Jisung wants to stick his head into sand, he wants to block every little thoughts of his mind, he wants to pretend that everything is just fine nothing is wrong,he didn’t meet anyone today, his husband is still as good as before and lastly his luck is definitely favouring him.

An exhausted jisung sit and wait for the last bus of the night even though he is not aware of the time. Mind hazy thinking about the unexpected encounter with someone he never expected to see ever again. Hwang Hyunjin. Though the said guy even didn’t flinch when they made eye contacts unlike him. That made jisung question if he even remember jisung. It's surely been many days since they have met but he can't forget jisung this fast right? Jisung's hand made it way to find the pendant he have around his neck. This have cost him alot from minho but he is proud that he still have it,he protected it. He should.

Whole day is full of surprise full of jisung's misery. Maybe that's why hyunjin was here infront of him with what jisung assumed a black marchendes. As if asking jisung to get in. Jisung don't understand he just stand there dumbfound. Chan have introduced Hyunjin as his business partner. What kind of business partner jisung do not know but it was something big that's what felix said while apologising. That's make him think why someone like Hyunjin have give up on his dance career.

"You already missed the last bus, you will need to wait till the morning for the next one" the familiar voice says before opening the door from the inside. Why is he being sweet?he can't possibly forgive jisung can he?forget about forgiving jisung was just questioning is Hyunjin even remember him. He must have took pity on jisung and offer for the ride. Oh how pathetic he must be looking right now.

Hyunjin must have picked up on jisung’s silent he cough slightly to get his attention. A "Oh" left jisung's mouth without thinking much he just utter "then I will just walk to home,thanks for telling me" jisung bowed and pick his beg up to leave not wanting to cause more problems when he feel like he is the problem. "Get in, it's not safe to walk around mid night" that familiar voice, everything is feeling like deja vu. Just like before Hyunjin wasn't asking he was ordering.

And that's how jisung find himself fiddling with the hem of his hoodie while sitting in Hyunjin's car. It was so silent that he can hear Hyunjin's breathing. It wasn't comfortable like those times, this was making him anxious, this was making him feel like he was losing his breathe.

A sudden stop of motion make him look up at the men besides him who was looking at him with so many things in his eyes. Jisung feel like a prey under those gaze. "You haven't put your adress" ofc he didn't, he have yet to embarrasse himself. "You can drop me off near the convince store that is left side of the road." jisung doesn’t wants to think the outcome of minho seeing him with hyunjin, he was already late.

It was silent. Until hyunjin just "Why?are you afraid you're husband will leave you if he see me with you?" jisung don’t know anything or how he feel about the words that left his potential ex-bestfriend's mouth, the only think he can confirm was that he was right.

Everyone was and still is right It's just him against everything, everyone. He just wants to give his daughter a family. A real one.

The only thing that felt right was getting off the car,mumbling a thank you and leave and not to give a ear to all those calling. He was done ruining people’s lives.

The walk was longer than usual that it made him think he took wrong way,maybe it was because of how tired he was or else the private residential area was too familiar to him. Looking around the all houses just make him sad, stupid people thinking they can live alone happily with all those money. Stupid.

He stand outside the big house sucking in another fresh air before stepping inside with the spare key he have. He know for a fact that minho will wait for him and that's really not a good think. He need to prepare himself both physically and mentally for the upcoming results.

Stepping inside he saw minho standing in kitched island with a glass of water in his hand. This was quick. Minho's gaze was empty yet so scary. It sends shiver down his spine. "You shouldn’t have returned today" he drink the water and put down the glass in It's place. The more step he take forward the more jisung feels like he will faint.

"Comeback tomorrow babe" minho sing it and peck jisung's lips.Disgusting.  Who he was kidding ofcourse lee minho is cruel. "And you lost the privilege of using the spare key" he said sternly and pulled off the key from where it was hanging on jisung's bag with a pretty mushroom keychain they buyed from a fair when they visited minho's grandmother.

The sudden push almost had jisung falling down but luckily he gripped the wall before that and while giving no time to process the door was slammed close. Great.

The coldness was starting to get him. He can't go to anyone or even if he can he don't wanna go to anyone and he was sure if minho don't see him by the door tomorrow morning there will be more but it was freezing cold outside and jisung have runy nose he can't tolerate cold. Minho should have known this better. He remember them going out to witness the first snow while holding minho's abnormal warm hands, because they says if you witness the first snowfall with the your lover, true love will blossom between both and it will be long-lasting. It's hurts

Update and thanks to yoonjiiiwhyy for that. I know It's not the best but i promise it will be better in future😭-star

One word about the update for my insecure mind.