Hinintay ko lang na kumulo ang tubig para sa dalwang tsa-a na gagawin ko. Nasa kusina na ako habang hinihintay siya. Pinasok na niya si Ethan sa kwarto. The day was tiring but its all worth-it. Bukas balik na naman ulit sa totong mundo ko. Isang linggo na lang din at babalik na kami ng Italya ni Ethan.

"No sugar, please," mahinang tugon niya sa tabi ko.

I sighed deeply while making his tea without giving him a glance. Hindi pa rin okay ang puso ko at ramdam ko pa rin ang namumuong tensyon sa aming dalawa. Tahimik siya sa gilid, at nakasandal sa kitchen counter. Hindi ko na napansin na nalagyan ko rin ng asukal ang para sana sa kanya.

"Oh, god!" buntonghininga ko.

Napatingin na siya at mariin lang din na niyakap ang likurang bahagi ko. Ramdam ko agad ang dampi nang halik niya sa balikat ko ngayon. Nanghina na ang tuhod ko sa ginawa niya at nataranta na ako.

"I'll do it again," sabay hakbang ko at iwas na din. Pero humigpit lang siya sa yakap sa akin at mariin na sinubsob ang mukha niya sa leeg ko.

"It's okay. I don't need it now because I need you more, Faith," mahinang tugon niya.

Tumingala na ako at nagsimula na naman ang bilis na tibok ng puso ko.

"Lach. . . Hindi nga tayo pwede - " sabay harap ko sa kanya.

His eyes are reddish again. I am about to say more but he sealed my lips with his kisses. Kissing me lightly, temptingly, over his, making his way inside. The warmth of his mouth seductively rubs against my tongue. It's sweet, it's weakening, and it's melting inside me. Nanghina lang ako sa bawat tulak ng labi niya. Bumigay na ang puso ko at hinayaan na siya sa mga sandaling ito.

It's rapaciously wild, it's burning with passion and love that has been kept for years. It's like the first time that we kissed when I was seventeen...

Yumakap na ako sa leeg niya at binuhat na niya ako para maupo sa countertop table dito sa kusina. Mariin lang din ang bawat haplos niya sa likod ko at maingat ang bawat halik niya sa labi ko.

"Lach," I whispered in between our kisses and fully wrapped my arms around his nape.

He stop for a moment and we stared. His eyes twinkled. Ang mapupungay na mga mata niya ang nagbukas sa init ng nararamdaman ko. I shut my eyes when I felt his gentle caress and his kisses on my nose down to my lips.

"Mahal kita, Faith. Mahal na mahal," sa tindi ng halik niya.

"I'm not asking you to love me back the way I wanted, but please. . . huwag mo akong iwasan, Faith. Kahit konting oras lang, kahit katiting lang ako sa buhay mo. Please, Faith," dampi ng halik niya sa tainga ko.

He leaned down and brush his lips against mine. There's no stopping anymore as his mouth explored freely inside me. His tongue thrust deeper inside, tasting every bit of me. I accepted it, I accepted his kisses. Kung ito na ang magiging huling sandali naming dalawa ay ibibigay ko na ang sarili ko sa kanya.

"Lach. . ." habol hininga ko at tindi ng titig niya.

There was a yearning ache from deep within that has been kept for years, and it grows more wilder by his kisses. Ang bawat haplos niya, ang bawat galaw ng kamay niya sa balat ko, at ang bawat tamis ng labi niya ay nakababaliw sa buong pagkatao ko.

I was deeply hurt over the past years. But it was all gone, and the longing was the only thing that remains. . . I am now hungry for his kisses, needing him in a primitive touch and elemental way that is threatening to snap beyond my control. I don't want to think of anyone tonight, because I want him and only him.

When he cupped my butt and pulled me closer, I gasped for an air of surprise. He lifted me and scoop me up. Napahawak na ako ng mahigpit sa leeg niya habang naghahalikan pa kaming dalawa. I can hear him pushing the bedroom door, down inside the dark room.

"I'm not gonna hold back, Faith," he murmured in between his kisses.

My eyes widened. Obviously, I'm losing control and out of my mind. Baliw na kung baliw pero wala na akong ibang matinong maisip ngayon. For the second time in my life, I don't give a damn shit to the consequences of unprotected lovemaking. Nangyari na sa amin ito noon at parang mauulit lang din ito ngayon.

Pero imbes na itulak siya palayo ay ako pa ang unang humalik ulit sa labi niya. It's not gentle anymore, because our kisses is wild and hungry for each other's need. Mabilis nangyari ang lahat. Mabilis ang pagtangal ng bawat damit namin sa isa't-isa. He's back on top of me with so much urgency and need. I know it is more than lust, because I can feel it and I know that is it love. . .

"Oh, Lach!"

I moaned in pleasure and my body arched at different angles while he freely kissed my neck. Mabilis bumaba ang halik niya hanggang sa magkabilang dibdib ko. His warm hands cupped my bottom, kneading the rounded firmness with a rhythm, and that made me moan for his name.

"Oh, Lach," I whispered in a breathless sigh. "I never imagine that this will happen again between us. I miss you..." habol hiningang tugon ko.

"I missed you so much, Faith. Walang araw at gabi na hindi kita inisip. Hindi ka nawala sa puso ko, Faith. Kahit kailan hindi nawala ang pagmamahal ko sa'yo," sa tindi ng titig niya.

"I'm sorry for everything, sweetheart. . ." tamis ng halik niya ulit sa labi ko.

Napapikit-mata ulit ako at dama ang bawat haplos ng kamay niya sa boung katawan ko. Nabaliw na ako at mas napakapit na ng husto sa kanya. He is driving me out of my mind with so much delicious pleasure that he masterfully give to me. I clung into him, running my hands all over him, feeling his intense muscles. Parang naukit lang muli ang dating init na pagmamahal ko sa kanya.

My entire being is hungry for his touch. His delicate touch to my breast made me arched for more. I moaned for his name again when he massage them gently, sensually, before closing his mouth over them. I breathe in heavily, it's shallow and rapid, and as I wrapped around my legs tightly around his thigh, he knows that I am seeking sensual relief that arouses inside me so much.

"Faith," he groan as he lowered himself down to my belly.

Ang akala ko tapos na siya pero hindi pa pala at simula pa lang ito ng mas lalong mainit na tugon ng katawan niya sa katawan ko. Napangiti ako ng maalala ang unang gabi naming dalawa sa maliit na tree house niya. Uminit lang lalo ang pisngi ko ng maramdaman ang halik niya sa pagkababae ko.

I was shy at first when we did it for the first time, but as the moment pass by there was never any shyness left between us. I hate to admit it, pero nangyari din naman sa amin ni Paul ito. Pero kakaiba si Lachie, he can make me forget everything by his touch. He can make my heart pound for more with his stare. He can make me go crazy with his kisses. He can easily melt my heart, and pleasure my needs, by taking me to the verge of lovemaking.

He is the complete definition of love, hurt, pride, passion and success in my life. I know I got everything twisted because of the pain that I've been through. Pero mas napatunayan ko lang din sa sarili ko na maliban kay Ethan, ay lahat ginagawa ko para sa sarili ko.

Ang akala ko buo na ako dahil may Ethan na sa buhay ko. Pero hindi pa pala, dahil heto ako ngayon, kumakapit sa bawat tugon ng pagmamahal niya. Nanghihina sa bawat halik niya, at nabubuhay ang puso sa mga binitawan niyang salita.

"Ah! Lach. . . Ah!" I moan in every thrust he made.

His entry is a surprise for me. Hindi ako handa pero gustong-gusto ko ito mula sa kanya. I widely open my legs while his pounding inside me. Our body moves in a timeless magical moment. He filled me up right into the brim. His hungry kisses is like ripping my lips and sucking my tongue. Kumapit na ako ng husto sa kanya at mas diniin ang katawan niya sa katawan ko.

I closed my eyes and I felt the heat shiver rapidly travelling inside me. Kahit pa anong pilit na gusto kong abutin ang isip ko ay hindi ko na maabot ito. My body began to melt into the need for his virile strength as he began to move rapidly inside me. Hot ripples of pleasure intensify each time he thrust, it's throbbing, it's aching.

"I love you, Faith. Walang iba, Faith ikaw pa rin," sa abot pawis at lalim na hininga niya.

He kiss me tenderly while our bodies moved in the same rhyme and at the same pace.

"Oh, Faith, my darling, my baby, my love," he sensually whispers.

"Oh... Lach!" arko ng katawan ko sa kanya.

Nawala na ang lahat ng pag-aalala. Nawala na ang lahat ng galit at sakit sa puso. Nawala na. . . Dahil tanging pagmamahal na lang ang natira sa mga sandaling ito. It's all for desire, passion, and need that joint us into a surging force and took us into the vortex of mindless.

Suddenly everything exploded, sending us both into the realm of wondrous pleasure. He collapsed against me, burying his head in my neck, and I hugged him tightly. Our bodies still joined. He didn't move and just plunged once more inside me. Napapikit-mata na ako at napangiti na ng maramdaman ko ulit ang halik niya sa leeg ko.

"Mahal kita, Lach. . ." sa habol hiningang tugon ko habang haplos ang buhok niya.

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C.M. LOUDEN/Vbomshell