I woke up the next morning and rubbed my face with my hands. Everything felt different now, since what happened with Lisa. It was another huge blow to the atmosphere in Neverland. I looked around – again, Michael's bedroom door that connected our room was closed. I stood up and tried to open it, but it was locked.

"Michael?" I called him. No answer. I looked at the clock, realizing it was already 11:15 a.m. I went downstairs and bumped into Mrs. Chase, Michael's personal chef and asked her if she had seen him.

"I did actually, he told me he had to get a massage, his back hurt very much this morning. Do you know what happened? He didn't want to tell me"

Of course I couldn't tell her what had happened that cause his body to hurt.

"Uh, no I don't know" I faked a smile. "So...I guess he's in the massage center?" I was referring to a little house that was built on the grounds of Neverland.

I went over to the place and stood in front of it, the door was closed and I heard Michael and a woman talk in there. I remained there for a while, listening to their conversation.

"Ahhh...yes, right there Kate....ahh, it hurts right here" Michael groaned.

"I'll fix it Michael, just relax and let me work my magic on you. You have wonderful soft skin, like silk. Do you want me to massage you with this special oil? It smells really good, perhaps you can impress the girl, if you know what I mean"

"I'm good" Michael chuckled.

"Which one, you don't want the oil or you don't want to impress the girl?"

"Kate you know what I mean" Michael joked around and I heard him giggle. "Hahaha Kate, that tickles" He laughed.

"Come on, turn around on your back, I need to get those shoulders from the front as well, you are so tense, I don't know how you did that. "

"Alright, but I'm warning you, no tickles, you know how I am" Then there was a silence, only to be interrupted by Michael's hysterical laughter. "Stahp!"

"Sorry, sorry Michael" Kate giggled also, which made me cringe. After all, I couldn't help but feel jealous that she got to be with Michael now that he needed someone so badly.

"Ok I want you to stretch your arms behind your back, get a good stretch in there to loosed up the muscles"

"Yah right, so you can attack me again" Michael said . "I swear I'm going to fire you Kate, you can't treat your boss like that" Michael chuckled.

"I promise I won't, I'm being all professional again, come on lift your arms, or are you embarrassed cause you're not shaved?"

"Pfff, first of all, I am shaved and second I wouldn't be emba-"

"Mkay, but also...down there?"

"Kate!" Michael exclaimed. "Don't ask those kind of questions" They both giggled. I stopped breathing for a moment to collect myself. Why was he so comfortable around this employee? It made me feel horrible, so I went to the door and knocked.

"Michael? Are you in here?"

"Susan?" he answered.

"Yes, can I come in? I was looking for you."

"Sure, c'mere girl"

I opened the door and saw Michael lying there on his back, just in his boxers, on the massage table, Kate by his side. She was massaging his shoulders.

"You're the girl, sorry I forgot your name" She smiled at me.

"I'm Susan" I tried to smile back. "Michael, how are you? Do you feel better?" I asked him and came closer.

"Nuh-uh Susan" Kate held me back. "I just put oil on him, he's all sticky" We both giggled, although I had to use all my acting skills to fake it. I wanted to talk to him NOW.

"I'll just stay right here, won't touch him" I raised my hands in the air, putting on a fake smile "So do you feel better?" I asked more silently and Michael nodded. I lead my head to his and kissed his lips.

"I love you Michael, always know that"

"Hmm" He answered and turned his head away from the kiss.

"Hey, Mike" I touched his cheek. "I love you baby"

"I like you too Susan, please... uh, can you leave us finish this now" He said and Kate stepped closer, her eyebrows raised. She began massaging his beck again.

"Oh. Sure then, see you Michael" I was completely shocked and went out the door. I heard Kate giggle a few seconds later and saying something like "What was she doing?!"

I stood there a while and thought about what had just happened. Michael had turned away from my kiss. And he had answered to me saying I love you with I like you. I felt even worse when I heard Kate say:

"What was this, you kissed her Michael!" She sounded excited, but Michael's voice sounded irritated.

"SHE kissed ME, there's a difference"

"Uh, I don't know if I believe that Michael, come on you can tell me everything" She giggled.

"There's really nothing between us Kate. After Lisa I need to take a break from women, focus on myself. You know how I am. Now please keep doing this, it feels amazing, right there"

I felt tears coming up and I ran back to the house, into my room and locked the door. I threw myself onto the bed and pushed my face into the pillow, crying hard. I never thought Michael would drop me like that. But maybe it was all an illusion in my silly mind, that I, a fan, could save him and mend his broken heart? I cried even harder, I was such a fool.

Suddenly I heard a knock on the door.

"Susan, please open the door." It was Michael, but I didn't answer.

"Come on, please let me in...I need to discuss something with you" He pleaded. Discuss something, well, now it would come. I wept into the pillow.

"WHAT?" I yelled now, tears running down my cheeks. "What is it Mr. Jackson? " I went and opened the door.