Hearing the truth and wishing you hadn't - 10
Seth looked at Roman and Dean he didn't get why they fell behind they must of been talking.. He was feeling jealous he wanted to talk with Roman badly. He sat next to Roman he wouldn't be able to talk about what he wanted with everyone around.
He observed Roman as he finally was close to him he was still attractive in every way, yes he loved how Roman looked before but that was all in the past now as was his old look. He needed to know how Roman felt about him.
Roman was talking to Jimmy and Jey so Seth didn't want to interrupt. He looked over at Dean he noticed that he was looking at Roman, but it wasn't that he was looking at Roman that made Seth a little annoyed and confused it was the way he was looking at him. What was going on here Seth thought, did Dean have a crush on Roman? By the way he was looking at him it very much seemed that way but it seemed to be a very endearing look.
Dean looked at Roman as he sat by Romans other side, he felt so happy and warm inside he just wanted to be close to Roman. He was startled as something happened that was not anticipating at all, Seth was now next to him calling to him he snapped out of his daze turning to face Seth, he had a look on his face that Dean could not quite read. Seth spoke quickly "Hey.. Can we go somewhere to talk??" Dean was confused by the fact that Seth wanted to talk to him and not Roman. Dean nodded "yeh sure pal" he got up looking back at Roman who looked puzzled as to what was happening.
Seth walked off and Dean followed they walked till they reached a hut they walked behind it where no one was around and Seth stopped and turned to Dean. He looked at Dean he didn't get what was going on here, Dean looked at Seth speaking low "Seth.. Whats up..? You ok..?" Seth didn't know what to really say he hadn't thought this through.
He decided to play it cool and act like Dean was his pal that he wanted info from. "Well... I was wondering something.. I was watching back there and.. Well i saw the way you was looking at Roman." Dean knew Seth was on to him, how could he of been that obvious? He couldn't help it but he shouldn't of let his guard down no one could know. They would get in trouble, what if it was someone else who noticed? how was he going to hide his feelings that he felt for Roman.
Then he remembered Seth liked Roman, thats why he was asking him and being like this. Seth saw the change in Deans expression, Dean replied "Um... Wow.. I am embarrassed.." He rubbed the back of his neck, "what can I say Seth.. He is.. A good looking guy.." He tried to play it cool. Seth's expression was on the verge of annoyed and upset he felt overly jealous, but that look Dean gave Roman seemed deeper "Dean.. You like him..?" Dean shrugged "I know you like Roman too Seth.. I saw the way you act around him and look at him, but I..." He stopped for a second.
Why was he going to say this to him? To make him back off? He didn't want to fall out with Seth as he seemed cool but he needed him to know, Seth waited for him to continue but got inpatient "You what..?" Dean continued he could see Seth was looking agitated "I more than.. Like him Seth.." He looked away blushing. 'Crap, crap, crap' Dean thought to himself. Seth stared at Dean he was worried something was going on between them, but it couldn't be right.. This had only been one day.. And a lot had happened already.
Dean knew he liked Roman was he making it that obvious? Dean liked him more than a little..? "Is something going on with you two Dean..?" He tried to keep calm but he was failing and Dean looked up seeing Seth looked upset "I don't.. Know what to say.." Dean replied, what could he say that would not upset him.. What could he not say..? Seth could not hold back anymore "Roman.. Kissed me in the shower this morning.. And he liked it.. I liked it.. And now your all saying you like him..?" Dean felt his heart ache.
He did not know this. He thought Seth only had a crush on Roman but they had kissed..? And in the shower..? He felt upset, confused and jealous that Seth had seen Roman completely naked and made out in the shower block. He also thought of how Seth had gotten to make out with Roman while he had his hair long, before Dean had even made a move. He shouldn't be mad at Seth but he was, and was upset that Roman had not told him but maybe everything Roman had felt for Seth had left after he had kissed him. As it felt like what they had between them was something special.
Seth hoped Dean would think now that him and Roman would not happen as Roman liked him, but he still thought there was something Dean was hiding. He watched the look on Deans face after he had told him Roman kissed him, he saw how his expression had changed. Dean looked at Seth his expression was a little angry, he didn't want to upset him but he was making him annoyed "Seth... After you acted like a total jerk to Roman.. I was there for him, not you!".
He was almost glaring at Seth now "You left because you acted like it was all about yourself, when he was hurting.. a lot" Seth looked back at him feeling anger building up as Dean continued "and guess what Seth I helped him feel better not you! You only liked Roman as you had a crush on him its all about looks to you.. Do you not care how he felt at all or how sad he may have been..? And Guess what I did care and I was there comforting him.. ".
Seth listened he knew Dean would of been first with Roman after that awful ordeal happened that afternoon, but he didn't realise it would of been Dean comforting him. He could not lie he had been selfish, he had only thought about how low and upset he had felt and he felt awful about it now he looked away from Dean. He knew he had messed up. Dean stood watching him, did he keep going or did he just stop, Seth looked upset maybe he realised he was wrong.
Seth spoke softly trying to keep calm "And.. What else happened Dean..?" Dean looked at him confused. He wanted to know..? He reluctantly told him "We made out Seth.. Not right after.. But it just happened.. I never knew Roman kissed you.. I just thought you liked him..?" Seth still was looking at the ground his heart felt like it had shattered he had ruined what was between him and Roman and while he was gone Dean had been kissing him.
Roman must of been hurt to not care for him anymore and just get with Dean like that. He felt a tear run down his cheek and thought how Roman probably never liked him in the first place. He turned to walk away from Dean, he wanted to leave he didn't want to be here anymore he wanted to be at home but he was stuck there.
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