Jimin's P.O.V:

"So you're really leaving huh.." Y/N asked through quiet tears. I sighed and nodded in response.

"I really am.." I told her sadly. She nearly choked on his own breath as she sobbed. Y/N rested her face on my shoulder, making my sleeve damp. I stroked her soft, silky hair, trying to comfort her as best I could manage.

But no matter what I did, Y/N only continued to ball her eyes out.

I feel terrible to leave her here so abruptly, but my sister wants me to help her raise her newborn girl when it's born. The worst part of it is that she currently lives in San Francisco, California, and that is so damn far away from Y/N, who I have still not confessed my true feelings to. And for her own good, I have to keep it that way, because there are just too many obstacles or nightmares that could and would get in the way. Plus she probably doesn't even like me, let alone love me. Im lucky an amazing young woman like herself decided to even be associated with someone such as me. It was a shock to me when she suddenly asked for my number almost three years ago now. I had no clue as to what her intentions between her and I would be, but so far, I can't lie.

For three years I've been friend zoned.

"Do you have to leave....?" Y/N struggled to finish his sentence with complete syllables in between. I intertwined our fingers together and brought her hand to my lips, kissing the top gently. She shivered at my touch.

"I'm sorry but my sister needs me in California. As much as I'd rather stay here with the l-".

Almost blew it, Jimin

I continued, covering up my original response with a lie that I hoped she'd belive.
"L-lovely Y/N.. I gotta be there for her at a time like this" I explained painfully. The morning sun beat down on Y/N and I through the window that glimmered in the translucent, yet so very visible sun light. It was a blinding glare that shot into our eyes. The sun made Y/N's beautiful face glow even more once the light and her defining, sharp features met each other. When they hit together, she looked like.. an angelic Goddess..

She sighed in despair and tightened her grip on my hand, clenching to it for dear life.

"I- ...I want to come with you" she said softly finally. At first I thought she was joking or he had gone crazy, but I could tell by the tone in her painful voice that her words were genuine and pure as they lingered through my ears. Her entire being, especially her voice poisoned me as soon as I heard it, but I let myself absorb the venom, because I didn't know I'd enjoy the pain so much until it was too late.

Y/N had infected me, with a disease so bad that I could turn the other cheek or walk away from it. It was even too hard somedays to pull my mind from thinking of her. Somhow she got me addiced like the snap of a finger.

I both hate and love love.

I was able to let my left hand be released from Y/N and used it to rub her face with my thumb gently. I kissed her forehead and held her in my arms, constantly repeating the same words over and over again until it felt like I couldnt make myself believe that they were actually real words.

"I'm so sorry".

She continued to weep endlessly until I had to pull away from her grip. I checked the time.

Shit, my flight leaves in twenty five minutes.

"Y/N.. I should get going.. and Y/N, you can't come with me. I can't and won't let you. You need to proceed in your career right here with SNG (your girl hip hop dance/rap/singing group of 5) I wont let myself destroy that. I couldn't live with myself knowing that I deprived you of your dreams. I'm sorry" I apologized, for what seemed to be the millionth time in the last five minutes.

"C-can I at least drive you to the airport and say goodbye before you really leave Seoul forever.." she asked sweetly but still sadness in her voice shown through brightly.

"Of course you can, thank you" I replied, she only nodded before rising up from the edge of my bed that was now only a matress and boxspring. She whiped his tears out from under her eyes and grabbed her keys off of the cedarwood coffee table that stood lonely in the living room in front of my door.

"R-ready?" Y/N asked through stutters. I sighed, breathed and looked up at her who tried smiling, even though I knew she only wanted to be anything but happy.

The look in her eyes screamed:

I just want to cry forever.

"Yep!" she said with fake, sarcastic enthusiasm. But I think she was too tired and pained to tell the difference between seriousness and jokes anymore.

Her face looked drained of color, and although Y/N was of course already somewhat pale, she looked like a vampire. Not the ones like you see in the movies with sparkling, glistening skin and eyes that changed color according to their mood. She looked like he'd came straight out of her coffin from her own grave. This pale was sickened looking.

As much as I wanted to cancel this entire thing, confess, and live happily ever after with the girl I love, I knew it would never be. Because people need me in their life right now and I need to be there for them in desperate times.

But at the same time, for some reason, Y/N needs me in her life right now and she needs me just as desperately as my sister does.

Damn it Y/N, why must you make whats supossed to be an easy choice, so fucking difficult.

So at this point, I am now left with only two options.

I either follow my plan and move to San Fransisco with my sister and nephew..

Or I start my own love life and family here in Seoul, Korea with someone who I thought I'd never catch speaking to me but I eventually fell in love with.

Y/N really needs me, but so does my sister Juni and her soon to be born daughter Elisu.

What am I going to do.

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Idk if u noticed but I switched the point of view and roles of the characters in this one shot simply because..

I thought of something and realized the one shot(s) would work out better if I switched the roles of the reader and Jimin.

So now ye know ^-^ tata! ♥》¤《♥

You'll see why pretty soon heheh

If I can't live without you
And I can't breathe when I'm with you
What are we really doing here
I don't want to live without you
And God only knows what I've been through
Cause dying is all we're doing here

Stone Sour - "Dying"

Its a great song by a great band I saw live a couple weeks ago with Babymetal, Yellowolf, Islander and Korn ^_^ anywys sorrynfor spelling errors and other mistakes, forgive me. Luv you guyssss ♥♡♥:D

(Ps REQUEST PLZ OML HALP)

For jiminscutejams

Wrote this Jimin one for you Rose ♥♥♥ part two will mostly be released between tomorrow and Wednesday before lunch-time (1:00-2:45 PM) at some point, promise ^_^

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