Hey guys

So to day in school

I got hurt 2 times

One

My finger got shut in a door

Two

I hurt my feet

I can't walk

With me right foot

I can some what stand

It hurts like hell

They said

It could last a week

Be for it is batter

Why does this happen to me

I fill feel batter

And

This happens

Like what the hell

What did I do to get this

Like why

I can't move alet

I can't get to my room

With out being in pain

I can't do bowling

I do most of the stuff

I like to do

Like fuck

What the fuck did I do

What did I do to get this

I can't get in the car with out being in pain

I'm going to need a lot of help in school

To get around

I can't move my foot with out it hurting

Why me

Like just

Why

Why the fucking hell

Did this happen to me

I just don't fucking get it

I try my best

I try so hard

I try till I'm at the point of crying

I hurt my self

Just to make my family happy and proud

To make them think I good

So they think I'm happy

I try so hard

To make everyones life good

Happy and hopefull and to make share they don't give up

But

At the end

I don't make share

That my happy and hopefull and don't give up on my dreams

I go thow pain

To make others happy

I make everthink look like its ok

But

Don't be worried

I'm fin

But

Deep down it really fucking hurts

Thats why

I don't get why this happend to me

Why did I  deserve this

What did I do

To get this

To be

So

Brokening

Why

Why

Just why me

Why me

I'm the one who takes the blame

To take the hurt

To take the pain

To take the sadnees

To fake the really

To fake the happens

To fake the smile

To fake that I'm good

To cry when I can't find help

To cut my self

To us a knife

The knife that makes the x in my arm

To take all that hate

To be the broking

To be the one leave out

To fell alone

To feel like no one cares

To feel like I should just kill my self

Just so that I can be free from this hell

This hell that I call home

This hell that I call school

This hell that I call life

But

I have to keep going

To not make you guys sad

To stay here

And make share that you are ok

That you are happy

That you are not sad

That you don't feel like you are alone

So

That what happind to me does not happind to you

I try my best

But sometimes

I don't know if that even