Hate to be that author, but since I'm gradually giving up on this book, I thought I should make this chapter.

A quick intro to my mental health, first. I associate this book with a lot of bad things I've been through and, since I've managed to mostly get over them, it hurts me to even look at the story. As the author, I know things that are yet to be revealed in the newer chapters. And those things, as you may assume, are horrible. I find it repeatedly harder not only to write them down but to even think about them. Not to mention that I know what's going on in Dostoyevsky's head, and... what will be going on in his head. This is probably the only thing that keeps me going. His very own arc, and it should start after a couple of chapters.

The plot points I have in store are toned down, but still painful. I don't know if I want to write them, which is why I keep changing them. Yet there is one clear direction I know I must take - and that one aches. It reminds me of (and is even inspired by) a past problem that had been eating me out and caused me to act like I wasn't myself (anger issues? I was shaking and practically foaming, I couldn't speak for a while; I got scared of myself). That problem, however, is now mostly okay. But that's what I was trying to explain: this book is far more personal than it meets the eye, and now I'm paying the price for it.

Either way, no, this book isn't discontinued. I'm just waiting to feel a little bit worse, thus more compelled to write this monstrosity. That's how things are. But don't come at me with support, advice, anything. I'm a practical person who would only feel relieved once the problem is gone (like, for example, now). That, along the fact that I have no intention of wasting your time and energy. It will make me feel worse, if anything.

So this is what I offer to you, while both you and the author wait for the new chapters to get written: ask me anything. This story is a mess, and frankly, me too lmao. So feel free to ask anything! This is a Q&A! I believe this book desperately needs one.