A/N Sup... well if you wanna hear a excuse it was because well issues, being busy, and hell called school. Oh and WARNING if your sensitive to depression and self-harm don't read as I don't want it to affect you.

   Y/N's POV

   Me and Luhan been together for 3 years now! Todays our 3 year anniversary and everythings perfect. All I need is to do is suprise Lulu when he comes home. I can't wait!

   However he has been acting a bit strange for the past month... I wonder why?

   When I go to kiss him he just turns away and says he tired. He still loves me right?

   Before I used to have depression but he saved me. I would do anything to make him happy, he's practically the reason I'm alive and happy right now.

   But now... he's been coming home late, and before he even said that I'm annoying and she is better.

   Who's she? Its probably nothing, he's probably just tired.

   I went to the kitchen table where I had prepared all his favourite dishes.

   I looked at my phone and it was already 9:30 pm. He usually gets out off practice at 8, whats taking him so long?

  Slowly, I frowned and slightly layed my head down on the table...

   Luhan's POV

   I smiled at Minji and kissed her passionately. She was so beautiful and perfect.

   Uh. I have to go home now. To that person. All she's done is be nothing except be a stupid burden all the time.

   "bye jagi, I love you. See you tomorrow" I said as I drove back home.

Time skip brought by bubble tea~

   When I got home it was already 11:30 pm and I saw the kitchen lights still on. I frowned. Shouldn't she be sleeping like she always is?

   I walked in and saw a table full of food and Y/n laying down sleeping.

  "So freaking lazy" I mumbled.

   "Luhan?" Y/n said, waking up but still a bit sleepy.

  "What!" I said rudely to her as I watched her face turn into a expression of disbelief.

   "Y-you don't remember?" Y/n asked as she slowly got up.

  "Remember what?!" I shouted as I glared at her. Why is she always so stupid and useless unlike Minji.

  "I-ts our 3 year a-nniversary." Y/n stuttered out as I rolled my eyes. Pathetic.

   "So what! I don't care just get out my face!" I yelled as i didn't even bother to register her previous sentence.

   "O-ok..." Y/n mumbles as she heads to the bathroom. Gosh she's being so dramatic.

   I was tired of her and just went to bed.

   Why do I suddenly feel uneasy? It's nothing right?

   Meanwhile in the bathroom

    Y/N's POV

   I went in the bathroom and slowly closed the door.

   "Why?" I asked as I slowly looked at my reflection in the mirror.

   He forgot didn't he. Am I the only one putting effort?

   Don't i mean anything to him at all?

   I asked myself all these questions while I reached inside the box next to me, and pulled out my old friend.

   I slightly smiled and said. "Hey old friend mabye you can help me."

   I took the sharp blade and slide it across my wrist.

   I did it again. As I repeated the cycle I felt like I could finally be free now.

   Slowly, blood dripped down my wrist to my elbow and my shirt.

   My vision went blurry and I whispered, "l love you." And, "I hate you."

   Luhan's POV

   I felt uneasy for some reason and decided to go to the bathroom to check on Y/n.

   Mabye I was too harsh? I mean she did have depression before.

   What I saw in the bathroom shall scar me for the rest of my life.

   Right on the floor lay Y/n covered in a small pool of her own blood.

   I was absolutely horrified and heartbroken.

  "No. N-no this can't be happening. WAKE UP!!! Y/N WAKE UP PLEASE I BEG YOU!!!" I said as i screamed for her.

   It was only then when i realised to late that I really do love Y/n. The person who encouraged me. The person who gave me unconditional love. The person who showered me qith kisses and compliments. The person who was always by my side. The person who quietly cleaned and cooked for me without complaints. The person that I truly love....... the person, that i took granted for. The person, that is know gone.....

   Because of me, me and my selfishness.

   Gone.... forever.

   "Y/n, I love you I'm sorry. Come back I'll do anything." I pleaded.

   But it was no use. She was gone and I  caused it. I'll live knowing that i killed my first and only love.

    Then I remembered the kitchen and the scene i caused earlier.

   As I walked to the kitchen i saw a letter saying  Happy anniversary!!!

   Oh my gods. It was our anniversary!!! She cooked all my favourite things and waited for me, while I was out there with another woman!

   I didn't even notice it but I was crying.

   I fell on my knees and screamed.

   I'm sorry, I repeatedly said in my head. I truly am sorry.