Yay, I'm not dead. It's been like 6 months for those of you who are new, so some people have really been waiting that long. Anyway, thank you for being patient with me. Life had become significantly harder for me in November. Thank you for supporting me and being considerate. I think this chapter is deserved by all my readers.

Here's a recap for those of you who need this:

Pippy and John got in a big fight and John bolted in anger and sadness, Maddie gets hella mad bc Johns a baby and literally did nothing so she's ghosting him for now. Alex is done with Philip and sends him to his mother's house. Philip and Eliza get into a fight and Eliza calls someone to come over to let Philip know something important. That's the end of the recap.

Next chapter, we will get back to John. For the first time this year my loyal readers-

Enjoy-

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Philips POV-

"Thank you for coming over" I hear my mom open the door and ask. At the moment, I'm curious. I mean- it's not every day your mother invites someone over without your knowledge to tell you something that could possibly change your life forever.

"No problem, are you nervous?" I heard a familiar voice say.

"You think something is going to happen?"

"No way, we're his parents, what could he do?"

"You're right" I heard as I crept back into my room.

--after waiting "patiently" for his mother to call him over--

I heard a knock on my door. Finally, it took them long enough. "Philip can you please meet me at the table?" a soft voice asked. I thought of the different possibilities of occurrences as I walked out into the kitchen. There, I found my mother and father whispering to each other.

"Um," I coughed, my parents, looked at me in shock like they didn't expect me to enter so quickly. Pa sighed as I sat down, "Philip, your mother and I have something to tell you." I look a deep breath in, preparing for them to tell me I was right, John broke apart their marriage and that they want to get back together now.

"You see Philip when you were born, I was 18. I had just graduated high-school when I found out I was pregnant with you. Your father and I were not dating, we were barely friends. Alexander was always around because he was Angelica's economics partner. We had a few one-night stands, but we never got to know each other." Momma said carefully as if she would have said the wrong word, I would explode. I nodded for her to continue. "You know that your grandparents are very Christian. They don't believe in sex before marriage, and when they found out I was pregnant, they were furious. They demanded that I got married to Alexander immediately or they would disown me. When I told your father what happened, he agreed to marry me. Alexander also didn't want you to grow up fatherless, we got married 2 months later, for your sake and mine. After a few years, I was sick of living a life of fake romance, I wanted to go out and find someone who I could love with all my heart. I talked to Alexander about it, we decided there is no point in pretending to love each other. You were old enough to understand that we were getting a divorce" (Alex is 37, John is 36, Eliza is 34, Pip is 16, Maddie is 16, Alex was 21 and Eliza was 18 when Philip was born, for anyone who is confused with the ages) "John was never at fault for our divorce, if anything, your father is happier with John than he could have ever been with me."

Shattering. That's all Philip heard. Everything he knew, everything he thought, was breaking apart. His whole life, he thought that his parents were helplessly in love with each other. That they would spend the rest of their lives together. Everything he thought he knew, was all a lie.

"Wait-wait-wait." I start, at this point probably a hot mess. "You mean to tell me that my ENTIRE life has been a lie?"

"Philip please don't be irrational-"

"No, every time you kissed, every "I love you", every time you would be a cheesy married couple that was all an act? All the "heartbreak" from the divorce was fake, All the excitement around your anniversary, that was all one gigantic fucking lie. And you have the audacity to tell me not to be irrational?" I snap. My head is pounding. I'm searching for any trace of my childhood that makes sense. Anything, anything at all.

I heard my mother's voice, "You need to understand Philip, your father and I love each other very much, just not romantically."

I can't take this right now, I stand up, trying not to start hyperventilating. I heard my chair fall on the floor as I ran out of the kitchen and into my room, slamming the door. I slid down the door crying.