting her from Lily I drove to the park where I took out her stroller and began to walk around for a while. Then I sat down on a bench and unstrapped her and placed her on my knee. Her eyes beemed up at me and she smiled her usually cute gummy smile. She was absolutely adorable.

After an hour or so I headed back to the car and then to the house where I sat in Sophie's nursery and played with her for a while. She was babbling, trying to use that mouth of hers and shoving everything she found in her mouth. I knew it was a sign of teething, Henry did the exact same.

At around 5pm I got a phone call from David saying he wanted me at the hospital as soon as possible. Henry and Liam had already returned from school, so all I had to do was drive Sophie back to Lily's place. It was a lengthy drive but eventually I was heading towards the hospital again.

I parked up in my usual spot that I had sort of claimed in the past week. My car rarely moved to be honest.

Before I walked inside though, I decided to call into the flower shop across the road and pick a bouquet of flowers to brighten up Killian's room. He already had loads of cards and balloons, honestly it looked like a child was sick and not a 34 year old man.

I walked into his room and he was fine. Everything working the way it should. I still had no idea why David wanted to see me, considering that nothing was wrong with Killian. I rearranged some cards to make room for the new flowers I had brought and threw the old ones out.

"Happy anniversary Killy." I said and then kissed his forehead.

"Emma?" I turned my head to find David standing at the door. He looked refreshed compared to the last time I saw him, he must have finally gotten sleep. Wish I could say the same.

"David, what's up?" I questioned him. If he breaks bad news I'll not be to keen on it. "It's Jack, I got a phone call from the hospital he was being treated in. He-he died from his wounds early this morning, and Helen should be discharged tomorrow and will be at court in two days. Your presence is wanted there." David explained to me. "Your being genuine? Is Jack, really dead?" I wanted to double check incase he was playing around with me. But then again it's a serious matter and he is a sheriff. "100% Emma, his death was confirmed. Helen had to sign the death certificate." He nodded at me.

I felt overwhelmed. Finally, I wouldn't have to worry about him no more. He was gone, and soon to be buried 6ft underground. Never to be seen again. Of course there's Helen but hopefully her sentence is long enough to that she'll rot in that cell she's sent to.

"Have you heard anything from the nurses yet?" David asks seeing that the subject had been finished. "Well, they said they want to operate- again. Second time in a week. They aren't sure if they fixed the pressure on the pulmonary artery completely because they usually can't fix it all at one time. So that should be soon. And they also said he should wake up in the next week but, I don't see it." I said with a hit of fear in my voice. I knew not to get my hopes up, after all, I wasn't feeling up to it after last week. "Well don't overthink it, I'm sure he will be absolutely fine." David smiled at me, patted my shoulder then left to get back to work

"I'm not quite sure."

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Oh hey!

It's been a long wait, but it's finally here! I've been planning this book since like May so it's definitely been a project I've thought over and I know the plot for definite! Expect a range of chapter lengths because sometimes I get carried away or I have no inspiration whatsoever 😂

Disclaimer: this book will mostly be written in Emma's POV, I might have Killian's POV once or twice but I feel like it will be all Emma.

See you all next Tuesday 😘

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