𖠌(Idk poorly written). Let me know if you like it or not.

“I’m doing my best to stay positive
because that’s what gets me through the day”.

Every passing days keep getting worsed. It's good to say jisung is slowly losing his emotions every day. He can't look at himself that's broke him more. He don't want to question where his old self at.

The person who used to be his comfort person is now the reason why he always tremble in fear,he is the reason why he sometimes doesn’t want to wake up.

"For ryung i got this" that's what he keep telling himself like some mantra.

He doesn't really want to give up but right now he really feels like he needs help. He is lying here in the corner of their room. Broken pieces of vases everywhere. Tears rolling down his cheeks as he looked up at the ceiling. Busted lips and a bloodied forehead that had obviously been slammed into the wall multiple times by the person he loved most. The blood on his cheeks is mixing with the tears that were sliding down. He hopes his ribs are fine.  Which was hitted multiple times by his husband. But why?? All of this just because he refused to act the lovey dove in some party of minho's client? Who consider their family to be an ideal happy family.

Jisung winched at pain. He do not remember falling asleep. But he do remember that he need to hurry up and clean himself before ryung sees him like this.

Jisung gather all the strength that left in his body and stand up with the support of the nearby closest. That took alot time than he expected.

He took a quick shower and got ready. He texted seungmin that he won't go to studio today. For the obvious reasons of course. He know seungmin will be worried if he see jisung so It's better to not go today. And maybe being at home all day with his daughter maybe the bestest option. Cuddling up with ryung and just sleep. That's what heaven feels like.

Every time jisung try to avoid something that will come back hunting him. Problems never left him alone if not then why is felix and his boyfriend chan is sitting right infront of him? He wanted to avoid felix right?

The tension between two boy sitting infront of chan is high. Felix have been eyeing jisung's bruises ever seen he entered the house. Honestly they actually came here to see han and talk about the upcoming wedding but everything gonna go down hill. He cleared his throat to get attention of both boy as he said "ahem ryung let's go to your room, don't you want to show uncle your toys?" ryung look at jisung to know her father's answer just when jisung give her a resuring smile she excitedly stand up and hold chan's finger to left the room leaving the bestfriends.

Jisung can't take this anymore he need to talk,they need to talk.

"Look lix It's nothing, minho did nothing yesterday i was running with ryung and slipped" felix said nothing but he keep looking at jisung with a unreadability expression. "Also i kind of bumped my head" jisung added after not getting any reaction out off his bestfriend. Jisung was atleast expecting one or two words from felix but that didn't happened instead felix stand up and sit besides jisung.

Before jisung could say more to defeat minho felix hugged jisung tightly. He needed this. No wonder felix is his bestfriend. Felix knows jisung best. Jisung couldn’t hold back his tears. He let it go in felix's shoulder,soaking his bestfriend clothes with tears. Felix starts to rub jisung's back trying to calm the crying boy. Jisung eventually stopped crying when he got tired. He really is thankful to felix.

He never planned to broke down infront of his bestfriend. He tried to pull back but felix hugged him again. "I don't know why you're still wanting to be with him or why you're forgiving him but please do tell me whenever you have things in your mind. I was in fault i didn't tried to understand you and i am sorry for that i really am. I love so much sung" felix said with a shaky voice.

Those words broke jisung even more. They cried in each others arm. Sometimes you just need to let it go.

Jisung was the first one to break the hug and make some lame jokes to lighten up the mood. That's nothing new. They spend the time together talking, cooking, watching some movies. That's what he needed. A good time with his loved ones. He will ignore all the pain in his body to enjoy the moment.

Everything was good until minho showed up out of nowhere with a angry face. Then it hit him,jisung forgot to call minho's parents. Minho wanted jisung to call his parents to say that they can't met this weekend ofcourse it was minho who have "things" to do. Yeah again.

He fucked up. But minho didn’t said anything instead he left the living room. Jisung sighed in releif. Atleast minho didnt pulled off any shit infront of his friends.

Felix understood the tensions and decided It's time to take leave even though that's the least thing he wants to do. In such a short time Chan had made a good releationship with ryung. So ryung take promise from chan so that chan will visit them again. They even had a small private conversation. Felix hugged jisung one more maybe to let jisung know that he is always there for jisung,for ryung.

Finally ryung and jisung bid their goodbyes to the couple.

Ryung got tired and jisung had to get her freshed before she fell asleep. He know minho is mad but ryung will never go to sleep without jisung no matter what. Jisung also can't leave without witnessing his daughter sleeping peacefully. He will need to make sure ryung is sleeping. Yes she always come first.

The moment jisujg reached their room he was met with a calm minho sitting in the side of the bed, typing something in his phone. Jisung took a deep breathe. He hope minho is mad for some other  reasons but not for jisung forgot to call his parents, he hope this time luck is on his side,he hope nothing is getting worse. Is it ok to hope them? But It's jisung, nothing is good to him for long time,he had a good time all day and that means things are waiting for him. But he's not ready. Who he is kidding he was never ready for every face his minho showed him. "Thinking about what you told my mom was enough or not huh?" minho's words caught jisung off guard.

That's not what he was expecting at all.

Also what is minho talking about? "Mom?" jisung asked,confusion is visible all over jisung's face. "Yes mom,how much you told her?" minho pin jisung against the wall,while his other hand hold jisung'a jaw roughly. It sure will leave mark. "Only for you i had to listen my dad's lecture.You know sometimes you make me want to kill you,just told you to do one thing right and you failed miserably. Fucking pathetic." Minho yelled at jisung. Why you changed that's the only jisung could think as tears made their way down his cheeks " but i didn't tell-" jisung words got cut off by a ratherharsh voice. "Only is it wasn't for ryung and my parents i would have left you" oh jisung can't utter a word, he want to talk he also want to tell minho that minho is the only person who is at wrong here but he can't say it loud, he don't know what happened to his voice,he keep crying seilently. "Yes cry more that's the only thing you're good at after being a slut". "I-i'm not a s-slut" jisung managed to say between his whimpers. He can feel minhos hold getting more rough only if that possible.

"You're not a slut? Than why are you again trying to contact him?" minho said hitting the well with his fist. Jisung almost jump from the sudden action of the person infront of him. "Answer me you bitch. Am i not fucking you well?you want him?" jisung cried out when he felt something hot in his right cheek. Minho slapped him. "H-he i-is ngh m-my friend" jisung manage to say as minho tight his hold in jisung's neck.

He can't breathe. Jisung starts hitting minho's hand so that he will show some mercy towards jisung and let him breathe. But that doesn’t happen instead minho manhandle him and throw him to the bed as minho starts to get rid of his shirt. 

It didn’t took long for jisung to feel minho's bites all over his body. He hitched when minho kissed his already busted lips harshly.

Cold wind spined down his body when minho ripped apart his clothes. He feel like he's some toy for minho. Minho don't care if jisung get hurt and he will satisfied himself untill he's getting tired.

Jisung clenched the bedsheet underneath him tightly a weak step to stop his moans. He don't want to give in. He don't want to give in to whatever minho wants. That was indeed a weak step as he let out a loud scream or more like a moan when minho hit a particular place. "Look at you moaning so loudly,not even afraid that your daughter is in next moan" minho said while slowly taking out his members and almost insteadly slamming inside jisung's hole. Jisung cried out again his fist around their bedsheet is getting more tight, his toes curls in bed with pain as minho keep repeat his moves.

Jisung feels his stomach getting tight again It's his 2nd orgasm of the night. He feel exhausted but minho keep thrusting. Not long after he felt minho's spilling his cum inside jisung. Disgusting.  Minho ride his own orgasm and fall on top of jisung. "Don't you dare to contact him ever again or else you won't be able to meet felix from now on" minho said while getting off jisung and picking up his clothes to take shower leaving jisung just like that.

Jisung laid there looking to the white ceiling of their shared bedroom. He was full aware when minho got dressed and left the room without saying anything. Jisung doesn’t dare questioning him. He knew minho will probably spit some harsh words as answer and right now jisung can't take take it. He is already overwhelmed.

Jisung had managed to clean himself and get dressed properly. Now he's sitting on the floor of ryung's room beside her bed while fondly looking at his daughter. His world. The room well is painted in blue. Ryung love blue. They together painted it. It was originally was white and pink. When they got to know they will have a baby girl they were so happy. He was so happy. They would buy everything they see. Minho would browse through different websites looking to things that will be suitable for their daughter and when delivery man delivery them to their house jisung would call him and scold him a bit for buying so many useless things but minho would have always chuckle with a small sorry.

Jisung smile sadly remembering their old times. Those was just like dream. So good to be true.

He occasionally stand up and carefully lay down beside ryung. He carefully pull ryung in his chest praying that she won't wake up. Ryung move a little and burried her face in jisung's neck. You can say she knew her papa's scent. Jisung's body relaxed once he heard snoring sounds.

He feel like at home like this,with ryung in his arms. He can't make things right anymore but he can find a little piece of happiness when he is with ryung.

"Wish i could tell you everything. Wish i could hug you again. You seems so far yet so close. Was it my fault that you left?".

2042 words..that's alot of brain rot for now. I wish i could explain things more clearly with more specific words but i can't. If you see any mistakes please say it so i can edit it. Anygay how y'all are doing?? ~ star
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