***I haven't had any motivation to write at all. I feel so bad. Im so sorry guys. I hope you all will forgive me...I apologize in advance for the shorter chapter. I really wanted to make it longer for you guys, but like I said, I've had NO motivation to write...

And I just wanted to clear up what's going on with Brent and Ryan. People have been getting confused. It's only the beginning of the story and the circus hadn't come into play just yet. {Where Brendon finally make his appearance} And you'll see later on in the story as to why Brent is so close to Ryan. I have plans. :)***

Over the past few weeks, Brent and I have been getting closer to each other. I felt closer to him than anyone else who was in my life since the passing of my mother. It was a bit strange how open I was to him, but it felt right. I enjoyed being around him. I was finally able to feel comfortable around someone again.

"Ry, I think that we should do something today." Brent interrupted my thoughts. I glance over at him from my bed to see his glowing eyes looking my way.

"Like what?" I couldn't help but smile.

"I don't know. Maybe go for another walk or something?" His deep voice filled the silence in the room.

"But I'm lazy today." I make a pouty face and cross my arms like a child. This caused Brent to chuckle to himself.

"Well, I guess you don't want the surprise that I had planned." His eyes shifted to the ceiling as his remark stung at my brain.

"But I hate surprises..." My heart began to beat a little faster. What kind of surprise was he talking about here?

"I think you'd love this one though." He looked at me again once more before motioning for me to get closer to him. "Come here. I'll show you." He then leaned over his bed and grabbed a random laptop out from under his bed. To be quite honest, I didn't think he even owned a  laptop. But I oblige and jump on his bed, and sat next to him.

As soon as Brent opened the laptop, he started typing away. I couldn't quite register what he was searching up. Was it a movie that he was planning on watching? There was this awesome looking horror movie in the theaters. Whenever we had free time when I was younger, I would go into the main room and watch tv with all of the other kids. They would always be terrified of the 'scary' commercials for the new horror movies being released. But I always laughed and told everyone I had wanted to go and see it. Though I never did. I never really...stayed calm in crowds of people.

"They're going to be in the city for awhile!" Brent's voice rang through my ears. I was confused. Who was going to be in the city? Brent saw my confusion and made me look at his computer screen. It was a short article that he found.

People of the modern land around us! After a decade of hiatus, we've finally come back to give you people some more excitement in your lives! So pour the champaigne and celebrate! The one, the only, the amazing Sin Circus!

I look up at Brent smiling ear to ear. He just laughed at me. My jaw dropped. I couldn't believe this. Sin Circus. This was the circus my mother used to take me too all the time. It's the one I've had dreams about for years. And now my childhood has come back. Whether for the good or to come back and haunt me, I didn't know.

"So," Brent speaks up. "What do you think?"

"I...It's amazing. How did you know it was this particular one?" My heart raced.

"Cause you talk in your sleep. You've confessed many things to me whilst you sleep. Its quite interesting." Brent laughs as my cheeks go pink. "Nothing too ebaressing. You tend to repeat yourself every night though." I just look up at Brent not knowing what to say. I honestly didn't think that it happened so often. I feel bad for bothering him with my...sleeptalking? Is that an actual thing?

I look back at his laptop to read more about them coming back. I still couldn't believe that Brent had gone out of his way to find this for me.
'Though we had gone away due to several complaints about small things throughout the circus, we have fixed these problems and are better than ever! We hope that you take our invite into consideration and join us on the fabulous journey through Las Vegas Nevada!'

"Their first show is tonight.." Brent's voice caught my attention immediately.

"T-Tonight..?" I couldn't believe it. I may just be able to go back to the place I felt most at home.

"Yeah, I was thinking maybe we could sneak out later to go. I know how much this means to you." Brent smiles at me. And I couldn't help but to smile back.

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"What if Julie catches us?" I peeked my head out of the room to see the hallway empty. My heart started racing. I couldn't believe that we were actually going to do this.

"She hasn't bothered you since you freaked on her, and you're still worried about her catching us?" Brent laughed. "Come on, dude. It'll be awesome." Brent pushed past me and exited the room. I guess he was right. I don't know why I'm thinking about it so much.

We walk through the halls quickly and quietly. Occasionally we got a few glares from the other children, but I gave them all a slight smile. Nothing could ruin my mood at this point. My childhood was finally coming back to me. And I wish that it's going to be just as much fun as I remember. I mean, it will be, right?

As we near the entrance to the home, Julie appears right in front of us. "Where do you boys think your going?" She said sternly. Her arms were crossed over her chest in annoyance. I just roll my eyes and push past her.

"Somewhere you don't need to know, alright?" I turn around and throw my hands in the air. "I am seventeen. I do believe I can walk places with my friend without needing adult supervision. But that's just my own opinion, though." I can see Brent trying his hardest not to laugh. When I look back to Julie, she still has the same smug look upon her face. "Not sorry." I shrug and turn on my heel, walking outside.

About a minute passes and Brent appeared by my side once again. "Dude that was perfect!" He chuckled. "You should have seen her reaction as you were walking away. She just stomped her foot like a five year old and stormed off. I do admit that I laughed at this...And oh my god, if looks could kill." He chuckled once again.

"Glad it was amusing for you to watch." I smiled and rolled my eyes at him.

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We had finally arrived at the site where the carnival was taking place. It was delightful to be able to smell all of the delicious treats, and to see all the smiles on everyones faces. I finally felt at home once again. For over a decade, I've felt lost. But now...Now there was a warm feeling deep inside myself that sparked.

"Shut your mouth, unless you're wanting to catch flies." Brent laughed and I snapped back into reality.

"S-Sorry." I continued to look around. I was amazed.

"Come on!" Brent grabbed my arm. "The act is going to start soon. We need to get some good seats!" And just then, Brent started pulling me towards the giant red and white striped tent...

***Again, I wanted to apologize for not updating earlier. I feel so bad... And FYI Brendon will be in the next chapter!***