Now I hard time began for me, because Michael's call became more rare the more time went by. And when he was on the phone with me, he seemed different. I didn't know what had happened but from one call to the other he wasn't the same man anymore. Suddenly, he seemed distanced and only shortly spoke to me about where he was. It was rare that I could make him laugh.

Was is because he had to concentrate on tour? Was is because he was tired? But he didn't sound tired, or stressed. He sounded sad. And I also was sad. I needed him around, Neverland without him felt so empty. I couldn't endure the silence over the phone anymore, so I asked him.

"Michael, why are you so different since you've been on tour? Why are you so silent and distanced?"

"What do you mean Susan?" He asked a little sceptic.

"I don't know, I just feel like you're acting different lately. Like, there is something that depresses you." I tried to explain.

"Susan... I shouldn't speak about this, look, when I'm on tour I sometimes need to use certain drugs to fall asleep. I often can't sleep after a concert, but I have to, because it goes on the next day. And now there's also the thing with you and the..." He stopped and sighed.

" Me and what?" I didn't understand. "Michael, tell me!"

He didn't answer for a moment and I heard that someone was whispering next to him.

"Michael? Are you with someone?" I asked and listened more closely. There was clearly someone whispering to him, a woman's voice.

"No, look, I miss you Susan" Michael suddenly said. "That's everything. But I have to finish now, uh, rehearsals, you know."

"You do rehearsals while you're on tour?" I wondered, slightly doubting what he was saying.

"Uhm...yeah we do, I gotta go Susan, bye" Before he hung up the phone I heard him whisper to the woman again. "I love you" He added and then hung up. What was goin on there?!

Meanwhile in Italy, Rome

"Siedah, I don't know about this...she sounded really nice. She cares for me, don't you hear that?" Michael silently said and slumped back on the couch. He felt guilty for being so hard on Susan.

"Michael, ever heard of people being fake? Ever heard of people who just use others? I mean...you could clearly tell how much she had to act for her voice to sound so genuine. I clearly heard that." Siedah raised her eyebrows and patted Michael's thigh.

"What did you tell me about her, she was a fan, right?"

"Yes she was a fan and...she told me that she loved me from the first moment she heard about me. She said she had always loved me." Michael sighed. He knew what Siedah was trying to tell him, but he didn't want to believe it, even though he felt like Siedah could be right.

"She loved you from the first moment she heard about you... Michael, you know that can't be true. She couldn't love you before she even really knew you. I have to tell you...that's another argument that proves what I'm trying to show you here." She put her hand on his back.

"What does it prove Siedah?" Michael said a little aggravated and put his head in his hands.

"It proves that she is using you and lying to you. She is using you for money. Money, lots of money, that's what those type of girls are after. What a better way to get some of that than by being Michael Jackson's girlfriend!"

"We are engaged" Michael added and his eyes filled with tears. He quickly wiped them away with the sleeve of his shirt.

"Oh you're engaged. You don't plan on getting married any time soon, now are you?" Siedah said with a hint of anger in her voice.

"Well... I was planning on surprising her when I got home from tour." Michael said and his voice cracked. All the memories came up that he had made with Susan, especially that night they got engaged and had stared up at the starred sky. And now Siedah told him that everything was faked. For money.

"Well...where was I? She is now engaged to Michael Jackson, the worlds most famous entertainer and she is set, no financial problems, a stable future and wealth." Siedah stopped and checked Michael's reaction. He was crying silently. He knew as soon as Siedah would leave the room he would let loose and cry into a pillow.

"But..I love her...I really do:" Michael whispered and covered his wet face with his hands.

"That's the thing Michael! You're blindly in love! Remember what happened with Lisa. You were blind in love with her. BLIND! And you couldn't see that she was also just using you for her own pleasure. It was everything for lust. She just used you as her sex toy!" Michael winced at that.

"And now the same thing is happening again with Susan. For her it's everything for money. Or maybe both I don't know...did you two, did you get in bed with her?"

"Well..."Michael said slowly.

"You know what, you don't have to tell me that. Just think about it. Isn't she just playing games with you, for her own advantage? Did she ever do something for you? I'm right back." Siedah said and left the room.

Michael thought a while about what Siedah had just told him. It was true, he and Susan had had sex, even though he had always said he didn't trust a person that quickly. As Siedah came back he told her everything that Susan had done for him to help him get over his fear that Lisa had caused. It was normal that he could speak to her about such things, since she was a longtime friend of his.

"She told you she wanted to take away your fear?" Siedah said slowly and raised her eyebrows.

"Yes...I was scared of physical contact and...just letting someone close because of what happened with Lisa during that time, you know? And Susan helped me, she really did." Michael said.

"Hmm, by handcuffing you again, you mean that's what people normally do to help someone overcome such a fear?" Siedah said and sounded worried. Michael chuckled a little, thinking back to that night.

"Siedah, you wouldn't understand."

"Oh no Michael YOU don't understand what's going on here. Just think why would she need to tie you up? Because she wanted to fuck you and because you wouldn't do it!"

"Siedah! Don't speak like that!" Michael exclaimed and got up. He paced around in the room slowly while she spoke.

"Michael you don't realize that she's playing with you, trust me! And now the third thing: She doesn't want you children. She doesn't want children because she's only after your money and having her fun with you. So, there you have it. I'm sorry I had to tell you this so directly but you seem to be really blinded by her." She checked Michael's reaction. He just stared our the window, watching the grey sky.

That night, Michael cried himself to sleep. Susan couldn't sleep until the early hours of the morning because she was worried about Michael's behavior. And Siedah fell asleep with a smirk on her face.